Roll Call 60

I'm just going to try to sleep it off. im already drowsy from the klonopin

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Hope your feeling better by tomorrow.

The temps here are pretty high, not like texas but do you have AC? Antipsychotics can increase your chance of heatstroke.....be careful....

Hey

Good to see you too

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Wearing leggings with nothing covering for first time, never had the confidence to wear them before but now I've lost weight I actually look okay. Also ordered some trainers in a sale for a tenner and they arrived today and are awesome. Very chuffed

I woke up so depressed. I can't fall back asleep.

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I know your tried volunteering with the cats but what about helping other people with mental illness or something like that? I remember before you were active in nami what about something like that?

Good morning!

Good morning bluebird

Good morning!

idk. i need to really think before i get active in volunteering again. it takes up so much of my time. its like having a job you dont get paid for. it takes up a lot of time. plus energy. i just dont have the energy and time for it. i dont think people realize what goes into volunteering. its not just going in once a week and leaving. its like a literal job. and you dont get paid for it. id rather have a literal job.

morning.

ive been running through the 6 with my woes. rather running through the 9 with my woes. since thats my area code.

i posted a video.
hope you guys got to see it. it explains more. but i need more stuff to do in my life. sick of waking up and going to sleep and repeating everyday. sick of that life.

thanks to AmericanBeauty for being to relate.

getting ready to go to stupid group... stupid stupid group

Yeah it's a good step on the path to a job, you can get references etc that you need to get a job eventually and put it on your resume. The difference is what you are doing is often more fun than a literal job.

Dear God I'm hungover. I'm such a lightweight I can't drink without feeling so bad the next day. Like really bad. Completely self inflicted so no sympathy needed In other news I'm off to Amsterdam in a week! Squeee can't wait!

My mom is making chili, we got some really hot peppers from the farmers market to put in. Love spicy food, cant wait, her chili is always delicious

I've been having so much anxiety lately. But it's still not as bad as last semester.

Other than that, my mental health has been excellent. I took a bunch of quizzes here on PC and scored super low (well, except for the mania quiz but I'm not manic, just excited about my new job).

I've got my first 12 hour night shift tonight. I'm actually quite worried about it. I'm pretty sure it is going to be hellish...

But I can just see my therapist challenging me, telling me that if I see it as being destined to be painful, I will make it painful.

I talked to an old friend on Skype last night. We were close in high school, but then she started losing interest in me. Well, after tonight I feel ready to let her go. She is kind of an elitist b****. She recently broke up with her boyfriend and said that it was hard to lose someone who you knew cared about you. So I, being the warm and supportive person I am, gently reminded her that she had lots of people who cared about her. She got really angry and said something about it not being the same because she needs to be cared for by someone she likes! She actually said that. So she basically admitted that she doesn't like me very much anymore...and it is not the romance that she needs. She told me that if she had a roommate she liked that cared for her, it would be enough. I don't need that in my life.

What's everyone up to tonight? Just watching The Lone Ranger with the fiancee, it's actually surprisingly good!

I'm just sitting here thinking about twinkies. Lol They're so good, I had some chocolate covered ones the other day and they were amazing. I bet they're good deep fried too like they do at all the state fairs

I'm watching Star Trek and reading forums.

Oh no, I tried a twinkie once and thought it was horrible. They're like gone off stale cake haha! Each to their own I guess!

What Star Trek you watching? I used to love Next Generation and I loved the latest movies!

Next Generation. There's a marathon on Fridays and Saturdays. Love it.

I love TNG.

I'm watching Princess Diaries with my mom and we're drinking the tea I received in my friends package from England.

im staying at my moms tonight.
shes criticising me saying my teeth are really yellow and gave me teeth whitener. she criticizes every part of my body. its hard