Roll Call 144

Hmm, doesn’t look like Amazon are getting back in touch... been over two hours now and it’s after 8pm. Guess I’ll contact them again tomorrow...

They just called! They said they would add £10 credit to my account as a goodwill gesture since I wasn’t able to use the code. They didn’t really say anything with regards to why it wasn’t working but it’s nice they did a workaround for me.

Amazon probably got hacked....what are you ordering....anything fun?

Yay! These just came in the mail

Yay stuff! 😀😀😀

Final Fantasy XII: The Zodiac Age remaster for my PS4. Just ordered it. Only had to pay £2.49

Oh neat! I always loved Final Fantasy. 😀

Yeah I think the Final Fantasy games are my favourite of all time. I mean Zelda has a special place in my heart too but as a franchise FF wins out.

I'm giving up hamburgers for Lent. I wanted to give up SH but I was too afraid I'd fail. Probably don't have enough faith...that makes me sad. Kit

Oh well. What the heck. I'm going to give up SH too for Lent. Hopefully I don't fail. Kit

I couldn’t give up anything for lent. Could I give up lent for lent?

Have you ever tried an inspirational bracelet to remind you?

Example...

WORD FINDER – MyIntent Project
MyIntent Classic Bracelet – MyIntent Project

Great Idea Sometimes Psychotic...I've not seen these before. Thanks!

I want one that says “breathe”. I had a fake tattoo that said breathe. I really like it.

Or maybe just get a real tattoo with an inspirational quote. For me i mean.

Breathe is good.


I ordered a red one that says "Faith" because I think I need to have more Faith in God to help me.

Information is everywhere. We are information as energy trying to explain itself. Wrong is right and right is wrong. No one knows what they're doing. If they do, they have money, love, content, spirituality.. but who allows that to happen? THEM. A God. A memory. A situation that left a mark on someone. Things can change. Things can stay the same. Cell phones exist now. People just keep talking and they are listening. Something is listening to everything. Take a walk on the beach and forget all of your troubles. I wish I could change things. But now I'm stuck. A future ahead where we all die. I'm not making this up.

I typed "I'm confused" into google and a confusion song came up and now I'm still confused

Stop, drop, shut em down, open up shop.

I'm so pissed off. I literally started crying because I was so uncomfortable because I can't sit still and feel like destroying something, I'm pissed off at my bed I'm sitting in right now I can't stand it for some reason right now, I can't stand feeling anything physically, my shirt is uncomfortable my hair everything I am so sick of this I don't want to play this game anymore, what the hell happened to me

I can't get into blackboard, I wonder if they're doing some kind of maintenance thing on it

Is there anything that does feel good like a shower or fresh sheets?

I took a shower a few hours ago. I want rest from this, I miss when I did so well for a long time and felt normal

Alternatively do you have anything to play with? For me I had silly putty to sort of smush etc when I started feeling edgy like that.

That time will come again...

I'm so sorry you're feeling like this. It sounds like just the type of anxiety I get when I use weed. Have you used weed lately? Or any other recreational substance? You don't have to say. Again, you don't need to say anything but... When I was your age, I joined a gym with a swimming pool and went swimming every morning. I felt terrific and easily lost weight. I think I stopped after my eye surgery and maybe something else. But swimming is so much fun. It controlled my anxiety like nothing else could.