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There's also a back side of the page with DBT skills that you learn to use and if you use them you circle them for that day. There's different sections and I'm not sure how they are sectioned yet, but some are things like exercise, no alcohol, balanced eating for the "Emotion Regulation" section. The other sections are Distress Tolerance, Interpersonal Effectiveness (which have things that are only learned in DBT), and Mindfulness.

Thanks Medicalfox. I'm going to look into this, because I often don't know what I am feeling.

Good luck with your studies.

I hope it goes well for you! DBT is kind of an intense therapy because you have normal therapy once a week and at least at my place DBT twice a week for one hour, but it's really nice since it's so helpful. You also get the ability to call the DBT coach (at least at my place) any time you feel like you can't handle your emotions and they'll talk you through it. There's also groups similar to DBT that require less therapy and often have different names, but similar structured therapy.

I'm going to ask my psychiatrist if she can get me some of the handouts. Perhaps I can work on some of them with her. We have been working on communication and emotion identification a lot lately. It would be nice to have some documents to help me out, as long as they don't have cartoon faces on them.

The vast majority of benzos don't have a recreational value...

As you kind of say, if you are feeling good off them then that's probably because they are relieving your anxiety, rather than actually making you high.

That's me.

I mean, I have typically always had trouble holding myself back. It's led to some pretty wild times, but some pretty **** times too. Even after I got better, I used drugs I thought wouldn't be a problem in reasonable moderation but still ended up brining back my psychosis.

Ironically, I really didn't go over the top when I got my first acute episode. I guess years of using drugs recreationally on a semi-regular basis caught up with me though.

But I've turned a corner now... I know if I want my to go fully down the road to recovery & stay healthy after that, then I just can't take drugs full stop.



It's just not worth it.

ive ben up since 1:30am. its 3:30am now.

im stressed out about the argument with my mom and school and everything

i think im dying both mentally and physically and spiritually

I'm about to get up to get my daughter ready for school, but I wanted to come here to check in. I hope today is a better day for all of us.

Good morning. I hope everyone has a good day!
I'm so groggy this morning. I took my zyprexa late last night and it's giving me the groggies. I will probably take a nap today.
I have training again tonight so that's good. The more I learn the more I earn! Right now I'm only working 3-5 hours/week and that's definitely not enough.

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feel better.

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Good morning all.

I hope everyone has a good day.

Good morning! Woke up fine but starting to feel lots of anxiety. I don't know why. I am home alone and it's quiet.

I have a busy week ahead and I'm in so much horror here. I hope everyone has a better day, if it's starting badly.

morning

feeling pretty crappy.
im thinking of staying in bed all day today.
i have a headache and cramps. cuz period & stress.
plus not mentally/emotionally doing well

Morning/afternoon
Went to an art group this morning, part of my new Build a Life project. It went well. I managed two hours before my concentration and motivation went and I felt socially awkward. The people were nice.
I'm trying to organise one structured thing a day to do, like seeing someone or an appointment, so that I've got something to wake up and get ready for.
It's hard organising life when youv got little to do. The hours stretch out endlessly. I get bored but have little motivation at the same time. I'm also a perfectionist so i struggle with not achieving anything in life.
Reading a book called Henry's demons again. It's a good book. The last one I read was I Never Promised You a Rose Garden. That was a brilliant book. So abstract about schizophrenia. I really connected with it. Read it twice consecutively.

I was told this is me. I got into trouble at Uni for not finishing problems and becoming overly stressed for work not being good enough and never finish assignments.

Yeah it was my psych that told me I'm a perfectionist. I struggle with not finishing things too so I tend not to start a lot of things for fear of it not turning out perfectly

My T told me he thinks I'm a perfectionist but I don't really agree with that

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whats everyone doing today?

chillin with my mom til 1pm then heading to south carolina to go to werk til 11pm. then getting up early to see T, then working 3 to 11pm again. so im gonna be TIRED tomorrow!!!!

Fixed.

I can be a perfectionist at times but not always.

I thought I posted. My dog ran off and I can't find her. I'm freaking out. She's my dog but my kids, especially my daughter, are going to be devestated if she doesn't come home. I don't know what to do. I drove around looking for her but I'm afraid to leave in case she comes back.

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I just got back home.

Didn't do much on the train home, just read a book really.

Now I am waiting for my flat to warm up. Bloody freezing in here.

You?

Oh and it's more what I am NOT doing today. I've not had any form of nicotine since ~7pm last night. Going well so far.

I'm praying you find her safe and sound. Lots of hugs, and good thoughts to you and your beagle!

thats really good loial! the nicotine in vaping gives me headaches i think.

im not doing much. my dad said i was bugging him and to let him rest on his day off so im just in bed like this.