[youOme]

I know, it's a f'ed up thing to say.

I resent her.

I always have.

When we were kids everybody loved her more then me.

She's much prettier then me.

Has always had many friends, with not the slightest bit of effort.

I especially felt immense anger towards her when Mom left me in Indiana as a ward of the state and took my sister with her... to keep CPS from taking her away. Mom just let me go into the fire, like scarifying one child for another...for the better child.

Now, she was offered the greatest opportunity at happiness, to money, to a marriage with a wonderful military man. She had everything and never onced picked up a finger to work for it. Her son had more then I ever fathomed my children would have.

She was ungrateful and blew it all away like it was nothing....I would have done anything to have gotten what she had.



I just don't understand anything anymore.

[Dancer_in_the_light]

(((((youOme))))))

[Rhapsody]

((( HUGS ))) - I'm sorry your family has hurt you so.

[salukigirl]

why be mad at your sister for something she can't control? you said it yourself, she didn't work for it so obviously she would have had all those things no matter what. she didn't chose to have whatever personality trait that makes people like her. and she most likely didn't ask your mother to leave you behind. so why spend all this time and energy on something that can't be resolved. youre never going to go back in time and have your mom take you with her or have your sister not have friends or money... its too much effort and energy into something with no results. it sounds like, if anyone, you should be mad at your mom, not your sister. she didn't ask to be born and thats basically what youre mad about. sorry your mom did all that to you but you can't take that out on someone who had no say in your life.

[youOme]

The past is obvious jealousy, for good reasons. I agree my sister didn't intentionally do any of those things. But what I despise of her now is she had the perfect life and blew it all on some hot promiscuous sex and drugs...everything she has was given to her for nothing...and she's ungrateful. I have nothing compared to her and I've worked hard for it, grateful for the smallest of things and situations. It's not fair........

[Doh2007]

That's such a bummer. I can't imagine how much that must hurt. I hope some of that anger is aimed at your mother.

[embarassed]

Yeah I agree. It's your mother who seems to be at fault for your suffering. I know your sister blew away what she had but she's human. People make mistakes. Maybe her life wasn't as perfect as it seemed. You never know what's going on behind closed doors or underneath the surface.

((((((youOme))))))))))))))))))
I am sorry your mom treated you this way. I can relate to part of it.
I was always the one who did not do things correct. Well the way they would have done it.
I ended up on a different way of life than my sister. But i have worked hard for that.
My sister took what she had and blew it up her nose. Money yes she lost.
But most of all she lost herself. My kids. And her chance to be there for my parents when it was needed.
You have something you sister does not have. You have you and self respect
A person is not messured by money or what they own
Its how they treat the world and others around them
Remember you matter..............................
muffy