Roll Call 167 :)

Exciting! Are you nervous?

I'm sorry, Cog.

Thanks!

I am a little nervous as is usual for these kinds of things.

That said, I did teach the same class last week and I was in a much worse mental state last week than I am in today, so....

Morning

Yeet

Doing much, much better today. Took 2 VRAYLAR pills, second day in a row. Still hearing background voices as usual and was up til maybe 5am but slept and woke up at 9am. Which is fine since I slept all day yesterday. Gonna try to stay awake today.

Hi Blue_Bird! I'm just catching up now.

Just getting going. Slept okay. Work dreams. Always, always work dreams.

Got nothing achieved yesterday. Not one thing. Maybe I can do something today. I hope. Hugs to everyone.

Looking back at meds I was on while psychotic and manic... I don't remember any of this

20mg of Abilify

30mg of Zyprexa

30mg of Paxil

Not all at once but at various times

I still have work dreams too. Usually they're good dreams. Had one the other morning that I really enjoyed.

I don't remember the meds I was on either @falcon09 I hate when I have to give a med history. I'm always like, um, something with an L and something with an E. And the doctor has to list a bunch of names until I'm like, that one!

I'm bored at work today. There's nothing to do. There is one thing I can do but it's not due until like 2021. Not kidding. I can scan three more folders into the database. I scanned two this morning. I only have three left. I feel bad sometimes that I get paid to do nothing. But I'm here if someone needs me. Obviously sometimes I'm busy. But sometimes I'm not. It's never a good sign if I am on PC in the morning during the week because that means work has nothing going on.

I think my mental health is getting worse. I'm not sure if it is COVID, or because I stopped seeing Pastor T, or because it is Summer. I tend to do worse in the Summer. I don't talk to T this week. I do talk to her next week. I did text a couple of friends but I am trying not to be THAT friend that is TOO needy.

Yay!! The library is opening starting next week for curbside pickup

Taking a meal tonight to a friend and her husband that just had a baby. Taking them some diapers too. Already got them a gift but you can never have enough diapers. I got a good brand. Pampers. At least I think it is a good brand. IDK, I never had kids.

It's good to be back! Somehow time got the better of me since Tuesday. The nursing home is finally coming alive again. It was bright sunshine, vaping!!!, and lots of excitement after all those months of death. I have much bigger ants now though, but they die when you step on them. They're really fast. Hate bugs inside.

I'm so dreading the second coming of covid19.

The nicotine is so good after all these months of dementia.

Hope everyone feels well today.

Can you have more sessions with normal T?

I'm not sure but I could ask her.

Nice to see you Angelique!!!

Omg! So fckn embarrased beyond belief! Like so much!

I didn’t realize the bottom of the toilet seat was dirty from me getting sick that day. Omg and my mom and her husband were over. Omg.

apparently the PHP doc has prescribed Clozaril since it came on the market in 1990, so he has a lot of experience with the drug. Makes me feel a bit more safe.

Got sassy back just now. My mom dropped her off with some medicine from the vet. And a package came. My black hoodie from amazon.

Thanks Kit! It's good to see you too!

Idk if this extra VRAYLAR is making me feel nauseous but I don’t feel good and I feel a bit dizzy/lightheaded.

I would, usually they can accommodate temporary changes like that......

Have you ate at all today? that sometimes does it for me.