Roll Call 99

I live in the same town I grew up in

I hope you'll have a very successful and wonderful moving outcome. I did a lot better in NY than in Chicago, and I wish I'd never had to leave there. It's way too expensive for me now. And now my circumstances are slowly killing me. But something like this would have happened no matter where I was.

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Yes, I think you're right. It does bother me though. Makes me feel even more left out. How are you doing today, justme?

Good evening/afternoon everyone. How is everyone.

Sending hugs to everyone that needs them.

I'm okay. Went to the store to pick up some supplies for the apartment. My wife gets back to Finland tomorrow evening. I'm feeling tired, but coping okay so far.

Lunch is coming soon. I wish they'd restocked the Coke machine. Dying for a cold Coke.

I got my degree solely thru online classes at a community college

Thats really cool. I have no problem with online classes. Only if a school is not accredited.

Just saw my therapist. She had really good thinking points for me when approaching people with what i tell them. She said i shouldnt tell everyone stuff like this. Like my dreams. Only tell 1 or 2 people i can trust fully and take it from there, as far as telling people. She said not everyone is gonna support my dreams because everyone has their own idea of what i should be doing with my life.

I agree with your therapist. I keep my aspirations for life and what I want to do to a small group of friends. My family thinks a lot they should be in the know, but they're also the most judgmental so I keep it to myself. It's also sometimes easier said than done, but learning to not care what others think is an important skill I think. It took me years to come to grips with, but it makes life a lot more manageable.

Yeah it hurts to be rejected by anyone, even a dog. I'm doing okay thanks, looking forward to moving properly tomorrow. How're you doing Angelique?

Finished work just in time to see my little one sleeping

Just got home. Saw my therapist and pss today.

I feel much more grounded after talking to my therapist. She said i need to write down what im thinking and how i feel cuz it seemed kinda jumbled ideas but she understood my dream

I don't know if I ever told you guys but i won a bike last week

Thats awesome kori!!! Like a motorbike or a bicycle?

It's a bicycle
it's a men's bike so I don't know how much I'd ride it
But ineeded a new bike so I am super glad that I got one and it was free

I feel much more stable and grounded right now. Im sure taking my haldol this morning helped.

I apologize for getting upset on here.

Do you guys know the wish app? Its an app that everything comes directly from china but you can get stuff for like a dollar.

I bought a ring there and its turning my finger green!

@junkdna

Have you heard anything bad about ASU?

Well, I'm very, very happy for you! I hope all your work goes smoothly.

I'm wondering whether they'll get a move on sending me to another place now that they are closing half of this facility. And whether they're going to send me to a state hospital ("temporarily") because I don't want to go to the place that doesn't allow vaping. I really only just thought of that. Oh my God.

Hows everyone doing?

Wow! That's great, Kori. I'm hoping to have my bike available wherever they're going to send me. How did you win the bike?

My bike needs a tune-up and I won't be able to afford it. This must be the bottom of my life. I doubt I ever got very high. I've been injured since I was born. Throughout my younger years I was still working, so I hadn't dropped as far down as I thought at the time. The week my cat died and I lost my job was one of the scraping the bottom times. Since then, my normal is below the starting point with only exceptions coming when I met my friend in 2000. I've made a total mess of my life.

I'm okay. Spending time roaming the internet and chatting with friends. Thinking about getting something to eat.