Roll Call 73

I'm going to have a cigarette too. My daughter had some really deep questions about my parents. I'm hanging on by a thread so she doesn't see me lose it. This parenting thing is tough.

ok i admit it!!!

ive been seeing this guy again 3 times this week. idk whats wrong with me. i feel a desperateness coming on.

Does a hernia go away on it's own?

oh no!
i hope so. i bet i have that. where is it at?

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I have had a painful lump on my groin for a couple of weeks/months, didn't know what it was, my mam said it might be a hernia. Googled it and it's in the same place as a type of hernia common in women. Really hoping it'll just go away.

I don't know. I think it depends how bad it is.

It's not desperate to like him and want to see him. Screw it your young and its your life

And now I drink. Anyone else???

im drinking too but i need to stop.
its making me sick because ive been refusing food and eating very little. not intentionally. but because ive been so busy.

i feel nauseous

and thank you.
im young but i just want a life so bad

Then live it

And I hope you feel better. I ate plenty so I'm good for a drink or two.

I wonder how bad it is to drink with all the meds I take.

Feeling a bit



today. Hope I can just will the thoughts away

Do you take any benzos...if so it could kill you but it's kind of random....

oh my.
its like i knew that but never listened.
yet its like im hearing this info for the first time

I don't know how to do the TRIGGER warning so consider this my trigger.



My mother dying is what set the voices off again. When she was alive and I was feeling well I had no voices. She died and they all came flooding back. I made it 4 years un medicated aside from Zoloft which made me manic before I held a knife to my throat and knew it was time to go inpatient. So many bad things happened when I was manic I can't even admit to most of them. When my dog got hit by a car it broke something inside me and that part is still broken. I know that sounds foolish be he was my empty nest dog. I used to rock him to sleep at night lol.
Omg this got long and confusing. See what vodka does to me

I do. I take Ativan

can you talk to your mom?

And of course that's would have to be the first post. Sorry guys

I am texting her. She's out with friends.

I gave her my knife and my pills earlier so I don't do something stupid

that was a smart move. I hope you feel better.

Let me try to copy this or at the least I feel like

Both going through the same problem, eh?

Hope you feel better, and be safe

Had fun at game night. We played smash up. T gave me and my roommate a basket full of fruits n vegetables

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Really really weird thoughts since the Concerta wore off and I'm 7/10 in mood right now. My psychologist told me to take my oral at night. Paranoid a bit. I want to redo my internet security.

Pretty good pretty good.