Roll call 80

That's messed up!

You really should have posted about your delusions in the safe place thread. Or used a trigger warning.

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That's terrible! You need a new pdoc. She shouldn't be a doctor.

My only advise you won't like. It sounds like you need the hospital at least until these feelings pass.

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Just watched the Republican National Convention. Not sure if I'm losing my mind or if everybody else is. Maybe it's time to see my doctor again.

The janitor is burning something that produces caustic smoke/fumes, again. I hate that pos. I'm afraid to know what he's burning. It's making my throat and eyes burn. I wish he was dead.

There was a shouting, enraged male outside. My stomach is flipping inside out. It makes me panic.

toby tried to run out the door when i came home a few minutes ago. that gave me anxieties. cuz i am so scared of him running away. i whispered in his ear Dont Do That. i hope he got the message!!!

It's not you. If it is, we're both losing it. It's the GOP.

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Something is very wrong tonight. I'm too uppy. I'm never uppy or energetic or want to talk like this. It's the opposite. I want to run around the block and scream and cry at the same time and I'm freaking out because part of me knows it's not normal but the rest of me overrides that and contiunes with the party of "I'm fine"

There's too much. With this energy, not being able to sit down and focus like I'm on crack or something and my voices at the same time.. I need sleep. I have class in the morning. This is a horrible time for my brain to **** with me.

Does anyone else realize something is wrong but your brain just doesn't care?

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I was feeling too up last night. I didn't fall asleep until 6 or 7 am.

And today I'm just the opposite. Tired, sad, very depressed. I just wish I could leave.

don't leave us.

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I'm watching an atmospheric horror film from somewhere in Scandinavia, I'm guessing. Actually, the coolest part is that on this channel they have TV commercials for all the cool new inventions, like a veggie and meat scissors, and ceramic frying pans, dump cakes, etc. Something is so calming about those commercials. As though life just continues amid the horrors of this world.

Had to call in sick to work today, the voices are really bad. This is really bad, I'm only there three weeks. But I wouldn't have been able to hold a conversation at all, I'm just going to lock myself up in my room for the day with them and plan things out.

i love watching infomercials and sometimes even the home shopping network or QVC. its just so mindless

What total ****ing BS!!!!!!!! Wow, just WOW. I'm so sorry you had to listen to that! I don't understand how people like this are doctors at all, I've met some real jewels too pfft.

I'm sorry to hear this, I've been wondering how you are and I read your posts here and I'm sorry to see that you're suffering. I hate it when the voices get bad, I tend to just lock myself away from the world when they get bad too.

I don't think it's you either.

Thanks Atypical. Nice to hear from you. How are things with you? Sometimes when they're this bad I slip out sentences in reply to them without thinking and people hear me and think I'm crazy. If I had done that in work it would have been over.

I've done that at work it's super embarrassing

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I am officially a sophomore in college!

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I've been better but I'll deal. Thanks for asking. I totally understand the replying to them when people can hear you thing. Omfg so embarrassing.

Congratz 21!

When I was in highschool I would talk to the people in my head in the classroom sometimes. It was a high school for people with psychiatric conditions so people were pretty understanding. Now I'm in a regular college. If I need to talk to the people I will go to an isolated area with no one around and if real people come by I'll pretend I'm on the phone.

I pretend I'm on the phone too! My wife came up with that idea.

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i cant hide it sometimes. ive learned to not say it out loud. i just mouth it. so maybe it looks like im singing or something. or maybe i look crazy. sometimes i dont care