Roll Call 75

i cut my hair. now it looks like crap.

whats everyone up to tonight?

I'm in line at cook out cuz I want a cherry cheesecake milkshake

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i want to put stickers on my pill bottles like art

im playing a video game and trying not to be anxious.

Thoughts running me in circles

Mixed my whiskey with gatorade now I'll go out and make a fire.

I feel sorta down idk why I have no life

I want to move out of my moms house but oooh no I'm mentally ill grrrr

The Walking Dead is on. Watching it while I'm being poisoned by fumes again.

Meh its raining.

I'm gonna finish watching breaking bad

I love breaking bad, it's great.

And I feel ya on the moving out stuff

I'm sorry you are feeling so down

I would like that feeling. Maybe I'll ask for trazodone lol just kidding.
I don't love drinking so I typically don't drink with ambien. I've tried mixing the ambien and the Ativan but it does nothing.

Just hanging out. About to have some ice cream.

Sisters are painting the kitchen, step-dad putting a new floor then.

my cherry cheesecake milkshake is so worth waiting 15 minutes for it

Please don't.

Oh em gee this ice cream is good. Makes it worth the $4

found a piece of plastic in my milkshake

dont care

My stomach is still a mess. I'm not sure if it's stress or because I've been taking expired probiotics (April 2015). I really have to start reading those. Either way I've had enough. Calling uncle

Lol I feel like watching an episode of breaking bad before my pdoc appointment. I feel like my pdoc WANTS me to be more negotiable and assertive to show that I need modafinil and Concerta at the same time :/

I think my modafinil might have gotten seized by Canadian customs :/

i feel sick to my stomach. i didnt eat much today. two tamales and 3 cups of coffee plus tea.

You should eat something.

Worked on homework all day, took a test online, and studied for several hours, but I feel like it's still not enough. I'm praying for a better grade in chem and hope that I at least get at the bare minimum a 78-80.

DBT chart is going well. It's nice to actually see how my days play out because I usually forget how I feel on each day. I showed my bf and he was kind of sad how I felt, but I told him it's normal for me considering I have BPD. I feel better cognitively too, but my next test will demonstrate how well I am recovering which I'm anxious for.

I read that DBT can help one identify their emotions. Is this true?

My therapist told me that (So I assume it is true) and the sheet I have goes by the week to identity emotions. It has columns where you fill out on a scale to 0-5 how intense your emotion is and if you acted upon those feelings. There is a column for self harm, suicidal thoughts, other targets (like cutting, hitting, etc), substance urges, drunk abuse, then emotions such as jealousy, love, anger, shame, sadness, etc. and if you used skills to help you cope with those emotions. Then at the bottom of the page there's a section where you write how your day went.