Roll call 94?

So. I have to make a very difficult decision. I can't afford veterinary for my cats which they need, especially one of them. I can barely afford the $40 I'm left with after all bills are paid to live on let alone take care of them. I have decided to give them to a no kill shelter. they do background checks on anyone adopting an animal. They would get the care they need and get placed with a good family. It literally rips my heart out to even think about doing but it's only fair to them. I want them to have a good life somewhere. I will miss than more than anything, I haven't even done it yet and I'm sitting here crying at the library.

So. I have to make a very difficult decision. I can't afford veterinary for my cats which they need, especially one of them. I can barely afford the $40 I'm left with after all bills are paid to live on let alone take care of them. I have decided to give them to a no kill shelter. they do background checks on anyone adopting an animal. They would get the care they need and get placed with a good family. It literally rips my heart out to even think about doing but it's only fair to them. I want them to have a good life somewhere. I will miss than more than anything, I haven't even done it yet and I'm sitting here crying at the library.

I suppose no one went out on a hunt for me...

Sitting in the AC it's smokey here with all the fires up north and hot as heck

Im having debilitating anxiety today.

I feel like i need to throw up or pass out from it.

I got maybe 5 hours sleep at best. I'm so tired. My eyes are tired

When I woke up I expected to see the light from the hallway at the hospital. I panicked when I didn't see it

I'm trying to study for my CPC exam retake tomorrow at 8am.but I am sooooo dang tired

And I have to go to work at 4pm tonight

you can't get to the doctor fast enough. You need your meds.
Are there any coping techniques that help? Conventional skills don't work for me so I hang out with my dogs and it helps.

Where ya been?
Hope you are far away from the fires.

Got my eliquid subscription box in the mail

Oh neat! What flavors did you get?

I am in the lower mainland of BC but there has been 65,000 hectares of forest burnt to a crisp! The nearest fire is in Harrison lake east side and that was man made one! But there is a total of 142 fires burning out of control with 6,900 workers trying to put them out! $142millon has been spent so far on the efforts of it all!

I am always told to deep breath but it doesnt work. But thing about that is, vaping sometimes helps because it supports deep breathing. I guess i self medicate with vaping.

I cant listen to music because it makes it worse. a lot of my music is negative or borderline depressing. Idk why.

I almost bought a canvas and some paint at the grocery store cuz i wanted to paint. But then i didnt.

I see a lot of my creativity coming back this past week. Even tho im taking my haldol. And im realizing it doesnt come without the consequences. I feel very sad, anxious, and paranoid.

11 flavors. Lost of fruity stuff.

Strawberry daiquiri, blackberry creme brulee, honeydew smoothie, etc.

I don't vape the fruity flavored. Straight up menthol for me.

11 flavors. Lost of fruity stuff.

Strawberry daiquiri, blackberry creme brulee, honeydew smoothie, etc.