Roll Call 45

Try to drink some juice and plenty of water. I'm worried you'll get dehydrated.

Three days is kind of a problem coming from the one that ingested a 1300mg ritalin in a day sometimes :/

Or I'm just being cautious but ya wateh is gud

I'm on a clopixol depot and then they added chlorpromazine and kemadrin for the side effects. Could be either the chlorpromazine or the kemadrin causing it. As long as my weight is going down rather than up I don't really mind.

Yeah but you still need to eat though otherwise you will get ill even if you are overweight. Not nagging just worried

I'll be fine, I'll try have something tonight and am drinking plenty of fluids! Thanks guys!

in bed listening to The Fault In Our Stars on cd and drinking tea in my john deere cup

im thinking about doing some schoolwork but i cant bring myself to do it. the next assignments arent even due til after the middle of the month.

I always do my assignments early because I take a while to do them and I like being prepared.

I woke up again last night, but I slept in so I don't feel tired thankfully. I see my dentist today since my teeth hurt from my fillings still.

I'm the exact same way. I don't tell therapists much about me at all.

idk about where you goto school but the assignments here are long and drawn out. im only getting 1 assignment for every 2-3 weeks. im already way ahead on my assignments. i have to space out how much i do them or ill be 1-2 months ahead and wont have anything to do for a long time.

i guess thats why i liked my fast trak class that was a semester class packed into 4 weeks. there was something new to do everyday or every 2-3 days so i didnt get bored or too ahead.

its actually really boring. im only getting 1 assignment like every 2 weeks or more. but its also not like im doing full time school. but i am taking 2 classes. besides writing papers i can finish an assinment in 30 min to 2 hours average. i finish all my tests in average 15 min and almost ace them (if not ace them).

im definitely doing a summer class so ill have more stuff to do.

...but then again im really motivated right now. plus its online so i can do everything alone. idk how long this motivation will last.

guys i saw the nurse practitioner in Ts office and i am getting off my shot!!!!! ill tell more later cuz i have to rush to work now. but yeah i excited but nervous!!! i really hope it all works out. see u guys laters

Be careful



What a day, not even going to get into the details lol The end result was my doctor adding Seroquel to my other meds, hopefully it helps.

Are you getting off your medication or just changing to something else? Hope it all works out

im pee shy.
idk how guys use urinals

I think it's fun for them.....I remember reading this study on urinal accuracy where they put a target of a fake fly and it dramatically increased accuracy.

I remember when I was 5 and me and my step father were at the zoo with my mother. It was my birthday. Me and him went tot the bathroom and I asked him in front of everybody in the bathroom, "why is yours so big?"

Oh, good times.

I see my PDoc in approximately one hour. I'm going to try to persuade him to put me on Abilify. I've done my homework, I have my reasons. Also, I need something for my panic attacks and anxiety. Since Lexapro no longer works I'm guessing Celexa will be the next one to try, unless he has a better idea. I've been trying to get the meds right for 3 years. 3 years of experimental, soul crushing hell. Let's get it right this time.

Good luck! I really like abilify but its not for everyone due to both effectiveness and side effects. Hope it works out for you.

Well there's a chance that the Geodon is causing the anxiety and panic attacks. So there's that to consider too. It might not have been the Wellbutrin. If the anxiety and panic attacks lift it will be a god send.

What were you on Wellbutrin for anyway....it's kind of a weird med when it comes to dopamine and can induce psychosis in susceptible people....I always wonder about that with Wellbutrin and adhd meds too but it seems pdocs often just add an AP to the mix without altering the original meds.

I had terrible depression at the time. It was horrible, crippling. They thought adding Wellbutrin would alleviate the depression. It was due to the brain crushing psychosis I went through that lasted an entire year. The doctor described it as harmless even. He was gravely mistaken.

However, I was on an SSRI for about 6 months and that treatment alleviated the depression completely from them on. It helped repair the depression. However, during being on it I couldn't feel any emotion so it was a jail sentence because I couldn't feel any positive emotions. No emotions that make life worth living. Nonetheless, I got off the SSRI, the depression lifted but the chronic anxiety and severe panic attacks persisted.

These drugs honestly scare me. I hate that I'm dependent on them.

Well I'm off to see my PDoc. Wish me luck everyone.

thats so weird to me

The moon had a halo last night. I'd never seen that before. It felt magical, like she was trying to tell me something important but I couldn't understand. I don't think she's still mad at me so I don't know why she didn't just say whatever it was...maybe I shouldn't post this here cos I don't want to make her mad again?...but I don't understand what she was trying to tell me and it feels important and I can't say this stuff IRL :/

*Willow*