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That is crazy.....I mean people call us crazy but geeze that is the true crazy, the trigger part...

It’s so fast after thanksgiving, thus cyber Monday to get all the gifts. I think I’m set.

Yeah be careful of the people you meet in the psych ward lmao

Yeah, for real......

And it is at this tiny little restaurant that only has parking in the back, and I have no BF so I'm going solo and I'm going to look like a nerd because I didn't have anyone to bring.


The more I think about it, the more I don't want to go. But it's one of those "social" obligations. I don't feel like I can just skip it. Too much professionally rides on stuff like this that seems insignificant.

I know...it's going too fast this year. I still have to wrap. Crap.

I'm not in TX but I'm in CA and I was able to get my flu shot for free at my Church in October. So I was like, score!

I think I'm set too. I got my dad and my fiance something. I may get my mom and sister something idk. They always tell me dont get them anything because they know I struggle with money a bit. So I may not. If I do itll be cheap like an amazon giftcard or something for each of them.

Our December bills weren't too high. Our electricity is 20 dollars cheaper this month. But we have the sofa bill now. ...and I decided to do my dads gift through amazon installment payments. I really wanted to get him this gift tho because of security issues going on at his place. It's a ring doorbell.

Anyway, I got my nephew a tshirt that says Mustang on it. Hes gonna be a Ford baby. I was gonna make him a monster truck tshirt but all the pieces individually wouldve cost a lot more than just a regular graphic shirt.

But I think what killed me this year was fiances needs/wants. He wants another pair of work boots. His are about 8 years old or so and tearing apart. So I bought him exactly what he wanted. It was over 100 dollars. So yea. I know he will like it tho.

I'm so hungry.

30 more min or so.

I feel like I'm dying.

I take 50mg of Seroquel every night. I only have a few left. I'm going with my mom to the city for a week in a housing place funded by people for breast cancer. It's 25 dollars a night. Really nice place. She's doing her radiation there.

Is it possible to get a prescription of 60x 25mg Seroquels from a doctor in the cancer hospital?

Or do I have to make an appointment in the city? I just hate telling new doctors my medical and psychiatric history.

I have a couple 100mg seroquels. Maybe I can cut them in half.

My microwave just died...it just started like electrically zapping....I cleaned it and it seemed fine but then it started again....I don’t want to risk a fire. Hopefully I can buy one online.

Microwaves are cool

Amazon has microwaves starting at 25 dollars. Their amazon basics microwave is that price and you can speak to it. Very cool. Wouldve gotten one if our current place hadn't come with a microwave.

My nerves where shot yesterday. I had a customer bring out a lawn chair, and sit behind me and give me commentary the entire time I worked. Then he said he would buy lunch for us, so he bought pizza and sat down with us. lol Jesus, it was nerve racking. Commentary all day. 8 minutes into lunch and I said Im going to take my cigarette break. My coworker joined me and we both vented in the van about our frustration at this guy.

Today was the easiest work day all year. It was nice

Sunday night im handing my short story over to an editor. So that's good news. It's done, but I going to read it 5 times and tweak it better. It's really fun! I wish I could do this my entire life really.

Question for everyone: does anyone else have trouble following music? I feel less, but also, I can't follow the lyrics at all. I can listen to one song on repeat for 3 hours and I can't tell you the lyrics. Audiobooks I can follow better, but not lyrics in music. There's a disconnect.

I wanted to say, I'm pretty much writing for a living now. But I'm writing about mental health. I have started and am the only one writing a mental health piece in the company newsletter. Also writing up different things for my job related to mental health. Lots of different things like TMAPS, Personal reports, and other small things. I spend more time writing than meeting with people right now. Which is great actually.

My sister is going to get me one for Xmas.....I’m just gettin* the same one because it lasted like ten years and I know all the controls lol

I’ve never been able to follow the lyrics except in certain rap, and Amanda Palmer....something about it is too complex unless they are virtually speaking or yelling.

Yeah, Amanda Palmer has a very clear voice. She's married to Neil Gaiman, did you know that? The last album I saw of hers, the cover was her completely nude, holding a knife in a darkened sky. She looked like a statue, it was pretty bad ***. The first time I liked her stuff is when she did Coin Operating Boy,. Astronaut gave me inspiration for one of my metaphors I use commonly, when she talked about the cracks on the mirror. I use that metaphor now as the mirror image of our self is fake, and the cracks begin to show who we really are. She's awesome. Always original.

Yes I did know that, they seem like a very suitable couple....original, and a bit dark......

Oh Amanda palmer sang that?! Didnt know!

Me INFP be one with the lyrics

I should be a musician. The thought of it makes me tear up.

This is why I talk about shrooms so much. They did this to me.

But I recommend, not (Very heavily not).

Do you play anything or sing?

I'm just having a good day I suppose. Could be the phenibut. Otherwise all I am is apathy.