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The Cheesecake Factory® OREO® Dream Extreme Cheesecake

This will solve everything or cause a heart attack---either way right?
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Old Aug 06, 2014, 06:17 PM
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I'm digging through old stuff in my room at my parents' house, cleaning out my room and making it neater. I found some old notebooks. Among the chemistry and European history notes were a ton of really moody, depressed, quasi-psychotic poems. I guess I really am bipolar...haha, but I don't remember myself ever being a poet. Weird.

Have any of you heard this song?


"Dopamina" by Belinda. It's about the chemical imbalance of dopamine in a schizophrenic's brain.
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Old Aug 06, 2014, 06:20 PM
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Sometimes I test the universe to see if I'm supposed to be alive. Things like not wearing a seatbelt or not looking while crossing the road.
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Old Aug 06, 2014, 06:22 PM
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Tomorrow I see a new pdoc. He specializes in bipolar. I hope he's not scared away by the psychotic stuff. I'm hoping to get off zyprexa. Maybe I can live med-free. My last t/pdoc said I'll always need meds, but maybe the new pdoc will disagree. I'm nervous. Seeing a new doctor always makes me nervous (especially a new pdoc, because of how much you have to disclose in the first session). Also, I have to drive 12 miles to get to his office. And y'all know how much I love driving... Though today I drove myself to target without getting in a wreck, haha. I'm kind of hypomanic right now. I just want to talk, talk, talk...and then talk some more.
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Old Aug 06, 2014, 06:23 PM
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Got some pure alprazolam, mixed and placed on blotter paper. Took one earlier and it knocked me out for the whole day, still a little woozy. Apparently they're 1.5mg per blotter but they are much more potent. Got a good few, really shouldn't have this stuff lying around as I have a history of taking pretty serious overdoses (hence why I'm on a depot). Can't bring myself to throw them out :/ Not thinking about suicide at the moment, nor have I been for a few weeks. I am a silly billy :P

EDIT: not bothered starting a new thread but do benzos generally give people that complete 'lack of emotion' feeling? I'm not feeling depressed, just... nothing, though it's not nice.
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Old Aug 06, 2014, 06:45 PM
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i thought i was going to die before i was 18 and i almost did from suicide. i cant see myself living past 25 either. just wanted to say i understood.
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Old Aug 06, 2014, 06:52 PM
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i passed out from xanax and drinking and my dad went to the store without me! at least couldve pushed me til i waken up. i wanted to go.
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Old Aug 06, 2014, 07:04 PM
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Have any of you heard this song?


"Dopamina" by Belinda. It's about the chemical imbalance of dopamine in a schizophrenic's brain.
Cool...what language is that?
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Old Aug 06, 2014, 07:07 PM
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Sometimes I test the universe to see if I'm supposed to be alive. Things like not wearing a seatbelt or not looking while crossing the road.
Have you ever heard of the call of the void...this reminds me of that...I often have the desire to step out into traffic but never act on it...it's worse when I'm psychotic though...
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Old Aug 06, 2014, 07:09 PM
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Tomorrow I see a new pdoc. He specializes in bipolar. I hope he's not scared away by the psychotic stuff. I'm hoping to get off zyprexa. Maybe I can live med-free. My last t/pdoc said I'll always need meds, but maybe the new pdoc will disagree. I'm nervous. Seeing a new doctor always makes me nervous (especially a new pdoc, because of how much you have to disclose in the first session). Also, I have to drive 12 miles to get to his office. And y'all know how much I love driving... Though today I drove myself to target without getting in a wreck, haha. I'm kind of hypomanic right now. I just want to talk, talk, talk...and then talk some more.
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Old Aug 06, 2014, 07:14 PM
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im drinking again after passing out. i wonder if i have a drinking problem.
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Old Aug 06, 2014, 07:22 PM
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Cool...what language is that?
The song itself is in Spanish, the written words at the beginning are in French.
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Old Aug 06, 2014, 07:27 PM
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my mother and father both have drinkig problems in different ways. my mom drinks everyday. my dad is a binge drinker. sometimes doesnt drink but then goes on a binge.
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Old Aug 06, 2014, 07:58 PM
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The song itself is in Spanish, the written words at the beginning are in French.
Ok that's why it was confusing to me...I thought it was French but then I didn't understand it at all(I've forgotten most but I should have gotten something I think)....glad to know I haven't slipped quite that far
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Old Aug 06, 2014, 08:07 PM
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I didn't say that schizophrenia was hopeless and you might as well die that's not what I meant at all no matter how bad it is.
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Old Aug 06, 2014, 08:11 PM
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I didn't say that schizophrenia was hopeless and you might as well die that's not what I meant at all no matter how bad it is.

no one said you said that
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Old Aug 06, 2014, 09:13 PM
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is everyone going to sleep? i think i might in a little bit
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Old Aug 06, 2014, 10:15 PM
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I'm going to take a shower and then go to bed, for the last time as a 22 year old. I'm old.
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Old Aug 06, 2014, 10:53 PM
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Hey im new here. It seems like this is a way to get people active? I'm schizophrenic and since i do not have any support groups where i live i was wondering if this is a good place to find others who deal with the same thing?
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Had a dream and in it I kept thinking "I don't want to die" and I kept trying to hit myself my for some reason no matter how hard I try to hit myself I was too weak to make it hurt. Woke up feeling awful.
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Well school was okay. They sent a transmission to my brain today and I don't know what to make of it. I met somebody who feels the same as me about the public schools brainwashing and conditioning us. He provided a lot of evidence to support our claims. When I got home there was alot of mind control gas in the street. Idk how they put so much there.
What grade are you in?
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im drinking again after passing out. i wonder if i have a drinking problem.
You have a serious drinking problem.
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Old Aug 07, 2014, 05:45 AM
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Cool...what language is that?
was about to say... the words in the beginning was French and the video sounds like it's in Spanish.
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Old Aug 07, 2014, 06:16 AM
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Have you ever heard of the call of the void...this reminds me of that...I often have the desire to step out into traffic but never act on it...it's worse when I'm psychotic though...

Yeah I've heard about the call of the void, I find it really interesting. Yeah these urges are a lot worse when I'm psychotic I can turn actively suicidal because of my delusions. I've never thought about it being that phenomenon but I guess it could be
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Old Aug 07, 2014, 06:17 AM
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I'm going to take a shower and then go to bed, for the last time as a 22 year old. I'm old.

Happy birthday secretum your not old hun don't worry
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