Roll Call #79

Even with the kids home my anxiety is up. For the love of chocolate I need a break from these feelings.

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I can't say no, and I'm hoping I'm somehow wrong. But I am very afraid because I had been getting vague a little, until the last hospital stay, which after that has been losing mental ability hand over fist. I still wonder whether they did an ECT treatment on me by mistake.

I'm just having terrible difficulties with my memory and anything I need my memory for. I can barely even type a post now. I forget mid thought and have to pause while I try to remember what I wanted to say.

Hang in there! My symptoms are more apparent. My paranoia makes me behave very slowly...just being cautious, I think. But when everyone is home I feel like I'm more focused on them that I'm slightly less symptomatic. It's weird but similar to you. I hope you try yoga or breathing exercises. That's what I do which my t recommends. By the way, I haven't seen my t in 4 weeks cuz he's in Europe. I'll see him on Monday which I feel like I can manage on my own now. Pfft! Anyway, we have to be our own advocates and cheerleaders to make us feel better. No one can do that for you! I believe your stronger than you think and you can do it. So hang in there and no more hospital! Take care!

thank you!
I hope I am because my husband is off to spend the night with his dad. Leaving me alone with all this.
On a more positive note the Latuda seems to be working it's magic on my appetite. I've lost a couple pounds already

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Yeah my Latuda has curbed my appetite food and ***trigger*** sex. I feel kinda flat and numb.
Take one moment at a time that helps me not get overwhelmed and more anxious. Read bedtime stories or share a favorite family moment that helps ease into bed on a lighter note. Sweet Dreams! 😊😊😊

Maybe it's the change in medication making it more pronounced. I know when I was on different meds they really screwed with my memory.

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Yes, thank you, you're right, i was off Abilify in just a few days, and on the invega.

My stelazine dose increased and my invega is the same
I am slowly gaining weight and it makes me feel terrible I lost all of this weight last year and it's slowly coming back

I feel like I'm losing my mind
I'm takin two supposedly strong antipsychotics so why do I still hear voices and still get scared ? If I really was psychotic wouldn't these symptoms of away with extra medication? Wouldn't ii be responding the meds if I really did have schizophrenia or whatever the **** my diagnosis is now ?

It just makes me wonder

30% don't respond to meds and 30% only have a partial response.....

it took me 7 months of hospitalisation to find the right meds. theres so many of them and they all affect you differently. even with the right ones i still hear voices daily. i also gained a lot of weight and it bothers me. invega worked for me but messed up my hormones so i had to change it

hang on

Good morning, didn't feel like getting up and coming to the clinic but here I am. , it's supposed to be in the 60's today and sunny. Right now it's cold and windy, of course on the day I wear shorts and a t shirt lol my goal today is to go to all the groups I'm signed up for and not leave early

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I wish it were that cool here!

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This is when Canadians get to brag about the cold

This song always gives me the chills



Eh Chickenfoot

Morning everyone. I made it through the night without my husband by my side. Things are marginally better today. My anxiety is just about under control. The depression is still hanging strong. I'm still not seeing the light at the end of the tunnel but I know there must be one there.

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That's a great song. It is chilling.

Hello, my husband is off today and guess what he wants to do...clean, no fun! Oh well, I'll have a de cluttered home which can be relaxing.

Hey guys!
Did my best run today! Didn't feel like I needed to stop once and ran my quickest mile yet (according to my Nike app).
I don't have to feel guilty about the cake I had with lunch now haha.

I fired my therapist of almost 2 years yesterday afternoon. Came home and cried myself to sleep.
Feeling conflicted as to if i did the right thing.

I battle doing this. I don't know how to quit. I'm sorry you feel the way you do, it's understandable two years is a long commitment. I hope you have a back up therapist in case you need more services. Hugs!!

Hi, Gretta. What were the reasons you weren't happy?

My psychologist phoned me today and I sounded really off. Just a bit paranoid but this is how I distract myself...



Also... This made me laugh..



Lmfao

Why did you fire them? Also, why do you not think it was a good idea?

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Love it!