Roll Call 33

You could be borderline or something and be able to fix it/ just more sensitive....a friend of mine is like that and she gets shaky just like you're saying...in fact they dxed her with diabetes because of two high tests but it ended up behind due to stress and she recovered after getting therapy/psych meds in order so it's not always clear cut but I would for sure look into it.

That sounds awful atypical. I hope they get you sorted soon

My sister gets shaky like that if she doesn't eat/needs to eat and she's been tested for diabetes but doesn't have it. Hopefully your not getting diabetes fingers crossed

how do u know medicare wont cover it? costello said that her son has medicare and it covered his therapy

You said your T doesn't take it....therefore it doesn't cover it....it's not like whether in all the realm of therapy you can find therapy that is covered but whether a particular service you are billed for is covered or not. It's just like car insurance....if you have health insurance too then that pays for your medical first but if there is some thing that isn't covered due to a wreck then the car insurance will pay. They just wan someone else to take first crack at the bill.

Still call a number and talk to someone who actually works for Medicaid....random people on the internet are not a good source for this because the laws are so variable from state to state.

Since medicaid only wants 8 visits per year I doubt you'll be able to justify the 96 you wanted....you should find out what has been approved in the past.

Blood work at 12 today. I so want to eat.

I miss Punky... Hope things are well for Punky and Bean.

That's scheduled? I just have to show up at some point after 7 in the morning when they open---now I feel privileged....

yeah I always like to think that when people leave its because things are better and they don't need as much support anymore....

didnt get much sleep. had a migraine and was severely vomiting cuz of it.

tired today. prob going back to sleep soon.

it keeps crossing my mind - if my therapist even likes me? do you think she would be doing whats she doing if she didnt like me?

It's her job---I think she would be doing it whether she liked you or not---however I do believe she likes you....

thats what i was wondering - if it was her job. but i did have therapists that didnt like me and showed it. what is making you think she likes me you think?

She did not have to take you back when you "threatened" her that's typically grounds for termination. She's trying to ensure you get the proper care medically---ie she's willing to take time out of her schedule to be present for your pdoc appointments---I'm not even sure she's billing you for that. She's been with you for quite a while now even though she feels the need to change roles to accommodate your needs ---plus you like her---I don't know how you are but I generally don't bother liking people who show no genuine interest in me. Usually we can tell and respond to true caring....

thank you for your explanation. i want to think she likes me to some extent because i like her. the reason i threatedned her was because i thought i could spend more time with her if she died.

maybe that is psychotic thinking i dont know

In what capacity? She couldn't talk to you or anything----if that's all you need go to a cemetery and pick a stone and pretend that its her or something...I mean I don't really understand....

idk i just thought i could spend alone time with her body. not in a sexual way but like as a person. in some ways it makes sense to me but in some ways it doesnt when i think about it out loud. i WAS psychotic when i threatened her. i feel bad for doing it because i didnt mean to scare her or for her to not like me.

It would be cold and hard quickly though she wouldn't be like a person----would a lifesize doll work as a substitute I mean if you ever feel that way again?

i have thought about it before. a lifesize doll. idk where to get one tho. i bet it could work.

yeah I was looking but an unfortunate number of porn items came up---I vaguely remember these being available for safety purposes though usually men that you could dress up so its looks like you weren't driving alone----I've also seen it where people scam carpool lanes---I bet the Japanese would have something since they are really into those body pillows etc....

custom life-size dummies,dummy kits

Here is one place...they are expensive though....

that IS expensive. slightly scary.

lol i dont know if i really need her face on there. just a doll.

im on my phone so i cant post it right now but did find a sex doll they had that were very life like. but you dont have to use it for sex.

Not safe for work

Fatty Patty Inflatable Jumbo Love Doll