Roll Call 20

Just realized that sounded wrong lol. I mean I wish I could help you find someone to be intimate with.

hahaha its ok. i got what you mean.

Hahahahaha!

Yeah I never had to fly while psychotic but it was bad enough on abilify the plane got delayed like 3 hours which wouldn't have been so bad except that they did it half an hour at a time so its like they were leading us on I was calling my dad at the airport almost in tears ready to just walk out of the airport and take the train back home and not even go on the trip at all. What I found was that my usual reading and listening to mp3s was just not enough but videos really calmed me down. On the way home there was free wifi and I found an outlet for my phone and just sat there watching netflix and I was much more stable. So if you can bring a laptop or smartphone or something to watch movies etc its much much better. I would check into the wifi options at your airports a lot of them use boingo and you can sign up for that at home before your trip so you know that you'll be set. Anyway find something you really like to do to occupy you while you wait and while you fly---you could even do something crafty like cross stitch or whatever just so you stay busy and focused. Or I don't know if you play video games but a lot of the handhelds are great for trips....

So I had my pdoc appt this morning... Complete waste of time!

The guy had a really thick foreign accent so I couldn't really understand him. And he started off by reading 2 statements off the computer screen that weren't true about me seeing a doc I'd never heard of while I was actually hospitalised so couldn't have been at the clinic, and that I'd missed my appt in Feb. So I told him he must have the wrong file open, but it was def my file so I don't know what cr@p they've been putting in there.

I didn't say much because I didn't trust him. He asked what my problem was and I said that I've been told there's nothing wrong with me. He then asked if I felt sad because I seemed depressed. He wanted to know if I'm on meds, I said that the hospital stopped them because they said there's nothing wrong with me. He asked if I wanted meds but I said "not really". Then he said he wanted to prescribe citalopram!! Which was the very first AD I ever tried, over 6½ years ago. I didn't bring a list of meds because I didn't expect anyone to offer me any. So I ran through a list of all the ones I could remember. He kept clicking on his computer the whole time. Then he asked if I heard voices and thought that people were out to harm me; didn't answer. So he asked again if I thought people were out to harm me and I said yes. Then he asked about SH & suicide and I said no, which isn't strictly true but it's not important.

Then he made me go and sit out in the waiting room while he talked to ex-pdoc about what med to give me cos he couldn't figure out what I'd already been on. I knew that was pointless because I knew she'd just tell him there's nothing wrong with me and I don't need meds, but I was a good girl and sat in the waiting room again. After an hour though with no news, I left. I wondered if it was a test. If they were watching me on the CCTV taking bets on how long I'd wait. It was weird because both him and ex-pdoc were supposed to have clinics and there were no other patients the whole 2 hours I was there. Anyway I left

An hour ago my Dad gets a call saying that I'd left "abruptly" (to which Dad replied that I'd waited an hour!!) and the pdoc asked the guy to call to say there was "no point" in giving me meds, and that my next appt was in 3 months with another pdoc cos he was leaving.

So yeah, that was my appt

*Willow*

Damn Willow, I'm sorry that happened. Doctors can be so stupid, I'm sorry you've been so dismissed over and over again. I can only imagine how frustrated you must be.

can i do smartphones on the plane tho? i have an iphone and it know it has airplane mode but idk if i can still do it on the flight. i have a handheld video game but only 1 game. ima see if i cant get more. i got loads of magazines from my magazine subscriptions. ima see if i cant sleep on the plane some of the time. its a 3 hr flight. im scared of the plane crashing and turbulence.

That is so bizarre--I have no idea why they are even making you see a pdoc if you don't need meds in their opinion its pretty screwed up...plus what were they doing for that hour that's crazy---

So yeah you can use your phone in airplane mode on the plane which can still connect to wifi if you pay for wifi on the flight but not all planes have it. You should be able to use any game on your phone that doesn't need to connect to the internet even if you can't get wifi---if you have videos on the phone instead of streaming you can watch those too. One thing I will say is this uses a lot of battery so you might want to get some sort of booster because once you're on the plane you won't be able to plug in anymore. I'm sure you know but you can't have electronics on until you reach altitude or during landing so yeah for sure bring magazines for those times to distract you. Also remember some chewing gum for your ears...and in general try to focus on the fun you will have when you land...

thanks. oh yea! chewing gum forgot about that. i rememeber the landing and taking off bit. i can use my ipad. the battery on my ipad lasts a looong time so i can bring both my phone and ipad. i have a nintendo 3ds but only one game. lets see...i should check the american airlines website for policies.

https://www.aa.com/i18n/urls/enterta...mand.jsp#wi-fi

Looks like you will most likely have wifi on the plane for $14 which isn't so bad....

Thanks Atypical It was basically what I was expecting so...

Thanks Sometimes I have no idea why I'm seeing anyone at the CMHT if I'm just full of ****!?? Yeah, why were there no other patients??

*Willow*

the thing is they said certain models of planes have certain things and idk what type of boeing id be on . you know? idk how to find that out. im trying to use their pull down menus for checking my flight but it only goes through saturday! dang. im leaving in 5 days .

im having voices in my head saying ridiculous things.

It doesn't say what kind of plane on your ticket?---mine always has the plane type because I prepick seats etc so they know well in advance...worst case scenario download some movie you want to watch from itunes onto your ipad then you can just watch it...

I feel like the universe is trying to tell me that I don't matter

*Willow*

I am SO sorry that happened to you! What a jerk! I totally understand how this is very upsetting. I hope she doesn't call you again! I'd send her one penny every week!

That's a huge lie Willow! You DO matter

Newtus: I like the idea of a movie you can watch on your ipad or phone if it doesn't have the wifi. Also do you like games? there are a lot of good puzzle games and match 3 games for iphone that distract me. I like Triple Town, Jelly Splash, and Cavemania is pretty fun, a new one I got. I think those ones don't require internet. (You might want to check, though.) I think it's good to have several so if you run out of turns you just play a different one until they recharge. I never fly so I don't know what planes offer any more. The last time I was on a plane was 2003!

Willow: You do matter. You're just dealing with some incredibly stupid idiots at the moment and it's not fair.

Cracking: Hahaha, a penny a week! I was thinking about sending a dollar by certified check every paycheck. LOL. But that's funnier. Well, my co-worker who is in billing collections here used to run that office that called me. She told me that lady is wrong for how she called me. But, that office is really strict and sues even for tiny amounts so I shoudl just set up a plan. So... I'm going to see if they will do $5-$10 a month.... My friend here is really nice. She said she will do me a favor and get my account moved to one of the nice collectors and not that woman.

I don't think that's the universe talking.

i dont have my ticket yet. only the itinerary. i get my ticket on the day i leave or however it works. i havent flown in 7 years or so. anyway ill figure it out

and THANK YOU!!!

You don't have an e-ticket or receipt in your e-mail? Did you book on-line or by phone? I don't think I've ever flown american so I don't know how they do it I almost always use united because we're a major hub for them...anyway yeah of course you'll figure it out just make sure to bring your camera we are all expecting new pics!