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I might have something like that, I'll take a look around

Weed actually causes panic for me.

No, I haven't used weed or anything else since my teen years. I wish I could, I've wanted to but I'm too afraid to and won't because of a very bad experience I had awhile back with something. I really wish I had some Irish whiskey though to relax

I have a free gym membership to the YMCA with my student ID, I should probably start going back

Yeah that's wonderful! It helps a lot for panic/anxiety. Like an SSRI but better. I hope you'll feel better very soon. Maybe have a cup of that new tea you got!

Thanks, I might do that I've fallen out of my regular routines and self care practices so my days and mind have been a jumble of chaos. I forgot that I have a wax warmer, I might make a cup of that tea and put in one of my cinnamon spice scented wax cubes

Sounds good! I have some tea here, just a black tea I like. I wish it were tomorrow morning now so I could have some lol. (Actually, I could have some and take a tiz later if I need to.)

This sounds like my manic rage. I'm sorry youre going through this. When I felt this way I'd take a benzo and watch conan O Brian or SNL skits.

Can I ask long term do you think the benzos helped....I sometimes hear they make anxiety worse....

Thanks, I actually took some klonopin earlier, I'm starting to feel better, listening to chillstep on youtube

I love the SNL monologues... I wish it was broadcast in the UK.

Good morning, slept pretty good

I've taken benzos for several years. (Xanax) I've never had to increase the dose. I can go days/weeks without it and I'm fine. Or I can use it several days in a row and I'm fine. It just continues to work when I'm really anxious. HUGS Kit

Good Morning Everyone!

I don't think my boss is coming back to work on the 11th like she thought. She's having a slower recovery than I think she expected to. She had a total knee replacement. I'm doing okay without having her here at work, there hasn't been too much stuff that I haven't known how to do or what to do, so it's not that. I just miss her and she usually deals with the crap stuff 90 percent of the time, so there's that. I just hope she recovers well and it would be nice if she could get back to work timely but of course overall what matters is her well-being. Kit

Either my allergies have been horrible or I've been getting sick because I'm super congested and feel like crap

I had some visual hallucinations at work this morning. My day is just starting out great (sarcasm). I got to work and then noticed my shirt was stained (like in three places!--it's totally obvious). The visuals scared me but I did some breathing stuff and now I'm back to feeling more even. I don't have a lot of motivation but I did already get my work done (what to do with the rest of my day I don't know). I really wish I could afford to just work part time because this job is really more of a part time gig. There's really not enough work for full time most of the time, so I have a lot of time to check what's up on PC and stuff like that. Kit

I hope you feel better soon. Drink lots of fluids! Kit

I hope the visuals don't come back. Maybe I'll journal for a while or something. Kit

Same here but with klonopin

Journaling is very helpful for me, I haven't done it much recently and I really should. I used to write all the time and it was a great coping skill and was neat looking over the entries and seeing how things progress over time and patterns. I wrote a little in mine last night when I was agitated

Will have to go pick up my trileptal tomorrow.

I think I'm just going to rest today. I've been spending long amounts of time out in the cold and that might be why I don't feel good. On Monday I was outside waiting for the bus for like an hour

ive spent this entire week at my grandmothers, just don't feel like being alone right now.

psych doc appointment tomorrow, gonna ask for something for anxiety, my klonopin isnt working

I hope the appointment goes well Falcon09 HUGS Kit

My throat feels scratchy. I hope I'm not getting sick. Kit

Hope you don't Kit

I took some Benadryl earlier, seems to be helping some