Roll Call 65

I hate this time change it's almost dark and it's not even 5 yet.

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I know right it's weird./..

i have the worst stress headache from all this ****. i took medicine but it didnt help.

I had a date last week. She asked me about my story. So I went into tell it and she thought of me as pretentious. I halted her and politely said, no I believe in myself. Then I told her about my SZ dad, and she went on and on about how his diet effects him and that he needs to change it.

It was weird, she called me an aquarious rising and how that someone makes me interesting.

Okay, so there are "H"olistic people, and there is "W"holistic people. She was a holistic one, you know, rocks crystals and fragrances. She stated metaphysics in her profile twice so I thought, "heck yea!" she dodged my question.

I went on OK Cupid to find this woman. That was the last time I'll do the online dating thing. I've met two great women from there. At least I have a couple friendships.

Why stressed? Sorry if that's redundant but I'm not sure what part of your posts are what's stressing you out...

I'm still bitter about that date.

sorry to go on and on about it but...my mom. it hurts me so bad

I'm sorry, that really sucks...

My PDoc said that I might actually be bipolar1 or schizoaffective. She doesn't know the entire story and how long I was delusional I believe. 1 year of paranoid schizophrenia where you think everyone is out to get you, how there are surveillance all around you. What I had to do to get on track was nothing short of a miracle.

gonna go play board games with my T and some other ppl

My mom said no more caffeine pills so I bought ephedrine pills ^^

Hopefully that with a morning coffee and prescribed Concerta will keep me awake.

Also bought max strength fish oil pills.

Good luck quitting I find the attention to be addictive.....

We haven't done music in a while...what are you guys listening to...here's mine...

psh. I wish I got attention on stupid okcupid.

It's because I'm in a major metro area.....you probably don't have enough people around.....

i dont. but i still get messages from people in dallas. which is a major metro area. dallas/ft worth. but their like 40-50 miles away. sucks.

Oh I like that bluebird

I'm so tired of everything. Dusk was pretty though. I love that shade in the sky. Too bad it doesn't last. The best things never last.

I always check where people are from....so you would get 20x more if you lived in Dallas....

ughhh. great. screw me and my life. or screw my location. my location of where i live is half of why my life sucks. true fact.

but i feel bad because my dad is happy about me living with him plus hes old and i worry about him. im like deadly attached to him.

dang im gaining more weight. i almost put on 15 pounds...this is really depressing..

wow i killed roll call

the game was fun... we played Pandemic. i felt more comfortable this time. i was having fun then i realized i had to go home cuz i go to work in the morning. then i started feeling bad thinking about the murder and not feeling safe here anymore. today the police were searching the woods around my apartment building..

my T thinks its funny to call me janey.. he knows i dont like it bc he got it from a staff member at the old place who i didnt like. her name was janey. my middle name is jane and some people call me by my first +middle name. so it just progressed to that. every time he calls me janey i give him a face and he laughs... he must have called me it like 10 times tonight.

ok so im going to go to bed soon... i hope nothing terrible happens.