Roll Call 59

What movie? Silver Lining's Playbook, I <3 Huckabees, or the classic Star Wars the Empire Strikes Back?

I don't know what causes mine either. I swear my brain has a mind of its own.

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I could probably learn a lot from watching silver linings playbook with him....but maybe another time....hopefully a movie I've seen before because i might miss the ending

i literally couldnt watch i heart huckabees. idk why. maybe i need to rewatch it. i havent been able to watch a lot of films this year though. so far Girlhood has triggered me. i heart huckabees has been boring. and jurassic world has been a hit with me. idk whats wrong with me. im going dumb. help me im listening to mainstream rap and pop music all day right now.

theres nothing wrong with rap. it has its good sides with underground rap and its poetry but mainstream has me in it right now idk why. and pop too. i dont even listen to my rock anymore or 90s rock.

whats happening to me?
its like recovery is making me actually normal.

yet i could watch waking life. is there something wrong with me this year? oh yea im in recovery! i watched waking life in psychosis and i heart huckabees in recovery.

theres gotta be something to that...

I have a month to do most of Grade 12 English.

What's the point? I feel like giving up.

I can do this though. Soon I will give my mom my phone and tell her to give it back only when needed or until September.

No music, nothing.

I can't focus with people in the house. It's happening all over again.

I hate this. Everyone else graduated a year ago.

Hospital did no good. I'm going to the doctor in the morning.
It's weird. I have a sharp pain in my back, my leg keeps having multiple muscle spasms, and my foot feels tingly. I took muscle relaxer and Tylenol 3 with codeine, but the pain is still there. I don't have insurance. I do have the money, and it could be serious. (It was to the point where I could stand up). So I need to go. If I need surgery then I'm SOL.

Have you had any imaging? That sounds like my back and I found out I have a degenerative disc in my lower back between L4 and L5.

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I slept seven and a half hours and I'm very anxious and a little paranoid. It's very difficult to think. I hate not sleeping enough.

I'm still awake. I'm terrified to sleep. I'm at my boyfriends. The last time I slept in his bed, something kept tickling my face and it wasn't him. I've talked to him about it. He thought I was being affectionate. But tonight he said he remembers me whining. I'm scared to sleep because I'm scared to girl will come back. Every time I would move down and whine, she would giggle and keep doing it. I would swipe my face but nothing was ever there. My boyfriend said when he hears me doing that again, he'll make sure I'm okay.

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Eww. It's almost 5:30am.

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yea its 5:40

It's 6:25am now. Still can't sleep.

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hope u get some rest A1

gotta go to work....

Good morning folks. Worked till close for the past three nights. I hate not being able to be more interactive here. I'm sorry it looks like so many have had some rough times in the past few days. The creepy chef at my work makes me really uncomfortable. I hate when he looks at me. I don't know how to respond, my default reaction when I'm nervous is to smile and I think that's making it worse. I feel like if I could try to be a jerk, maybe he'd treat me with more respect. His comments are so inappropriate.

Sorry, I don't want to go off on that tangent. Anyways. I hope everyone's days improve. Hugs to y'all!

So, what's everyone up to today?

I'm just back from a cinema outing to see the new Mission Impossible film. Had lunch out at a nice Italian restaurant too.

Now I'm just catching some of the sun since it's a nice day & have just downloaded the new series of Game of Thrones. Looking forward to getting to watch it.

Just starting the day here, Loial. I stayed in bed until 10:45 and then had a sneezing fit that landed me back in bed lol. I'll just be hanging out today. Drugstore delivery later.

I can't stay asleep. It's now 11:20am.

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TMI, maybe a WARNING need...

Last night I had this dream where... Idk how it got there but I was in a room that had a window and there were these two guys outside waving at me and I flashed my boobs and well did other things.

Kind of a random dream maybe I'm secretly kinky lmao.

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I'm not going to lie. Kinky sex is a huge stress reliever for me.

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morning

i miss Door
she has to work today so i dont get to talk to her all day and im home alone.

i was thinking about gettig my hair colored but i dont have a lot of hair and my mom was warning me about letting them bleach my hair with it being fine and frizzy and not having a lot of hair. im worried now.

What color do you want?

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I got stung by a bee in the neck on my way home on my motorcycle! Feck it anyway, what are the chances of that, got me right under the strap of my helmet. It's pretty funny now but damn that stung, I nearly went onto the other side of the road when it got me!

Just go into a decent hairdressers and ask for advice. They'll tell you what can and cannot be done to keep your hair healthy. My sister has very fine hair but dyes it the whole time, she's a hairdresser so she knows what she's doing. Good luck with it, I'd say some funky colours would suit you!

That would totally freak me out glad you were able to maintain control....