Roll Call 100: Centennial Edition

Are you going to carve those sexy pumpkins?

I look really fat in that pic

No. They are just for decor

Weight isn't as important compared to happiness and true happiness starts with stability---which means those weight gaining meds.....sigh....

I used to get them with the intent of both carving and making baked pumpkin seeds then somewhere along the lines I got lazy.......now I really don't even buy them, last year I think I got a winter squash to look slightly festive and let it rot outdoors....so much for Martha Stewart......

Im not happy with how i look. It makes me very depressed.

I usually get this kind of anxiety for anything I purchased tickets for which is timed----I'm always thinking I will be late or do something wrong, like even handing over the tickets is sometimes to much if I need assistance finding my seat. So every time I post fun stuff on here there is usually a 2 hr period of misery. I get this less so now that I'm in a relationship because there is someone I know I can count on there.

I'm sorry I'm not happy about my weight either but I justify it as a means to an end. If I weren't stable I wouldn't have a job which provides me with money for fun things. I wouldn't have a boyfriend. I'm sure there is more but those 2 things are critical to my well being....can you not see it as a trade off?

No i see what you mean. My life is mostly well. I mean im working on my weight. Its just not coming off fast enough.

For me it was either die or gain a little pooch.

Yeah keep at it. It's an ongoing struggle for me----I'll maybe lose 3 pounds with weeks of effort then eat out a couple of times and gain it all back....

I'm convinced docs can tell who is actually taking meds by their weight---if you don't have at least a little tummy there's no way you're taking the right amount of AP.....

I believe that too

I think I'm making burgers for dinner tonight. Everyone loves them and they aren't hard to make. Win all the way around. They get what they like and I don't have to hear "but we always eat chicken" lol.
I have to go back to work in 15 minutes. It's been nice relaxing for the afternoon.

Ha! That's true.

mmmmm burgers

Here is the edited picture. With color ambiance.

Of course you should go. Don't let that anticipatory anxiety steal it away. I know it's easier said than done but I know you've wanted this for a very long time. You've studied hard, now it's the time for it to become an important part of you.
And it's one of your major goals.

Dude, my weight started at 178. He put me on Risperdal and I immediately gained weight. Like, within the one week I was in the psychward getting my first doses of Risperdal I coudlnt wear my 32 pant size anymore. I shot to something like 240. I had so many side effects that I had a yelling argument with my psychiatrist and he put me on Geodon and I went back down to 180. The difference in AP was astounding. Then I had all those problems with anti depressants and then I was put on mood stabilizers and I gained some of the pooch back.

Now all those meds have jacked my body even though I'm off them and I just can't shake the weight. I'm trying fiber and probiotics, I take some other supplements. This winter Ill start working out again, ill have time since I don't work much when its snowing outside.

I tried working out about a year and a half ago and since by default the new normal is a bit stocky I don't really lose the weight it just goes straight to muscle. I'm not a fan of big muscles, but maybe if I start doing full body resistance training again I can get somewhere. Maybe the white fat will turn to brown fat which burns more calories and keeps you warmer.

I remember i went from 95 pounds (cuz im ACTUALLY naturally really thin. And also really short) to 180 pounds in 2 years on the wrong meds some pdoc put me on for bipolar, which was the wrong dx. I got off them cold turkey (which is when i went into my major episode) and dropped back to 105 in 2 years. After those two years i got on disability and meds and went to this clinic and went back up to 180. Just this year got down to 170. All these months go by and i only lose 10 pounds!!!

So ive been struggling with med weight since i was 17. And i know its because of the meds.

I'm just curious to what kind of psychiatrist thinks the first med of choice should be Risperdal, which can cause men to have boobs among all the other likely side effects. I couldn't function sexually either. Like, if you want a person to be med compliant don't you want to give them a decent med that doesn't ruin their sex life, make them numb, make them gain 70 pounds? He believed my case was mild yet he still went for the strong stuff.

Meanwhile I'm eating pizza and drinking a beer! hahaahaha happiness!

I think they do that for rapid stabilization---my doc tried Seroquel low dose first but I had a reaction and to be fair I was starting to lose compliance---I kind of left the hospital ama because it was so boring it was killing me. He then prescribed risperidone---I went up a bra size and in weight and was like I'm surprised they don't give this to women who want and increase in cup size without going under the knife.

I didn't get to work my arms on the machine today because one of the physical therapists needed the machine. I should bring in my upper body exercise sheets and do them with the weights. But I'm afraid I'll destroy the paper, carrying it to the gym everyday. They're supposed to be used with two pound weights, to start on. And the weights are in the gym so I can feasibly only do them there. I've got to give myself some credit though. It's easy to stop, but I have pretty good motivation.

What's tweaky's secret to staying so thin? That guy has been on so many drugs and he's the picture of health lol Tweaky, comment?