Roll Call 60

Good morning all. Hope everyone slept well and is feeling OK today.

Good morning!

Waiting on UPS.

Might play my violin later, I'm feeling motivated and inspired

Ah cool, I'll see what the lines are like so and see if I can get in. How did your things get stolen? Where you pick pocketed? That's a shame! I love Amsterdam too, this is my fourth time going over but it's my fiancee's second time. I really can't wait!

School thought I finished my English course so they marked me as graduated from highschool until my mom mentioned the English course before knowing they did that lmao.

I felt good thinking that I graduated but I knew it was too good to be true xp

Idk if I'm going back to school in September. I'm taking a class course in English this time as well as upgrading my marks

I can't have disability or meds paid for I think because I'm a student but I'm sure I can get around that.

I did some drawing when I got the inspiration and I finally got around to it

I like drawing in charcoal and I like drawing my favorite movie characters and actor/ess



I hope this picture isnt too big!

Wow that's really good!

i got a new macbook air for my birthday. had a coffee at whole foods. early birthday present.

thats really good!

That's awesome! Well done I wish I could be as creative as that!

thanks its not my birthday yet til the 27th though lol

I won't be here for that date, so I'll wish you a happy birthday now! Happiest of happy birthdays to you and enjoy your new macbook, I'm well jell!

thanks chickenfoot! that means a lot to me! where are you gonna be?

i am so tired, my coworker saw my cut scars and said what happened to ur arm and i wanted to bolt. i said theyre just scars and she was like but what happened!!!! and then she started talking about something else so im pretty sure she figured it out. uh omg. i wanted to die right there. work was so exhausting i feel like i cant move. i took a bath and now i am not going to leave my bed i just want to lay here forever. school started today and theres a crapload of work, i feel overwhelmed and just... i dont want to be an adult anymore. i dont want responsibilities. **** school **** my job **** everything!!!

i want to be toby

No problem, I really hope you enjoy it. I'm going to be in Amsterdam, rule no PC and no Facebook haha!

Pretty much the exact same thing happened to me when working in a store. I just went bright red, got a lump in my throat and wanted to leave and cry. I didn't, I just did what you did and said "they're just scars" then they changed the story. Exact same. Horrible position to be in, glad you got through it ok.

Only slept 3 hours last night

It's been relatively quiet here today. I hope that means everyone's doing better.

You responded so much better than i would have!
When people see my scars and ask what happened I play dumb and go, "Nothing"

I'm so osrry that you were in that position, though, it's a horrible feeling when people start asking about scars

thnks guys.

im having a fear that T is dead. i have this very specific scenario in my head abt how he died. i hate it and i feel grief. and worry. i took my night meds. i just want to be asleep. but even thats not ok with me since i have to get up early and go to work again. and feel like **** again. i think im getting depressed. maybe its the voices episode, maybe its my pms , maybe both i dont know. who knows!!!!!!!!!!!!! why cant things just stay ok????????????????????????????????????

i forgot to goto group again today. i meant to go

I'm ok, but have been very distressed. My wife has to fire someone, and if I had been doing that job, I would have been fired long ago. I really feel for that family. It's really tragic.

Morning all!

Just back from my p-doc appointment. He said he was happy for me to try going medication free. He did talk about the possibility I might have an underlying condition & could relapse but said it's hard to know when that would happen, if indeed at all. He's still of the opinion it's probably drug-induced but hasn't ruled out the possibility that something else is going on even yet. Only time will tell really.

Will be stopping my Risperidone tonight... I guess the next few days / week will show whether or not I'll have any worsening of symptoms coming off. Let's hope not! He did say if I wanted I could taper down to 1mg for a month but he thought it was likely unnecessary since 2mg is a low dose anyway.

Wish me luck!

Good luck, Loial!

Going slowly certainly has its benefits, but you may find going off the way you are will work best for you.
I hope it all goes well, Loial.