Roll Call 60

If you're in psychosis right now how are you "doing good"?

Nexplanon. Implant in my arm.

Well...had to reschedule my T appointment to next Tuesday. My hair looks nice.

Just got out of IOP group, myself
I got offended because an older woman there said I don't know anything about English rock bands of the 60s.

I am like, my dad is a rocker, I know a **** ton of English rock bands of the 60s!

And then also, in group I couldn't focus on anything because the room was breathing and I didn't like its breath on my feet, especially.

I see my therapist on Thursday and then I see my psychiatrist soon too.
I hate having to so many therapy and care appointments.

i guess i thought i was doing good. i dont want to fool you guys or put up a cover. i also want to be myself around you guys.

when i say im having trouble here i want to be taken seriously and not have it brushed over like itll just go away because ive been doing well IN GENERAL. its true ive been doing good IN GENERAL. overall. overall is the key word. its just right now i guess im having some troubles.

my sleep has been sparse.
i havent been able to tell the dream world from reality lately.
BUT i told my therapist that its NOT all about medications. she agreed. but noted ive been complaining about my sleep for a month.

im going to up my haldol dosage. by 5mg. but not yet. not until after i see the psychiatrist probably idk. unless you guys have some advice for me. im taking 10mg right now. supposed to be taking 20mg but my therapist did some research and said the combo of meds im on slows down my central nervous system. which is probably why i was on the wellbutrin because i was feeling lethargic. because im not depressed at all.

i feel like i tell her too much possibly.
possibly have too much trust in her.

I think it's good you're honest with your T. It makes it easier for her to help you.

OMG I start my new job tomorrow...

The actual job is the night shift, but the first training session is during the day, so I'm going to have to wake up at 5:00 to get there by 7:00. (I want to make sure I've consumed copious amounts of coffee, eaten a good, protein-filled breakfast, etc. before going).

I'm honestly scared.

I saw another apartment today. It was nice, had a huge balcony, but the rent was a little high...worse yet, utilities aren't included and I got the lady to confess that electric sometimes runs around $200 in the winter!

So that is not the one, lol.

My hotel room has a full-sized coffee maker; I lost track of how much I drank (I brewed 10 cups but didn't drink all of it). I probably got in like 8 cups.

I'm going to go to bed at 9 so that I can wake up early tomorrow.

Driving is starting to scare me again. I'm not sure why. Even though I know the way to work, I'm nervous about driving there tomorrow.

I really wish I could get over it.

I'm going to go make myself some tea with my big coffee maker.

I had to fill my weekly med box and needed to clear out the ones I don't take anymore. I was really blown away when I looked at all of it. I could medicate at least 3 people with the amount of pills I have around here. I really need to invest in a pill safe before the kids get much older.

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Haha it is a special thing for couples to do to have fun and annoy everyone else! Love your take on it, thought we where the only one's!

Good luck!

Can you take a defensive driving class?

Good luck with the new job secretum! I hope it goes well for you!

No. If they consider you disabled already, they won't do so unless they want you to get a psych evaul and see how you're doing to hem.

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The alphabet starts with adderall and ends with zyprexa and too many in between to write down lol

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I hate myself. I hate that I can't do anything social because I get too paranoid and scared. I have more online friends than in real life. My boyfriend wanted to go hang out with one of our mutual friends but I couldn't. I feel horrible. Now he wants to go to the movies and my anxiety is through the roof. I'm trying so hard not to cry but I feel so bad because he always wants to be social and I'm the complete opposite. I like to be alone. I only have 2 people that I'll willingly hang out with. My best friend and my boyfriend.

I hate my life. I'm tired of all of this. I'm so scared of the future.

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I can relate

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I took way too many Ativans. Excuse my chatter.

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my depression is kicking me in the face and my voices are being so mean. I almost start crying sometimes.

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I see my doctor first thing in the morning. Hoping it goes okay

Good luck.

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We should try to do a roll call meet up. If everyone who can afford it.

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Damn. Feel like the world could open up and eat me. My only hope is that there's a water slide to get me there.

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i second that. good luck.

i keep having premonitions about people

Are they bad?

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nice to see you checking in!