Roll Call 49

So wonderfully unassuming.

ugh your lucky.

I don't think you're easily forgettable in any way....

i dont know why people there act like they dont know me when ive been going there for 3 years now pretty much.

@Tweaky 4 APs seems like overkill, like they're just adding on whatever they can instead of finding a medicine that works good and giving it time

I agree. Can you imagine having different side effects from each one pile on top of each other. How do they isolate which medicine is doing what?

life is like a box of chocolates.
you might open it up to realize everyone has taken 1 bite out of each chocolate and leave the rest. they are not open to new things. and then theres that person that eats all of them regardless of taste or color or texture, they just like chocolate. gonna eat a mississippi mud pie now...

done. now on to sour skittles.

Now I'm hungry

I'm watching brain games on Netflix. It's really interesting!

I heard the words visual cortex more times in one night, then probably all my life put together.

idk if i can handle being home alone all over again tomorrow

huh I really expected to be out of it after taking Haldol but I'm not even sleepy. Maybe it's the very low dose?

what dosage is it?

I'm starting at 1 mg.

Today's been boring, listened to music to try to drown the voices out, gonna talk to pdoc about maybe upping my dose.

Idk im on a high dose already so he might not do that.

School tomorrow, last day before spring break, so many exams and I still have so much missing work to make up. Anxiety overload.

Hope everyone here gets to doing better, seems to have been a rough couple of days.

thats a really low dose

Feel like crap the past couple of days. Went to uni yesterday then went straight back to bed. Feel really low. Think my mood was dipping then talked about my past sexual abuse with my cpn and it just made it worse. Everything feels pointless and grey. Maybe I do have problems with depression after all. Need to do uni work but just ugh. Just want to hide away. I described the feeling I get of the world not being right to my cpn and she said its part of my psychosis. I have it now I can feel it. So does that mean I'm actively psychotic? I'm still scared of the crows demon birds and I want to go to the other dimension park at night but my bf won't let me. I feel quite paranoid about people following me and watching me too. I'm doubting if this medication is going to work as well as the last one cos it hasn't gone like it did with the last one.

No, not yet. Hopefully soon. This has been some winter.

It's going to be in the high 40s this week!

No more snow.

Did anyone else read this short story when you were a kid? I read it and it scared me to death. http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Silent_Snow,_Secret_Snow

It is, but I see her next week so she'll likely increase it.

I've never read it Angelique, will look it up.

On my 3rd cup of coffee.... took 2 naps yesterday and slept all last night, can't seem to wake up

i had an nightmare that i shot my dad and then my mom shot me in the leg. and then I went on a rampage.

Good morning all.

Feeling a bit better today, voices still there but more in the back of my mind than dominating it. Feeling a bit happy today as well, which is weird, but not a bad thing. Maybe Celexa is finally kicking in.

Have exams today, last day of exams before spring break. But of course it's supposed to rain every day of spring break, but at least I'll be out of school.

Hope everyone is having a good morning