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Thank you. I was just curious if anyone here had experienced this. It mostly only happens when I'm trying to wind down or if I haven't slept. It's like voices in my head that are distinguishable from my own thoughts and I have no control over. Was just curious if I'm the only person who it happens to. Thanks again.

Mine were predominantly internal like that...the well developed people who were always talking to me...my external voices were always short fragments of sentences or just single words or sounds.

I bleeping hate everything around me. So much bleeping stress. Unbelievable stress. Loud noise surrounds my worthless self. I hate my worthless life. Everything's going to be fine in the world. I just know it. but not for me of course. Mom needs the expected surgery. She has had back surgeries before and every single one of them has become infected with MRSA. She has nearly died both times. Her back is literally disintegrating. Everything goes for the worst. We are spending tens of thousands of dollars now for the house repairs. Nothing good to report. Yesterday was my worthless birthday. I know right now the Ukraine is bad, but as usual with the world it will go fine. In fact by tonight it will be resolved. Dow is going up. I know North Korea is hellish. Its sad there. Thank God I live in America. But as usual we are going down. Also the chimney on our house is about to fall off. No, I am not joking it is literal. That alone will cost a lot of money. Intel never recovers. In fact I have been saying for 14 years that it will never go to highs again. EVER. 14 years later its still in the same pathetic range. That is all.

I had a very bad experience years ago. I don't trust them. And it's very hard for me to open up & be honest about what's really going on inside my head.

So I went to a new doctor and am getting put on Geodon...

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February does not seem to be going well for us. At least it's almost over. It's too damn cold outside.

Willow: I had a really bad dentist as a kid so I hate it. He was mean to me. Well, so I mostly only go if I break a tooth.... not the best policy maybe. But, I brush 2x a day and floss (sometimes obsessively....) No dentist has ever yelled at me for not caring for my teeth but maybe I've just been lucky. The destist who was mean used to scratch me with the tooth hook thingy if I didn't open my mouth wide enough, as punishment.... I was just a kid! Then my mom took me to a pediatric destist and he was very nice, but a month later he got arrested as a child molester and was in the news. I was about 10 years old. I never went to the dentist after that until I broke my tooth and I think that was in 2009.

Willow: I had a really bad dentist as a kid so I hate it. He was mean to me. Well, so I mostly only go if I break a tooth.... not the best policy maybe. But, I brush 2x a day and floss (sometimes obsessively....) No dentist has ever yelled at me for not caring for my teeth but maybe I've just been lucky. The destist who was mean used to scratch me with the tooth hook thingy if I didn't open my mouth wide enough, as punishment.... I was just a kid! Then my mom took me to a pediatric destist and he was very nice, but a month later he got arrested as a child molester and was in the news. I was about 10 years old. I never went to the dentist after that until I broke my tooth and I think that was in 2009.

I just took the depression quiz here on Psych Central. I KNOW I am depressed but was curious to see what the quiz said. I scored a 78. It says I'm severely depressed. It's very correct!

Well there ya go.
Call tomorrow. It can get worse without help.
Thats what I have been finding out at least. But I think I have more going on.
Glad ur willing to say HELP!


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I just googled a Mental Health place where I'm going to try to get some help from. I'd call right now but their office closed at 5 so I will call tomorrow. I'm afraid that if I'm completely honest with them about what is going on inside my head----they'll lock me up in the hospital! I can't do that. I can't tell them about having thoughts of suicide because then they'll think I'll act on those thoughts. I NEVER would but they don't know me so they won't know that.

I just googled a Mental Health place where I'm going to try to get some help from. I'd call right now but their office closed at 5 so I will call tomorrow. I'm afraid that if I'm completely honest with them about what is going on inside my head----they'll lock me up in the hospital! I can't do that. I can't tell them about having thoughts of suicide because then they'll think I'll act on those thoughts. I NEVER would but they don't know me so they won't know that.

They tend to break due to cavities though so you'll lose more if you don't get them filled when you need to but I got like 8 or so done when I broke my tooth so it was a lot. They did one side of my mouth at a time. I hadn't been in like ten or fifteen years though at first due to money then due to anxiety.

Nah, they are wisdom teeth so already they are weaker. My other teeth are good, thank heavens.

Am I the only one that anxiety is a pain reliever? I had a huge anxiety incident when I got home. I was in pain because I hadn't taken my pill so I could drive. Now it feels like I didn't even have anything done. I look up anxiety stops pain online but it's all about chest pain and how to stop it....

Thats a very good question.
I have no idea. Maybe endorphins?(sp)

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i am hearing voices.
a lady singing.
and a man talking.

Are they bothering you?


I wear headphones all the time to prevent voices. I don't know if that would help you, but you could try.


When that doesn't work I listen to the radio or music to block them out.


If all else fails, you could try talking back and tell them to leave you alone.

So how.did you come up with the screen name "Newtus?"

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its from the name Newt from the british television show Hollyoaks.

there was a character on there named newt who had schizophrenia. his visual and auditory hallucination named Eli would call him Newtus.