Roll Call 60

RIGHT that's what they want you to think YOU HAVE BEEN BRAINWASHED
They tell you what you thijnk how you think how to live breath and die they are a worm in your mind dont belive them it's not true I am the only one who can help this world they told you to deny me....

You are the one in denial right now! I have been in your shoes you think you aren't having issues you think you're fine you think so many things but none of them are true. You need to distract yourself away from these thoughts, Call someone you love tell them what is wrong you may need to go to the hospital you need medication do you want to be this way forever? I have seen you on here before posting these delusional thoughts not only will you scare others who are delusional like you but these posts can trigger people! You need to chill out and get some help it will be ok once you get help they will work with you and you won't have to suffer these kind of thoughts anymore
Don't be afraid!

I AM not afraid you dont understand me NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME no one will ever understand me I am so alone in this you are all brainwashed you are all feeding out of the palsm of tueir hands eating their lies eating their deceite I am the stallion of light the sacred emblum of distraught empathy and you cannot take that away from me... whatever it doesn;t matter just keep on denying me keep on beliving them.... I dont care anymore.

Look I am sorry I really am I did not mean to upset you I understand I know how hard it is to be in this state of mind I just want you to get better I am on my way to the road of recovery and I just want you to get help! You don't have to listen to me at all it seems I am not getting through to you anyway.

Hey lillybird how is it going? How's the job and stuff?

It's going fine. I still think people talk behind my back or dislike me and pretend to like me but things are easier now and I am still attending college.

You don't get it My father of light has sent me to reacclaim this holy world as the sire of instruction to perfect the population to the state of this union that we once had.. it will be once again restored

How have things been going for you?

evening folks.

whats everyone up to tonight?

i took a long nap. i hope it doesnt affect my sleeping tonight. im gonna quit telling my therapist about my naps because she thinks my lack of sleep is making me psychotic and im getting good sleep as of late. ever since i got my financial aid in. i was losing sleep over that because i was worried about that. but its in now.

i dont want my therapist to go in my appt with my pdoc and tell her to taper off my meds. i changed my mind since my whole family says im doing well on them and i do too. so i dont think i will. BUT they make me too tired. so what should i do? should i have her go in anyway and say something? i dont want her to go in and say something that will take me off my benzos.

Hi Newt! How have you been? I sometimes get psychotic when I have lack of sleep going on. It makes things a bit worse for me sometimes I get more hallucinations and more anxiety when I don't sleep well.

Sure JUST keep ignoring me!!!!!But you will all be bathed in the holy light of my sanctum!.

Never mind me just forget about me I dont exist

ive been ok lillybird. been doing school. school starts back the 31st.

i get the same way with a lack of sleep. hallucinations and anxiety. my therapist said i was psychotic last time i saw her cuz lack of sleep and not taking my full meds but the haldol just makes me so darn tired. my antipsychotic. i cant do school on it.

Really good...meds are working well...I'm dating this guy I met about a month ago....I really like him a lot we've been seeing each other a ton and we're going on a day trip to Milwaukee next weekend. All in all things are possibly the best they've ever been.

Aww! That's great! I am so happy for you!!

The voices I had have lessened up now they are fewer and not as in my face. But I still get ones that say mean stuff like why did you eat that or sure eat more food fat-*** or I hate you, but they are no where as bad! so I am able to deal with life so much easier. As for my visual hallucinations they come and go but are not as frightening as they used to be. I have learned to accept them as part of my norm.

The voices are back...
I gues sI spoke too soon when I said this weekend would be o kay
They keep giving me messages, special visions and messages

It's so hard to ignore them now /I hate getting these messages an then feeling haunted all the time

I just wish I could go deaf sometimes

This is seriously the best song ever

They liked me at the modeling interview. I go Thursday for a final decision. Keep me in your prayers guys! I'm so excited! I never knew I had model potential....

Today, I went to a hookah bar for the first time, and it was pretty cool.

Going to the state fair later

I need to go to sleep, but I'm worried I won't wake up on time. Have to be up in 2 hours.

Why don't you just set an alarm?

"I did, but I don't trust myself and alarms. I set my phone, and put it a fair amount away from me so I have to work pretty hard in order to turn it off. z dffdžćh"

Lol, I fell asleep while I was responding.

Darn , I was going to make a proposal and all

I'm all packed for Amsterdam! Leaving in the morning! Squee I'm so excited though a little bit nervous as this is my first trip since my life took a turn. I used to travel all the time and somehow I'm nervous! I'll be with my fiancee so all shall be well I hope!

Just checked, my last trip was to Download in the UK in 2012. 2012!!!! That's so long ago!