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That's crazy, it's way too early for that

Interesting. I don't know if I can do that, they'd probably give me a feeding tube if I stopped eating.

That sounds too good to be true. But it would be nice if it weren't!

It’s more like a constant diet than not eating at all, but obvi metformin is easier.

Plan on adding 40 minutes (at minimum) of vigorous walking to my days

I know, right!?!

one more pain pill left, I am really sore.

I hope i'm not infected or something

It might be because you’re eating solid food....I know I was on liquid smoothie type stuff at least two weeks after getting one out.

I was really sore for awhile too, definitely several days at least, also I didn't eat solid food for a week, I pretty much just ate stuff that was easy

@Sometimes psychotic and BB I started eating solid food on day 3, they told me to wait 48 hours. Maybe I should have waited longer though.

I think it really depends on the person and how you feel, 48 hours is probably the minimum to wait

I think the cookies I make later in the month are going to have chocolate chips and oreos in them, cookieception

I slept all day and feel depressed cuz the Invega injection

Yea,it can

Added more details to the first zentangle picture and finished up the second one, just have to do the coloring for the 2nd now

I think too much. And I’m thinking about my last sort of ‘break’. I remember seeing skulls in traffic lights on my way to a job interview in end of July 2015. I didn’t see my doctor and admit my paranoid and delusional thoughts until May 2017. Makes me think how long was I really out of it and how long I lost insight.

I have a huge stack of coloring books. Plan on using them since I've been feeling very motivated

They're great for mindfulness

Need some insight guys....

I feel on top of the world right now. Like I am enlightened and all powerful.

I heard garbled nonsense last night and a fading figure behind me when I looked around. No one else saw or heard it.

I grew up hearing whispering voices pretty frequently, all the way into adulthood. It scared the crap out of me. I remember once asking my dad if the eardrum could make sense on its own without a source and he said no. I think I was hearing stuff on my own. Also it was very common for me to hear someone call my name and no source. I used to go into rooms asking if someone called my name and people were like no. It all vanished on APs. Then crap like believing I had a chip implant as a teen and believing lots of my dads crazy beliefs too. Like I could control people with my mind, move objects, do supernatural things with my powers etc...

I feel like I am cured right now of everything. Anyone have thoughts?

It sounds like you’re still hallucinating to me, but you’ve seen through the old delusions....

Yeah...at least the teenage delusions are mostly a thing of the past...makes me wonder if I was perpetually psychotic as a teen? but now it’s all weird and stuff. Idk what to make of reality it keeps shifting before my eyes

Same thing happened to me when I was a 16. I guess at the start, you don't have insight. People calling my name, hearing voices. But I was focused on other things that were tormenting me and didn't pay attention to what was happening to me. I was given risperidone at age 17. At age 18, I believe for me it was made worse by drinking dextromethorphan where I realized the meaning to the universe.

Now I'm medicated but it seems that when I do have psychotic symptoms, I'm able to recognize it yet consumed by the thoughts to where there's no changing the thoughts without an PRN antipsychotic at the end of my injection. So antipsychotic medication is important. You should not refuse medication.

A lot of my visual hallucinations were hypnotic ones where I'd wake up and have a conversation with family members that weren't there and they'd tell me weird things.

I remember leaving school by just walking out of class because I was so paranoid thinking helicopters were after me, walking fast to home and then taking a high dose of risperidone to knock me out, all the psychotic writing I made on my laptop and agitation. Then I'd get bad akathisia from the risperidone. It all happened because I stopped taking the risperidone because I was too tired.

It seems like there's a source for the voices (Like behind a door) but no one was home. I had thoughts of the legs of my family members being in the bathtub downstairs. It was a really bazar time. Thinking something in my mind which was an orb of some sort would give me great knowledge. I saw it with peoples faces coming up to my vision and disappearing.

But now I'm on the right meds so you should find the right medication. To me, the psychosis seemed like what happened on my bad psilocybin trips.

I’d hate to know what would’ve happened to me if my parents weren’t so against pdocs and Ts and I was treated as a teen. It could’ve been a bad thing....or good. Idk. Being on that poison at that age would’ve ruined the good things of my teens and 20s and possible earlier hospitalizations than 2015. Ugh.

Just updated my signature.
Pleased with it.

Things aren’t clear. I don’t know what reality is real. There are multiple realities I am in and that makes it very confusing. I can’t handle this. It’s so hard. If this is insight I’m still confused.