Roll call 80

Oi do and I just took one. Thank you

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the weekend is slow and depressing. my weeks are full but never on the weekends.

I feel like crap. It might be something to do with reducing the gabapentin I was taking less. I'll probably go back to taking it 3 x per day.

Not feeling too good. I woke up at 7:00am something but then took a "nap" which was over 6 hours long. I just can't seem to get enough sleep no matter how much I try for. My sleep meds keep me tired and sleeping all day after sleeping all night too.

Well, something woke me around 2:45am. Probably the jackass upstairs dropping its furniture again. But it actually let me be awake to see Sandcastles. From the 1970's, i had been wanting to see it for many years. It's sort of a cult classic because of the video taped feel of it. Plus the plot, and it's not too long to sit through.

I took my meds at 5 am and now I don't know if I can get back to sleep. Even if I have coffee.

Could just be initial withdrawal effects. Feel better and I hope you are able to get some more sleep.

I think I had visual hallucinations last night. I could see this neon green battery and this blue aura. And my mind made it very clear to me that was what those images were. I was very tired though, so maybe that was it? I don't know. I don't normally psychically see things so it was a little scary.

Now my therapist is following me, circling around me. I don't psychically see her but I know she's here. She is playing with her breasts and accusing me of spying on her when she's the one in front of me with no shirt on. Gosh, where do I come up with this stuff?

Thanks but I spoke too soon. I ended up overeating a bit during lunch and purging yesterday. But I think 1 time in 5 days is an improvement from multiple times a day every day. I feel good. I do need to eat healthier meals though, I've been eating Ramen a lot since its so cheap and easy but I will find some better options when I see the nutritionist

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Recovering from an eating disorder is hard work. Congratulations on the five days, that's a great start! I'm a recovered anorexic and it took me several years to fully recover. And I'm still tempted to just not eat for days at a time, I have to make a really conscious effort to not slip back into it. But in time it has gotten a lot easier.

You can get better. You've always struck me as someone that's very proactive about their mental health and recovery. I know you can get through this and be victorious, I believe in you.

I had to find things to do on the weekends because I used to have this problem. I had nothing to do on the weekends so they just dragged on and on, and I hated that.

woke up to the power being out (again)

went to Ts place bc he had power

when i got there, got a text that the powers back from duke energy

im supposed to be getting a call today from the store i applied at. i hope they call....but then i dont.

Hope you hear back from the store, junk.
Good morning everyone. I'm tired today. Had trouble sleeping last night. I hate not being able to sleep. It's hot as hell here today. I wish we had gone to the beach. My kids didn't want to go. Crazy kids.

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I hope you sleep better tonight. I never wanted to go to the beach as a kid.

My kids usually love the beach. I think I let them watch to many shark shows lol

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Hey guys,

Had a day off playing Pokemon today largely speaking. I am somewhat in full procrastination mode, which makes everything seem good but only because I am avoiding doing things that need done. Still, managed to start getting back on top of some things today.

Strangely enough when I got back from being out with some folk until 1 am, followed by a huge thunderstorm at 4am ... I had more voices the other day. Guess I just didn't get enough sleep.

This reminds me of why I started playing games again at the end of 2015... I don't hear voices when I play games. I read something that said some people play games as a coping method for mental health problems... I guess that makes sense.

I do think I spend a lot of time "escaping" any problems I have. Whether that's watching TV, reading or playing games. All ways to not deal with life.

Guess I've just got to get the balance right... deal with **** but also keep myself busy.

Anyway, hope everyone is well.

Hey guys, was hearing music last night, not sure why.
Went to a work group today, I've had a busy week and it's really helped me. Keeping busy stops me getting depressed and stops the psychosis from fully developing.
Some jobs have come up that I'm going to apply for! I'm sending my application to get reviewed by the mental health job service that I'm with so hopefully it will give me more chance of getting an interview!
Hope you're all okay

Good luck with your jobs applications!

Thank you angelique!

Hi guys, hope everyone is fine. I had Pdoc appointment yesterday, got something called arcalion. Has anyone tried this before? It helps with the cronic fatigue..

Good luck!

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clockwork people again

I still haven't eaten because I can't decide what I want. I'll probably make eggs. If the last piece of bread isn't moldy,I can make them Sunnyside. If there is mold,I can make them scrambled. And maybe put pancake syrup on the scrambled ones.

I keep thinking it would be nice if my friend lived here. I guess we would have to get rid of all these cartons empty or filled, and try to "hoard-proof" both our rooms, including the bathroom and kitchen.

It won't happen of course, because that's like a worst case scenario. But I wish my friend were here every day.

I wish he were there with you too!

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I feel sad so I'm vaping weed