Roll Call 33

Blow into the phone and hang up-----disconnects do happen----

Psychiatrist says I'm at an extremely high risk for becoming an alcoholic because of my family history and behaviour and to stay abstinent from alcohol forever.

I laughed at my dad when I heard that he was out of booze and started drinking my moms baking vanilla .. But I did that too so..

This is cool I got a plan for my phone so I can use the internet anywhere. Expensive as hell though..

both my parents are long time alcoholics and still drink a lot. i picked up drinking when i got old enough to drink at 21. but i still had some everyonce and awhile before since i was 9. when i was 9 my mom was feeding my beer. i didnt know what it was then. i started drinking wine coolers at 15 and by 21 i was drinking gins and hard liquor. now at 23 (almost 24) i drink everyday and hard.

I've dealt with a lot of family drama and I can understand. Sending good thoughts your way.

Found still more signs that the school is brainwashing us...

Just accidentally shocked myself with a cord

Random chicken of the week.....

Wow, they're saying Robin Williams has passed away from an apparent suicide.

Who is serenading whom? Or are they a duet?

Having had chickens sitting on me, I can tell you that sooner or later - probably sooner - she's going to poop on him. That's good luck, though, right?

Yes I think he hung himself.

He probably doesn't care....plenty of people with dogs have to step down with a bAggie into the smell of Ick but birds they just don't smell bad and all you have to do is change your shirt...my tiel is mostly potty trained though you can kind of tell and then you hold her over the trash and ask do you need to poop and she'll go....I'm not sure if you could train chicken in the same way...

Just read here about Robin Williams, once a hero of mine growing up. So sad, my thoughts are with his family. Suicide is a terrible thing

I read claims that people have chickens potty trained in various ways. I'm skeptical.

@ Newtus..

When you overdosed and I said "Newtus.. wake up..", I didn't mean it in an ignorant way I meant it in a sad way like I don't want you to die because i didnt know what to say just want to clear that up in case you misinterpreted it.

work sucked. i felt paranoid but also idk i actually SAW ppl talking about me like they were whispering and looking at me. also i just didnt want to be there. i dont feel ok right now. i took another prn like 10 min ago. i had such good day before i went to work. now i feel bad. idk. f_ck it

i feel like im gonna cry

That's life. There's are ups and downs. The key is to move in the direction where the downs aren't as far down as they used to be. This is just a little down. You'll feel better after you sleep.

idk why but work affected me a lot today. i just feel so very negative. and my thoughts just keep saying im upset over and over again. im not even looking forward to tomorrow. i dont work tomorrow. ill prob just be here alone in my apartment all day. idk i just feel really awful. i had such a good day before i went to work. i was happy. i guess thats what hurts so much. losing that good feeling so fast. i should prob just go to bed

Also, I noticed the other day that the cashier who was checking me out was snickering with the cashier at the next lane. When my cashier noticed me noticing her, she suppressed her laughter, which of course made me think they were laughing at me. I couldn't figure out why they would be, but I had that impression - and I don't get paranoid. I generally figure I'm not interesting enough to attract any attention - positive or negative.

Anyway my cashier had the grace to look embarrassed, and I still don't know if they were snickering about me or if they had some joke going on that wasn't appropriate. It doesn't matter, though. People who laugh at other people or who try to make other people uncomfortable are juvenile. Why spend any time worrying about whether you're living up to their standards or not?

I think sleep is a good idea.

ok. i took my night meds. im laying in bed. i hope tomorrow is ok

Good night.

I am so physically tired....I just want to sleep....abilify did not do this last time.....

Same here, yet another poor night of sleep. Hopeful for tonight though...!