[WastingAsparagus]

I am doing okay. Just tired lately.

[Deilla]

Today is my day off. I will only do fun things or things that help me recuperate. I had a busy week.

[Deilla]

I had a back procedure done today and I went out to eat with my mom. I'm glad I took care of myself and treated my mom to lunch for helping me.

[MrsFunky]

@delia hope you recover quickly glad your day went well

[Deilla]

@MrsFunky, good luck with your book of poems. I write fiction though I do have a mental health memoir too. I know how important it is to get reviews. Sending you good thoughts.

[Deilla]

I'm doing well this morning. I'm less sore and I notice I can do a little more with my back. I will take my trash out today. That will be the true test. If I have less pain or no pain, I will call the nurse and let her know things were successful. That means I can have the third and final back procedure done.

[MrsFunky]

delia best of luck I hope it all goes well

[Deilla]

I took my trash out today and didn't have pain until I got home. It was a little pain. But it's an improvement. I called the nurse, so they will set up the final procedure. I asked for mild sedation. These procedures are painful. The third one will be worse.

[Breaking Dawn]

The voices have been easier much of the time lately, so I'm feeling better for longer breaks & feeling less stress.

[Brego]

I am pretty sure that I have tinnitus as well. The Schizoaffective disorder, bipolar type is not making me hear all these rings and buzzes, is it? I could hardly do anything besides want to cry because it always said something upon the tinnitus. I was just sitting back wondering if I could get help. Didn't say anything though. It's been happening since winter or fall. It's like mind torture. Seriously. I put some tinnitus relief apps on my phone. It was all so wild. Sometimes I think I'm gonna have a stroke. But then I tell myself I am not going to let it bother me. It's like mind torture from some evil mastermind. I thought I had mentioned it to my doctor. I think I am going to have to say something again. It's mind torture. And strength of will testing. It's some mind charade I think sometimes. Like it really is the Devil or a demon. It just doesn't shut up. And so I did get to thinking it was a demon and the Devil. It was so difficult to withstand, and I may sound like a snowflake. But it was torture.

[Deilla]

I've not had a good day today. My mood has been off. My therapist isn't hearing me. So I looked up on WikiHow how to come out of a bad mood. I did the best I could. I feel somewhat better. I may go to bed early tonight. Maybe a good night's rest will reset me.

[Brego]

This morning was awesome!!! It's my birthday in four days. My Mom took me to Walmart and bought me a couple of outfits. We are also going to celebrate it, so it's all a gift! This is wonderful. Maybe it will pick up my steps. Maybe my outlook on life will change. I can tell it's already happening. Sometimes an event comes along in which you think is a miracle. Then some other things come along and it's just wonderment after wonderment until you think you're king/queen of the world. The luckiest people can relate.

[Breaking Dawn]

Happy Birthday to you in advance, @Brego! And I'm so happy for you, how your mom made it all so special for you!

[MrsFunky]

Brego is your birthday the 28th? Mine is ! I am making 7 layer bars and celebrating with my wife. Happy birthday hope you have a great day.

[Breaking Dawn]

And Happy Birthday to you, too, @MrsFunky!

[Deilla]

I have housework I have to do today. Merry Maids is coming tomorrow. I need to organize a little more before they get here.

[Brego]

@MrsFunky, I am turning 29 on the 29th of July.

I am excited. I have this new motivation to quit smoking. It's seriously working it's magic, and I think I can do this. This time I think that I can totally quit cigarettes! Yay me!

[SlumberKitty]

Happy Birthday @Brego! Hope your day is fantastic!

[Deilla]

I am bored tonight. I feel okay. I just don't know what to do with myself. Nothing seems interesting. I could color but I don't feel like it. I'm taking a break from my game. I got bored with it too. Maybe I just need sleep.

[Brego]

My birthday was very good for me. I am in a good/better mood now. Lovin' this feeling. It's really kind of exciting it ever passed over me. Like a little freedom.

[Deilla]

I tried to quit vaping this weekend. It was terrible. I slept mostly cause I couldn't cope. Nothing I did helped. I resupplied today. Now I'm feeling less stress. But I'm disappointed in myself.

[Brego]

I think that I am hitting a stable point. Seriously feels like it. I am enjoying this feeling a lot.

Feeling the motivation itself to quit smoking is really good. It feels like it is working up to be that I actually do.

I tried meditation. I am just a beginner, so meditation is a little unknown and I don't think I quit got there. However, the images and voices were a little bit like they were calmed down from being so abusive. They were rather sweet actually. And the effect lasted quite a long time. I tried this because a friend wanted to tell me to meditate. It seems helpful to me, so I should keep doing this and become one grand old meditator to solve my problems. I can see myself getting better and better when I really want to try. It was very relieving to hear it all be not so demeaning and angry.

[Deilla]

I have my third back procedure tomorrow. They will give me a mild sedative. They want me awake for the procedure but I don't want to feel the pain. These procedures hurt. This one will be worse.

[SlumberKitty]

How did the back procedure go, Deilla? Did you notice any relief?

[SlumberKitty]

I'm doing okay. Just anxious/bored today.