Roll Call 60

I just saw an old man in a little three-wheel thing driving on the highway. It had a license plate and everything. The old man looked like a mad scientist.

Not a hallucination. My boyfriend saw it too.

have u called ur school?

back to work today...

I am vegetarian and I must be hardcore because when I dream about meat, in my dreams I always say, "I don't want that! I don't eat meat!"

I want to write another song /i feel inspired today

So much stuff on my mind

when i was anorexic i had dreams that i had eaten a ton of food. they were nightmares. i would wake up and feel depressed about what i had ate. but then realize it wasn't real

I hate nightmares like that
This isn't a nightmare, but don't you ate it when you dream about finding something you've lost, then you wake up and realize it's still lost???

I just became vegetarian only like a few days ago. It's been pretty good so far.
I could always taste the animal in meat especially pork. I read a lot how red meat can cause cancer and such. I need to lose some weight as well. People think I'm a freak because I eat straight up lettuce. I ordered something at a restaurant yesterday and asked for no meat and it confused the waiter. The only meat I will still eat is fish.

So happy that I have an appointment with my t tomorrow and then my pdoc Wednesday, I have been mostly housebound from anxiety

I have an appointment with the therapist tomorrow as well!

My neighbor is trying to get a MRI appointment ASAP for my back. The doctor ordered an X-Ray, but that won't show anything. My foot is still numb and I limp around like a freak.

I hope it goes well for you!

Waiting for UPS and going crazy with nerves.

How do you get a case worker and what exactly do they do?

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ive been on the phone with them allll day. itz complicated and im not gonna spell out everything they said cuz you all arent gonna understand everything because some of it is relevent to the school so you wont understand. but they said my financial aid hasnt been evaluated yet because im in summer classes basically. so when summer classes end it will be evaluated and fall classes will be paid for. but thats pushing it because my due date for fall class payment has already been pushed ahead a month. now theyre pushing it even more.

i have an appt with therapist tomorrow also.

I gave in and called this place called MHMR. They help people with MI find doctors, make sure they go to the doctors and have ways, medication management, etc. They're supposed to call in 24-48 hours to do a 20 minute phone assessment and then I have to go to some place and fill out paperwork and have a psych evaul. The lady kept asking me if I was sure I wasn't suicidal or wanting to hurt myself because I sounded "sad". I'm not sad. I'm stressed to my max.

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I go to a clinic for my mental health issues because I don't have insurance. It's called Spindletop. I've been hospitalized so many times that I'm in a program called ACT. I'm assigned a casework to come to my house, and I talk to her about my problems and how the medication is working. She sits in the doctor's appointments with me and gives the doctor what she has observed. She comes over once a week at least. Their mission is to keep me out of the hospital, and recover.

MHMR is Spindletop. That's the clinic I go to.

Oh? Cool!

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I get a lot of my medicines for free through the clinic as well since I don't have insurance. Like Abilify would be $1000 out of pocket.

Ew. That's so stupid. I have some gene mutation where my body doesn't break down folic acid and the medicine for that is over $100 with insurance. Yeah. There's no possible way. I'm allergic to abilify. It made my face contract into frowns by itself. It was the weirdest feeling ever to feel your face move without you doing it.

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So far Abilify has been working well. That sounds scary... I don't want my face moving by itself...

Don't worry. You would know in the beginning if that was to happen. I was only on it a week.

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What was your starting dose?

15mg. Oddly, I still have that bottle. I think I don't want to throw it away so I somehow don't forget to never take it. Or geodon. Oh god. Geodon was the worst.

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