[Deilla]

Thursday will be a week since my procedure. I'm not any better. The nurse said to give it a week. I hope I see improvement.

[Breaking Dawn]

I was able to watch 2 tv programs that I've been missing for a while, so that was uplifting.

[Deilla]

I called the nurse today. She said it's normal to still be sore. It could last a few more days. I think I did too much yesterday. I really hurt today. I am taking it easy.

[Brego]

I think I'm finding an activity that I love!

[Deilla]

I feel sad tonight. I've had a lot of disappointing things happen. They're just little things, but it adds up. Maybe it's time for me to go to bed. I get more depressed later in the day.

[stahrgeyzer]

I’m feeling good this week so I’ve been taping myself off my antidepressants, unbeknownst to my psychiatrist and therapist. Just so tired of them. They make me sleepy.

[Breaking Dawn]

I'm ok right now.

[MuddyBoots]

I think I'm going to start posting here more regularly. It's "official" in my mind my schizoaffective diagnosis now. I was kinda hoping the psychosis I had was from drug use but I've been clean for a while now and the doc at the hospital went over all my psychotic symptoms while I wasn't manic or depressed and it's setting in that they're right.
I start PHP tomorrow. I hope I can talk to the same doc because there's issues with me getting some of my meds.

[Breaking Dawn]

Hi, friends. I'm not me right now. Very sad. Crying a lot. But grateful. Trying very hard. God bless you. I wish you happiness & wellness. I'm so glad we have each other. Today feels very different. I don't understand & I don't know what to do. It feels very painful. I've been watching tv for comfort. I've been recalling precious memories. So sad but wonderful. So I feel fortunate to have had those experiences, & I am grateful, but sad.

[Deilla]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

Hi, friends. I'm not me right now. Very sad. Crying a lot. But grateful. Trying very hard. God bless you. I wish you happiness & wellness. I'm so glad we have each other. Today feels very different. I don't understand & I don't know what to do. It feels very painful. I've been watching tv for comfort. I've been recalling precious memories. So sad but wonderful. So I feel fortunate to have had those experiences, & I am grateful, but sad.

I'm sorry today is tough. I hope the tv programs help. Yes, remember the good times and know that they'll be more. I'm sending good thoughts your way.

[Deilla]

I'm having a difficult day too. Things aren't that bad for me, I just don't feel well emotionally.

[MuddyBoots]

Woke up way too early again. Early bird gets the worm, early human gets bored. I'm not very interested in starting PHP today. My thoughts feel very jumbled.

[Deilla]

I've been in a bad mood today. But I just got a shower, which is a huge accomplishment. So I'm feeling better. I think I will go on a drive tomorrow as a reward.

[MuddyBoots]

The paranoia+voices are strong today compared to yesterday. I took a zyprexa prn at about 1:30 this morning. I didn't sleep well.

[Deilla]

I went on my drive today. And I slept well last night. So today is much improved.

[MuddyBoots]

Had my injection yesterday so hopefully my symptoms won't be as bad today, so far just a touch of paranoid thinking but nothing to write home about. Woke up early again.

[Breaking Dawn]

I was feeling overwhelmed & sad, but a small while ago I discovered something that lifted my spirits.

[Deilla]

Today is stressful. I have to call my doctor's office cause they messed up my script, and I have to go by my leasing office to sign paperwork. I don't want to leave my house today. I don't even want to get dressed. So I'm not happy.

[SlumberKitty]

Anyone been in a virtual IOP? What's it like? My insurance has cleared me to be in one but I still have to do an intake call to see if I fit the program requirements. I'm nervous. It's like 45 days! 5 days a week, 3 hours a day.

[MuddyBoots]

Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

Anyone been in a virtual IOP? What's it like? My insurance has cleared me to be in one but I still have to do an intake call to see if I fit the program requirements. I'm nervous. It's like 45 days! 5 days a week, 3 hours a day.

I was about this time last year. It was through zoom, they emailed you a link that led to Zoom and you enter a meeting where you see all the faces through their webcams and the counselors are there too. You just kinda shoot the **** for a bit until everyone's logged in then what we did with so many people was split into separate "rooms" and then we all said our names and did group as normal just virtually (which did make a lot of people more distracted/less interactive than during in-person groups just to warn you if you notice that happening in your group). It wasn't as good as in person, but it was certainly better than not getting any treatment at all.

Hope your IOP helps you out, you sure deserve it.

[MuddyBoots]

My paranoia kicked into high gear during PHP today, along with voices. It's a bit better now, but I'm kinda freaked out about going back tomorrow. I really, really don't want to go.

Possible trigger:

I've been having a lot of suicidal thoughts that have surpassed the "passive" and "fleeting" stages the past couple days, but I really don't want to go back inpatient so I haven't told anyone yet.

[SlumberKitty]

Originally Posted by Sapien

I was about this time last year. It was through zoom, they emailed you a link that led to Zoom and you enter a meeting where you see all the faces through their webcams and the counselors are there too. You just kinda shoot the **** for a bit until everyone's logged in then what we did with so many people was split into separate "rooms" and then we all said our names and did group as normal just virtually (which did make a lot of people more distracted/less interactive than during in-person groups just to warn you if you notice that happening in your group). It wasn't as good as in person, but it was certainly better than not getting any treatment at all.

Hope your IOP helps you out, you sure deserve it.

Thanks for this!

[SlumberKitty]

Originally Posted by Sapien

My paranoia kicked into high gear during PHP today, along with voices. It's a bit better now, but I'm kinda freaked out about going back tomorrow. I really, really don't want to go.

Possible trigger:

I've been having a lot of suicidal thoughts that have surpassed the "passive" and "fleeting" stages the past couple days, but I really don't want to go back inpatient so I haven't told anyone yet.

HUGS hugs HUGS Kit

[Deilla]

I slept very little last night. I just kept waking up. It was horrible. And then I woke up with a migraine. I took some meds and was able to sleep until 11 am. I don't feel well emotionally today. I just increased my Zoloft. It will be a while before that helps. I'm just so sad lately.

[MuddyBoots]

Another crappy day. I'm going to quit PHP and I just realized I have therapy (an appointment I never scheduled or agreed to in anyway and didn't know about until yesterday) in half an hour. Excuse the whining, but I don't wanna.

Edit: Didn't go well. I told her how I really felt and she's going to have the crisis line call me over the weekend and I have another appointment with her on Tuesday.