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:/ ok. i wonder what i shouldnt and should tell them. if i do signup that is.

Thanks
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Just paint yourself in a positive light----look up interview techniques if you are unsure----

Basically---training someone is a hard part of hiring someone so if you say short time I'm thinking this person is going to flake out after 2 weeks and I'll have to train someone new. Not fun.

Just tell them you like cats and want to help brush them or whatever---that you find it relaxing....

i met with T. he gave me the option of meeting downtown on a bench in the courtyard or in his new office. i chose downtown. so we were sitting on this bench talking and then SPLAT!!!!!!! a bird pooped right between us onto the bench. it didnt hit either of us. it was right in the middle. we both were like WTF. it was funny tho. but i was glad it didnt land on our heads. we had a good session. i got one of my school books for free from Ts girlfriend. she stopped by to give it to me while we were there.

i went to my friends house and we watched key and peele. i thought this car was following me on the way home. i think i just need sleep. i only slept 4 hrs last night.

so im pretty tired

That sounds so fun---I wish I had those kind of interactions to share with a T

The most I had with my T was the ability to make myself happy by talking about right brain and then the sun really beamed into the office like a ray and I was just like hmmm....and pointed it out probably as more evidence of my delusion and she had to be like shutting the blinds the next time

ok. thats good advice. ill take that. im also thinking about signing up for college again for the fall semester. maybe take like psychology or something.

That sounds fun----I like psychology

if i can make it in time that is! deadline to sign up is in two days. plus you have to take the TSI (texas success initiative) before signing up for like english and math. so i chose psychology because its still a credit class but not anything too hard but i think its still TSI required :/ idk yet

I wanted to get to college, but I'm really anxious about it and putting myself at risk travelling there, so I'm going to have to try next year.

I only want my points to get to uni and then get a job.
It's all on hold with the gang stalking though.

when T was working in the program we would go outside to meet. i dont know how it started with us looking under the water drain lid in the ground, but for some reason we were. and we found the biggest black widow we've ever seen. so every so often we would go out there and take the lid off the drain and check on her. sometimes she had egg sacks with her. she stayed there for a long time, like years. but one day they were working on the walkway beside it. we went to check on miss spider but she was gone!!!! i admit i was a little sad. i texted T that night and said i missed the black widow. he texted back and said, "its ok! she has a show in vegas now"

lol i love T

i so shouldve done this earlier. such a procrastinator!!!

Today wasn't very bad. There was a presentation at school that basically said that if you don't comply to mind control then bad things happen. Then it tries to brainwash us. I'm about to go to Boy Scouts, the court of honor is today!

'If only they had treated him before'

very very sad. but the comments on the facebook post by CNN are even worse. people just dont understand

I get that feeling. I understand.

[QUOTE=junkDNA;3944521]when T was working in the program we would go outside to meet. i dont know how it started with us looking under the water drain lid in the ground, but for some reason we were. and we found the biggest black widow we've ever seen. so every so often we would go out there and take the lid off the drain and check on her. sometimes she had egg sacks with her. she stayed there for a long time, like years. but one day they were working on the walkway beside it. we went to check on miss spider but she was gone!!!! i admit i was a little sad. i texted T that night and said i missed the black widow. he texted back and said, "its ok! she has a show in vegas now"

lol i love T[/QUO

Lol................

When I was little, my grandparents had a tortoise called Fred. I used to love feeding him bits of lettuce and seeing his little pink tongue sticking out - I thought he was cute and I'm sure yours is too!

Wow! That's really pretty! I love peacocks

You're very intelligent and high functioning Sometimes - you got that huge grant last time based on work you did while psychotic - so, even though you may not feel on top form, I'm sure that you're more than capable of doing your work to a high standard. And you have a good boss so I'm sure they'll encourage you to take some time off to rest if you need it

I can relate to this feeling My brain just feels sooooo slow and stupid the last few years. It's so frustrating! But then I did a craft class last week and a lady couldn't understand/remember how to use a ruler, so I should count my blessings that my cognitive problems aren't that severe in the grand scheme of things...

Good luck!

I think a few of us are starting courses this autumn. I've signed up for a jewellery course, and applied to a local college for an intro to counselling course, which I have an informal interview for at the end of the month. And I'm hoping to do a more in depth Acceptance & Committment Therapy course cos I didn't really understand the last one.

I think you should go for it! I'm really nervous about my craft class each week, but it's never as bad as I fear and I feel good about myself afterwards for going through with it and the others seem to enjoy it.

I don't really understand what the TSI thing is, but go for it! I think it'll be good for you to get out of the house more, and maybe you'll even make friends at the voluntary thing or college so you won't be so bored and lonely.

I can relate to feeling that my life is on hold (cos I've deferred Uni again), but are there any smaller steps you could take so you still feel like you're making some forward motion? Eg my council has adult education classes which last for 10 weeks and include cooking, computer stuff, art and craft etc. You could practise building up to college again? Otherwise you can do courses online if it's just a case of getting GCSEs or A Levels needed for Uni?

*Willow*

Psychology is tough going newtus. Very verbose , with meticulous abstract concepts. Not sayin you dont have the aptitude for it at all, But moving from little interaction to a college situation in a highly demanding course is a big ask for anybody. Why not source a part time course , in psych , From a local training body , that is not as demanding as college would be. Alot of these courses are laid back and you could get to see how you like it before committing to further studies. You've all the time in the world , to find what you like.

well i was gonna take english but i dont think i have the proper pre-test done in that specific school. so i chose psychology. i taken it before and dropped out but i was psychotic at the time. very psychotic. im taking this course at a local community college. im not saying it will be easy but ive taken it partially before.i know i have to write at least 1 paper maybe 2 in there.

anyone else feeling paranoid tonight?

ok im feeling paranoid that the cops are using direct energy weapons on me. its freaking me out man. forreal.

i feel paranoid. im afraid to fall asleep right now. so im resisting it. but i took my meds.

I think the schools are very different here and there here what we call a college is often a Community college and less difficult than a university...

I know.. But they are either going to give it to you in a 'nice' way, or they're going to make you go to the hospital and if you fight it it could become very unpleasant.

Since you're going to get it, maybe you want to at least pick which way you prefer to get it?

this made me laugh because its so true!!!

i dont think i can sign up for school. its just too late to sign. i would have to do all these things to sign up and it requires more than 2 days. thats the deadline. sooooo i prob will pass up school this semester. ill prob take it next semester. registration for next semster starts in november anyway and thats right around the corner.

thats what i get for procrastinating...