Roll Call 64

im using a pseudonym on twitter. not my real name.

Yeah, the more I think about it, the more adopting one seems to make sense. Looking at one of the charities who do so, Cats Protection, they have 5 indoor cats in my area currently. I'm guessing that might vary significantly throughout the year though...

There's currently a gorgeous Abyssinian available... we (my parents) have had two over the years...

This is the current one, Oscar:



I've not seen him for just over a month now since my parents moved away. I shall be seeing him in a weeks time though when I go down to visit my parents.

He's beautiful! That's such a cute pose!

He's handsome

i always wanted a sphynx cat. of course i dont need another cat though.

Thanks guys...

Don't let his looks fool you though, he is a complete menace...

In a loveable sort of way of course though. His favourite pastime when I am around is licking my hair...

You can never have too many cats...

haha i have too many pets. i can barely take care of them all.

I'm dizzy and my sinuses have been so congested since fall fell. I wish I could just feel good. Unfortunately I'm eating too much junk food and that must stop.

I'm so overly emotional. I drank the pint of rum and it didn't do much cuz of my meds but I'm not going to drink anymore. Cigarettes give me more euphoria and it lasts for hours unfortunately but I'm not going to smoke for a good while.

I become stable and recover pretty quickly now. Talked to my psychologist yesterday on the phone and he said that he could tell how well I was doing just a few seconds in. My dad phoned yesterday as well and observed the same. Just normal yknow..

I'm proud of myself. I feel like I made it by beating anhedonia and being honest about my meds etc and now I take as prescribed and I feel better. I can't believe it. Abilify is amazing. How I survived all these overdoses such as the 90 Klonopins or lethal tylenol overdoses twice because i didn't care and didn't bother to extract and separate it from the codeine and then drinking with it. Idk my liver should be severely damaged but it's not apparently and I'm healthy.

When I get back to that state, I'm contacting my friends on Facebook to hang out or something. I told one friend a while ago that I had a form of schizophrenia before I was diagnosed with paranoid/(disorganized - Not too sure about that anymore. I don't believe that meds can work that well) schizophrenia. He said that it's no problem.

Everyone was so nice to me and wanted to be my friend but I was so so sick.

My psychiatrist said i would be that way forever and I'd have to learn to live with it.

That makes me so mad I'm not even going to think about it I'm moving on...

Btw my eye sight is back and pupils aren't max dialated anymore from the cogentin. It took a while but I don't need reading glasses anymore.

I used to get sinusitis quite often when I was younger... it's not very pleasant.

Thanks! I'm glad if it has mostly cleared up for you. I don't remember having it this bad since I was about 12 or 13 and allergic to something at school.

Great to hear your doing well Tweaky!

the clinic i goto told me i would be this way forever and never work ever too.

2 cats that my mom got from a shelter in Ireland took 1000 each to bring to Canada.

i went to target. theres this young woman that ive been talking to that works there for a year. i asked her if she wanted to go have coffee sometime. shes like "eh. i dont drink coffee" i was like "ok...bye". i got up the nerve to ask someone to hang out and BAM total rejection. everyone rejects me. idk how to make friends.

Damn that would upset me, at least you got up the nerve to ask, that's an accomplishment

That was brave of you! Don't let one discouraging answer change you!

i kinda want to cry. im really embarrassed. people always turn me down. wow idk.

No, don't think that way. You'll have success if you keep trying.

thanks guys. i had to take some xanax when i got home. it got my nerves twisted.

It's possible she just didn't like coffee...

yea but i was asking for like to hang out. coffee or no coffee. just like hang out. ive been talking to her for a year now prob 2 years.

All I'm saying is I've said I don't like coffee to people before I started dating and learned what I could drink at Starbucks that wasn't caffeinated...I understand you were asking her to hang out but in the moment she might not have understood that....a good follow up might have been oh ok I just wondered if you wanted to hang out sometime....I think you gave up too easy. There is always next time, she might suggest something now that you've put it out there. I only say this because I'm socially inept and have done this before....

im really socially awkward. and i get hurt easy.

she was busy working the cashier anyway so i didnt want to ask her too many personal-ly question in front of a bunch of customers.

I wonder if I have polyps in my throat. Keep getting an aggravating dry cough and then I get sneezing fits.