Roll Call 20

Sometimes psychotic · Mar 23, 2014, 02:13 PM

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Originally Posted by Cannablissfully

Hello

I'm back. Tomorrow is the big day...The day I see a psychiatrist about my problems
Btw Sometimes when I talk I might slur my words Or I go off into a different conversation randomly about nothing or I will say something that doesn't make much sense or is a jumbled version of what I really wanted to say...I don't want to do this when I talk things over with him..
does anyone have any advice on how
I can prevent myself from doing this? thanks..
I am already nervous about this appointment And I don't wanna embarrass myself

BTW Newtus I have had something similar
But they were saying look what you made me do
I'm watching you and I hate you.. That's what they were
That happened a few weeks back.

Seriously your pdoc will have seen people much sicker some people only talk gibberish at times if they even talk at all so I would not worry or try to hide it because it's something they should be assessing. Very early on when my pdoc asked for my medical records and I hesitated he said something like in order for this to work we have to be able to trust one another and this is true from day 1. It's also true about drug use they can't breach confidentiality unless you want to hurt yourself or somebody else so you can be totally open with them but since it can trigger psychosis it will help them come up with a diagnosis...

Cannablissfully · Mar 23, 2014, 02:32 PM

Oh dear...well Ok. I just gotta flick off the nervous gremlins from my shoulder
And just go with it. I have trouble coming clean about all my issues but you're right
for it to work I will have to be open. thanks.

I was fine last night but when I woke up today my thoughts were like,OMG it's really happening tomorrow and then I started to panic. lol.

I am gonna meditate before I have to go to my appointment
That should help.

Sometimes psychotic · Mar 23, 2014, 02:43 PM

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Originally Posted by Cannablissfully

Oh dear...well Ok. I just gotta flick off the nervous gremlins from my shoulder
And just go with it. I have trouble coming clean about all my issues but you're right
for it to work I will have to be open. thanks.

I was fine last night but when I woke up today my thoughts were like,OMG it's really happening tomorrow and then I started to panic. lol.

It not like you need to actually tell them everything right away it's more like don't lie if they ask something directly...

Cannablissfully · Mar 23, 2014, 02:46 PM

Right,

UGH I am gonna need to do A LOT,of meditation to calm my nerves.
So like what if They ask about drug use,I smoke weed but it's not legal at all
where I am,not even for medical purposes..Could I get in trouble for that?
for telling them that I smoke it?

Oh my head lol...Sorry Today I am feeling Nervous,Energetic,and fearful.
I hate conflicting emotions. They make me feel all weird.

I need to do my aura cleaning meditation followed up
by a calming and self peace meditation.

Sometimes psychotic · Mar 23, 2014, 02:51 PM

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Originally Posted by Cannablissfully

Right,

UGH I am gonna need to do A LOT,of meditation to calm my nerves.
So like what if They ask about drug use,I smoke weed but it's not legal at all
where I am,not even for medical purposes..Could I get in trouble for that?
for telling them that I smoke it?

Nope...they can't say a thing...this will almost certainly come up due to potential drug interactions etc...my pdoc when he asked me about this was just like I need to know everything you are taking every herbal medicine drug vitamin etc. because for first episode psychosis they are really hoping you don't have a mental illness and they can diagnose you with something else there is a whole class of drug induced psychosis just for this purpose...so they need to figure out if the pot is triggering your psychosis or whether you may have one of the illnesses that start with the schizo prefix.

Gr3tta · Mar 23, 2014, 02:55 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

All those sound fantastic...I'm making roasted asparagus sandwiches with a smokey French dressing and chocolate banana muffins

Oh i love roasted asparagus!

I realized I've been cooking and cleaning up meals without eating them. But the cooking is still fun. I still have my tunnel vision today, going to play fetch and tug within the fence with the dogs.
Saw the mummy boy on the neighbor's garage roof kind of like to see him.

Cannablissfully · 03:31 PM

Ok thanks.

Well I am gonna go do some yoga
some meditations and get my restless mind at ease.
Then make some dinner. (Btw just a tip I have learned to
NEVER meditate on a totally empty or a totally full stomach)
I get the best results when I eat a small meal before hand.
Like a salad. When you meditate you need
to feel lighter in all ways. even the Buddhist monks believe that.

Oh have you tried that meditation I mentioned yet?

medicalfox · Mar 23, 2014, 03:06 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

All those sound fantastic...I'm making roasted asparagus sandwiches with a smokey French dressing and chocolate banana muffins

Those sound so amazing, I never heard of a asparagus sandwich before.

medicalfox · Mar 23, 2014, 03:07 PM

The landlord is having a party and there are a bunch of kids screaming outside from excitement, they woke me up and I feel kind of bad

medicalfox · Mar 23, 2014, 03:11 PM

I just googled what a asparagus sandwich is and they look super easy and yummy. If anyone has any super easy and healthy recipes can you let me know? I have an eating issue and maybe if I knew how to make more healthy and easy things I could help fix it.

Sometimes psychotic · Mar 23, 2014, 03:40 PM

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Originally Posted by medicalfox

I just googled what a asparagus sandwich is and they look super easy and yummy. If anyone has any super easy and healthy recipes can you let me know? I have an eating issue and maybe if I knew how to make more healthy and easy things I could help fix it.

Healthy Eating Made Easy: Nutrition Tips and Easy Recipes - Prevention.com.

These tend to be some of the easier recipes that are also healthy although you might want to try cooking light magazine for its super fast section those are easy and eating well occasionally has some easy ones too as well as clean eating. These guys vary in what they will give you free on the websites though.

Gr3tta · Mar 23, 2014, 03:48 PM

Fox i really like finding recipes here: Epicurious.com: Recipes, Menus, Cooking Articles & Food Guides they vary but plenty are easy and they have some different things if you're tired of the same old.

medicalfox · Mar 23, 2014, 04:02 PM

Thank you some much SP and Gr3tta, I think I'll order a couple of food magazines with easy recipes. It might motivate me to eat better and to eat more often

Gr3tta · Mar 23, 2014, 04:24 PM

I get the food network magazine and i like it!

*trigger*
I use watching food shows, reading food magazines and recipe books, reading food blogs online, etc, unhealthily. BUT i have also genuinely learned a lot that way.

medicalfox · Mar 23, 2014, 05:16 PM

Food blogs sounds like a good idea too. I see a lot of recipes on my tumblr dashboard, but generally they are for sweets.

newtus · Mar 23, 2014, 06:28 PM

i just bought melatonin for sleep. how well will it work? i bought 5mg pills.

justmeandmyhead · Mar 23, 2014, 06:31 PM

I haven't had friends in so many years that I think I've forgotten how to be normal around people...

Sometimes psychotic · Mar 23, 2014, 06:39 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

i just bought melatonin for sleep. how well will it work? i bought 5mg pills.

A friend of mine took it... Works pretty well in the short term but it's much weaker than Xanax.

Atypical_Disaster · Mar 23, 2014, 06:40 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

i just bought melatonin for sleep. how well will it work? i bought 5mg pills.

Melatonin helped me sleep but for some reason it made my mood plunge into some seriously frightening lows. Unfortunately I can't take melatonin anymore for that reason. That may seem strange, but that's been my experience with it.

newtus · Mar 23, 2014, 06:43 PM

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Originally Posted by Atypical_Disaster

Melatonin helped me sleep but for some reason it made my mood plunge into some seriously frightening lows. Unfortunately I can't take melatonin anymore for that reason. That may seem strange, but that's been my experience with it.

hm. maybe i shouldnt take it everyday then.