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#501
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I feel manic, not the rage one that I always get but... my focus when reading, my shuffle as I walk, my extreme alertness. However, something weird is happening to my consciousness/brain. It's like my c0nsciousness is flowing like a wave and there are bumps along the road. I just need to eat and take my damn meds. lol
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![]() Anonymous37804, Atypical_Disaster, Door2015
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#502
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Love ya ChickenFoot! Lmao
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#503
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Alcohol at Taco Bell? Yum!
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#504
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I've been so alert the last couple days and my mind is racing and who needs so much sleep??? Hahha. This is turning into a bipolar thread with all this talk.
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#505
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My anxiety the last 2 days has been through the roof and mental chatter/noise has been up as well. My brain also thinks its a good idea to completely tear my bedroom apart and donate or give away everything I no longer use... At 930 tonight. Zero energy all day but come night let's rip the house apart.. Ugh. Hoping that momentum is still there tomorrow cause the thought to purge the bedroom sounds like a good one..
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#506
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Good morning all. I was up at 5:30. Not early enough yet but getting there! Hope everyone is ok.
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#507
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Morning all!
![]() Just back from my walk, was nice day for it... sun was shining which makes a nice change from the last 2 days of rain. Angelique... I'm a bit confused, you say you were up at 5:30am... how can that be "not early enough"?! I can't imagine any reason for wanting to be up that early... or am I misunderstanding you?
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#508
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#509
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Haha we've only just started watching it and we've got something like 8 seasons of this glorious television. Bonding over alcohol and TV, I think he's a keeper!
![]() I thought about that but I'm not allowed smoke anywhere else in the house, just my room hanging out the window. I'm over it now, but it was a tough 5 minutes I'll tell you that ![]() Do I sense a little sarcasm? ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Quote:
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#510
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Would you get more daylight doing it that way?
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#511
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No, I just need a lot of time before I feel ready to leave.
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#512
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Fair enough, I've always been a bit like that too. If I rush in the morning I'm likely to pass out.
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#513
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morning
having cold coffee
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Just got home from group, I left early because I didn't feel good then when I was waiting for my ride I threw up like 6 times.
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#515
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Why cold? You could always heat in up in the microwave.
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#516
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Sleeping is supposedly good for you. I haven't been sleeping much since mid July, last night I slept three hours and now I'm wide awake again and that's with the sheer amount of sedating medications I'm taking wtf... I mean whatever, I feel fantastic but I know that not sleeping can cause me to have a psychotic break that would be bad... Like kind of how being sad or any other "darker" emotion is frowned upon by society but it's like dude people start being negative about other people's natural "negative" emotions... I digress! Feck it. |
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#518
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interesting post. The mind having thoughts constantly related to it, just yes that definitely. |
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#520
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Hey Atypical, did you watch Scream Queens after?
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#521
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My mood seems to have just about nothing to do with my environment though... It just does what it wants, my treatment team is probably still debating whether or not I've got either schizophrenia or schizoaffective disorder bipolar type... ****ers... Ask me, I live in my head. Ask me instead damn it. |
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My focus is so sharp yet it's so much focus that everything wants to be the center of my focus so I keep getting off track with whatever I'm doing. I'm having to retype posts a few times before posting because of it. I'm restless as hell, like I can't sit still and I keep moving around just pointless moving around, no purpose I just have that restlessness for no particular reason and nope it isn't akathisia that is a totally different thing and I got on a new AP that doesn't give me akathisia. The alertness thing, totally... Like hyper aware of my surroundings, every sound, sight, smell, etc all demanding my attention that keeps just jumping everywhere out of that demon dot that seeks to control me and collapse me into that pointless point into nowhere... |
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#523
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You've got that right! Sleep is for the unenlightened unless you're sedated on meds then that's not your fault lol. But no like seriously I'm barely sleeping three hours a night as of late and I've been having lots of stuff going on...
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#524
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I haven't gotten to yet, my life has been nucking futs like more than usual...
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