Roll Call 60

That's awesome, Secretum
I'm glad you like your new job!

Thanks for keeping us updated!

Angelique,
I hope your therapy appointment goes well

The generic of that one is quetiapine----I always call it quietapine because its supposed to make you very sleepy.

That's great So what kind of people are you encountering as far as patients?

lol. it does make me sleepy. it works better than the invega prns but i can only take it at night if i need a prn. bc it makes me tired.

I used to know someone who'd call it that same thing but she said because it makes you, "quiet as a pine"

T said he will hunt me down if i dont come to group on saturday. i wanted to say you dont know where i live !!! but i didnt. because i will go to group. and feel weird. and sit there. and look like a freak. i hate feeling like people are watching me and staring at me. thats part of it. also i dont feel like i care about anyone in the group. and they obviously care about each other. so i feel even more like a freak bc of that. T says i should talk about that in group. UM NO!!!! kinda wish i hadnt of started it again. i asked T the day before group last week if he would be disappointed if i didnt show up. he said of course i will but its your choice. i know its my choice but T thinks it will be good for me and i trust him and his opinion so i am going to stick it out, even tho i hate it right now

afternoon

not much to say right now.

Nevermind. Double dosed my Concerta so I'm not symptomatic anymore. Relapse but quick recovery as it changed my thinking back to normal.

Idk anymore. This is what I wanted to prevent.

Feel better now.

Waiting to redo my extensions. They're going to be sewed in.

Just got back from the Mexican restaurant with my mom. Had carne asada and a frozen margarita with flan for dessert

Thanks Kori! How did yours go? It wasn't too bad, the therapist is very nice and quiet.

Im extremely upset and scared. I went to MHMR to fill out paperwork and I'm very upset. MHMR told me their doctors won't prescribe me Xanax. That they'd taper me down and get me off of it. No Xanax? The one thing that keeps my sanity because no antipsychotic does anything for me? He told me to use my primary insurance and go to non Medicaid doctors and I'd have a higher chance of getting them refilled. He said the ER might not prescribe them and I'll have to go to the hospital. Why? So I can be in withdrawals there? No. I first have to see a case worker on Aug 25th and then they make an appointment that'll take a couple of weeks to wait. I'll be long out of my medicine before even the case worker. I can stretch them out until this weekend, if I'm lucky. He did say what my doctor is doing is considered patient abandonment. Why are doctors scared to prescribe addictive medications to people who know the risk and don't abuse medication? Why should we have to suffer because of the people who abuse them? Why can't they look at my records and see that I've been on them for 4/5 years now. I can't simply take away the only thing that keeps me calm.

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im sorry A18
that sounds horrible.
id be horrified if that happened to me

im on xanax right now

My doctor won't prescribe Lorazepam to me. I asked. He gave me Buspar, but that's fine with me. I took a Vyvanse earlier and now I'm calmer. I think I have ADHD as well. I have to talk to him about that as well. Wonder if he would prescribe that. (It was my bf's Vyvanse). He's pretty cool with things so he won't be mad that I took it. He said he had a patient come in and say he smoked fake weed and my doctor just said "if you're going to do that then do the real stuff".
I'm sure if they see you need it they'll prescribe it???
I don't know. I don't understand why they can't refill meds like that...
I'm so sorry A.

I'm so terrified of the withdrawals I know are coming. I'm just sitting here, on the verge of tears, because withdrawals are so horrible. On top of having seizures. I can literally die. I hate my doctor for putting me on this without telling me it was addictive and for putting me on 8mg a day. I didn't know I was on a really high dosage until like 2 years after being on it, going to the hospital and the doctor refusing to give me more than .5 every 6 hours (as if anxiety waits.) and he refused to give me anything more. That was the first time I went into (not full blown) withdrawals. They doctor and nurses didn't even believe me.

I don't know what to do.

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Doctors are scared of getting red flagged by the DEA. So they'd rather save their own asses than to uphold their oath.

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Withdrawals are scary. I missed my Depakote for 2 days and had seizures. Hope you get this sorted out, they should be able to help you if you go to the ER and explain everything and bring the bottle

I plan to. But the guy who was determining if I was eligible said that they might not refill them.

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I want to lose the weight I have gained so much but it doesn't seem like it's gonna happen unless I get off my meds

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When I went to the ER in withdrawals they gave me two pills, which was just about supposed to be the final dose. I went back a couple more times and they gave me one Librium one time and a shot of Vistaril another time and then I went inpatient.

If you can't get more, you really have to go inpatient or rehab. I don't think it's safe or possible to do a outpatient withdrawal.

Ugh. I take 200mg of vistaril a night and most of the time, it doesn't do ****.

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I know. It's not enough by a long shot.

I know I felt this way on risperidone---I was just ready to quit it with so many side effects including rapid weight gain but they were able to switch me to abilify and my weight gain has been bearable. The low weight gain APs are abilify, geodon and latuda have you tried them all? The next alternative is adding metformin to your existing regimen. Both these are options that don't involve going off the meds and won't get you into trouble with your mom or end with you being on AOT.

Yeah I'm on Invega Sustenna which I read is the active metabolite of risperidone. I know I gained a majority of the weight my first 6 months of being on that, even though my doctor claims it's weight neutral.

I haven't been on Geodon or Latuda. Abilify made me manic and have terrible akathisia.

I just had an appointment with my doctor yesterday and forgot to bring it up.

So I don't know what I'm gonna do. I guess I just got to start tapering off the Depakote, stop the Zyprexa, paxil and remeron. and not go to my next shot appointment.

Hopefully my mom will just get over it if I continue to do well off everything, I can't deal with being this weight