Roll call 80

You're gonna stick it out! You can not be who they say they are, simple, you define yourself. Sorry that your rents are treating you badly. You're a goal setter, that's a great asset that you have besides your heart and soul. Good Luck.

thinking of you today.

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I have body anxiety. What does it have to do, etc. I hate this. Now I have a headache too. We have to call the cab in about 30 minutes. Slightly longer. Why do I get like this?

And I already started getting scared of the stairs. What am I going to do? My mother snapped at me last time I called her (she never calls me, she expects everyone to pay tribute to her and call her). Anyway she snapped and nastily said "they'll have to put you in a cardboard box and take you out of the window".

Her nastiness is fine with me as long as I never call her. You'd have had to hear her tone of voice and know her to know how hostile she has gotten towards me. She doesn't even try to hide it anymore.

Yes, mom. Tell me more about the forklifts. Tell me again not to upset my sister while I'm locked in the hospital psych ward. Cheese and rice, what an effed up family I come from.

Sorry about your mom I hope you can handle your anxiety very soon

i hope everyone accomplishes what they set out to do today.

I need to catch some sleep, good night.

I'm at Ts place bc the power is out at my house and it's hot in there.

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Had about half and hour of voices telling me to kill myself. They also said something sexual a few times. I'm sick of this.

That's pretty much what my voices say to me. They like to tell me my T is planning on raping me. Also they were hell bent on me killing myself. Thankfully I don't hear them much anymore these days

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Sorry to hear that. Glad you don't hear from them much anymore.

This morning I was greeted with the news that i am now required to wear long sleeves to work due to all the scars on my arms. ....I Am Furious....i put in a complaint to HR that i was being required to wear a different uniform than anyone else in my department due to my physical appearance, and that this is discriminatory. ....we'll see what happens

I agree, that is discrimination. I hope HR is able to help.

I'm in between appointments at the clinic but very glad at least one is over. My friend came with me. I was petrified of the stairs, but with his help i got down the stairs. What would life be like without anxiety. I hope I never reincarnate.

It is taking forever. I want to go home. I hate it here. There are too many gaps in my music file and I don't want to hear a sound from here. My pdoc keeps getting people and they're all ahead of me. I just want to gooooooooo!

Don't take any kindness, it's a demon in disguise.

This is the waiting area in hell. I'm still waiting! I want to go! I hate it here!

No one believes me...

I believe you. My brain is infected by devils.

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Thanks

Having a rough day. My voices are tormenting me and my anxiety is through the roof. One of my cats got into the attic and won't come down. She's acting funny too. It's so hot in the attic I'm worried about her. I have her food, water , and a kitty litter box up there.

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I'm sure your kitty will come down eventually... If it gets too worrisome would you be able to go into the attic and get her? Maybe she needs to see a vet.

I hope it is going/has gone well! Somtimes I think the nerves over these things are worse than they turn out...

My induction is in just over a month, so got a bit more time until I have to worry about it. I do have to go to a workshop for applying for funding though sometime soon.

I figure I'll probably try to skip using a diazepam before my induction... the way I see it is, I will adjust to it eventually... so best just to get the nerves out the way straight away! (wasn't sure if you meant PRN for psychosis though...) Plus everyone is in much the same situation, so I find that usually helps psychologically...

Anyway, keen to find out how it was for you!

It does sound like your parents are being assholes... surely they should want you to become independent, not institutionalized as they seem to think you should be... well **** them...

You've got a plan & the determination to prove them wrong so kudos to you. Keep at it & you'll get there.

For anyone who has rough days

Hey guys,

Been a bit quiet recently because my parents are up. They just got the confirmation they have sold their old house on the first day up. It won't go through fully until September though.

We've spent the past couple of days doing the finishing touches to clearing out the house. Been nice to be back over there again but sad too because I think now it's all official it's starting to hit me that the house I won't be seeing the house I grew up in again soon. I mean right now, it's empty of all furniture bar a table & stools but it still feels like home in a way.

Anyway, today was a really nice sunny day so we got to sit outside having lunch which was really nice.

I will get to see it again before the sale goes through, but maybe only 1 or 2 more times. End of an era... bittersweet.