Safe Place 2

Oh, I know, I just saied it because my last diagnosis until now was schizotypal disorder -a personality disorder in DSM but a psychotic one in ICD-. I guess now it's psychosis nos.

everyone has turned against me

I'm sorry to hear that.

I hope that it isn't as it seems

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I feel worthless. Too much expectation. Too much responsibilities. Too much..

Significant other of 6 years cheated on me. I work the same place as her, so does the other guy.

I wonder how much more alcohol I can consume before the local shop runs out...

I believe you have so much more in you. How 'bout telling the time what you wanna say? It doesn't talk back, I know. Hang in there.

This is a nice surprise finding you here, we've just met at your re-introduction post. Nice but not good seeing you like this. Sorry about the news, it must be devastating, I've no advice here I'm afraid.



It's a song about her background, the nature that she knows of. Take care.

Hugs. You are not worthless.

So sorry to hear that. Hugs. Please try not ti drink too much.

I want a friend/lover and a child. How do you get/keep friends with all the paranoia, schizophrenic symptoms along with other mental illnesses? I'm so lonely and I'm giving up on finding one. I keep meeting an abuser!

Yeah I know the feeling...I don't talk to any of my old friends because of paranoia. Although, it's not all down to me being paranoid. Pretty much everytime we would meet up drugs would be involved so I think it's best if I just stay away.

I'm so exhausted. I talked to the school therapist last week and she strongly advised me to get an assessment for "outpatient". I just know that's a trap. As soon as they know I don't have a pdoc, not on meds, getting worse (I've never had this much visuals before) and have really good insurance.. I'm nothing but a cash machine to them. /Then they'll offer me outpatient. I'm basically begging and screaming for someone to help me because I can't help myself, but everyone always just says something along the lines of "I'm sorry. That sucks."

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It's now getting to a point where I want to SI/SH or even attempt suicide just for someone to finally look at me and see that I'm not okay. Everyone sees the bright, happy looking, pink haired girl who's pretty and must be popular.. But no one knows how alone I am. I'm holding onto a thread and I feel like I only have one person who's holding me here.

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I've asked it so many times. What do you do when you can't help yourself or ask for help? I don't want to get trapped. That's what they want and that's what stops me. I'll be 25 on November 6th. It all could be a trap and I wouldn't live to see my 25th birthday. I'm trying so hard to keep up in school. But like today. In math, I couldn't focus at all because I just felt like everyone was staring at me the moment I would look at the computer.

There's too many things and I'm terrified of everything. I can't ask for help. I can't directly ask. I've emailed hospitals and told them this but I can't answer their calls because I panic because it's a trap but part of me knows this can't be right. I know I'm not okay. But I'm stuck, frozen in fear to say a word or tell anyone.

been 14months 13days sober from alchohol longest time I have been everyday if I watch tv I wanna drink because of the commcericals.

I'm sorry you a are feeling so bad. I know it's scary but maybe outpatient wouldn't be so bad. You don't have to have a Pdoc or meds to get help.
I hope you find a way to get the help you deserve.

I hope you will find the strenght to seek for help.. I wish I could come with a suggestion

I've been very disconnected lately and it's like that every fifteen minutes or so and it's stressing me out.

Sorry you have a hard time, something happened lately or it's just happen?

I don't know what's wrong with me...I feel weird like somethings not quite right. I keep hearing whispering and it's making me nervous. I never thought my life would turn out like this. Just existing and not enjoying life. Sorry I'm rambling now.

I'm sorry you feel that way, I was thinking earlier about my hallucinations and I still believe they were real. But there's no circumstance for why that would happen to me. I used to think if it ever were found to be hallucinations, it was my worst fear of all. I don't think I'll ever know the truth.

When I was young I used to go dancing to have fun. I wasn't on meds so I could binge drink. It was a lot of fun at the time. I can't imagine how hard it must be to deal with hallucinations from a young age. I have a lot of respect for all the young people here.

I'm feeling really bad. I sure hope pnp can help. I'm constantly on the verge of tears. I'm having intrusive thoughts and my hallucinations have increased. I don't know if it's from bouncing around APs or what but I can't go on feeling like this. I have a good life there's no reason to be this depressed. I just feel bad. I want to be able to enjoy things again. I hate this illness. It has robbed me of so much.

Hugs to all who are struggling

|I just took out the plot one with the tomatoes garden and all I could say to staff was that I was worried about the dogs and the tomatoes because staff was urging me to

It just happens and I don't know why. Feel like I'm gonna go crazy or insane or something.

They were talking about me on tv again. I purposely stayed away from this show because they have spoke about me in a coded way before. It's always the same person referencing stuff that's happened recently in my life. I wish him and his ****ing show would **** off!!!