Roll Call 173

WastingAsparagus · Aug 15, 2020, 05:47 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

0.5mg last night killed my panic attack. That's all I've had in 4 days so it's good.

I think it's because I'm not that scared of panic attacks anymore. I just find them really annoying.

Yeah I took a Xanax XR earlier and it dampens my anxiety pretty well. I also took more Zyprexa, at my pdoc's on-call pdoc's request. Anyway, feeling somewhat better now.

Edit: sorry if that wasn't related to your post... ha

Desoxyn · Aug 15, 2020, 05:54 PM

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Originally Posted by WastingAsparagus

Yeah I took a Xanax XR earlier and it dampens my anxiety pretty well. I also took more Zyprexa, at my pdoc's on-call pdoc's request. Anyway, feeling somewhat better now.

Edit: sorry if that wasn't related to your post... ha

The Vyvanse is wearing off. Crazy how a stimulant helps prevents my panic attacks lol..

I'm gonna go sit in the sun. I feel aloneee

WastingAsparagus · Aug 15, 2020, 05:57 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

The Vyvanse is wearing off. Crazy how a stimulant helps prevents my panic attacks lol..

I'm gonna go sit in the sun. I feel aloneee

Yeah, do you have something to distract you if you feel super alone? For me sometimes audiobooks help. Sometimes comedy helps, too. Actually comedy really helps me. Listening to it. I am listening to an audiobook right now and that's helpful, even if I'm not even paying that much attention to it.

bpcyclist · Aug 15, 2020, 06:12 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

I think 50mg depletes my dopamine. 40mg doesn't.

Taking an extra 10mg every day takes more dopamine every day from my brain than what it can regenerate.

That's what I think...

It lasts ~9 hours and the wakefulness lasts 14 hours or so.. If I take 100mg, I crash and fall asleep after 9 hours anyways.

It's strange. I wanted to increase it to 60mg if I couldn't have a 5-10mg Dexedrine at the end of the day but that's basically running the engine without oil or coolant.

Add Wellbutrin equals more dopamine in the cleft. Works great.

bpcyclist · Aug 15, 2020, 06:24 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

0.5mg last night killed my panic attack. That's all I've had in 4 days so it's good.

I think it's because I'm not that scared of panic attacks anymore. I just find them really annoying.

Meditate, man. It is super helpful. Yoga w Adrienne on youtube has some good ones.

Sometimes psychotic · Aug 15, 2020, 06:27 PM

Had one of those new Arby’s fish sandwiches and curly fries....it was good....

bpcyclist · Aug 15, 2020, 06:40 PM

Yum!! Now I am hungry!!

Sometimes psychotic · Aug 15, 2020, 07:17 PM

Saw my credit card bill had amazon on it....was like what on earth did I buy last month.....turned out it was the bed chair I’m sitting on lol......

newtus · Aug 15, 2020, 07:25 PM

I want to sell my creative writing on Etsy but idk what to write. I thought maybe a zine but idk, I’m not good at drawing/decorating zines and I have no computer software for that.

Sometimes psychotic · Aug 15, 2020, 07:28 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

I want to sell my creative writing on Etsy but idk what to write. I thought maybe a zine but idk, I’m not good at drawing/decorating zines and I have no computer software for that.

Back in the day zines had just like cutouts and stuff that was pasted together not computer software....they were often made by people who just knew someone who worked at a copy shop.....

Sometimes psychotic · Aug 15, 2020, 07:29 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

I want to sell my creative writing on Etsy but idk what to write. I thought maybe a zine but idk, I’m not good at drawing/decorating zines and I have no computer software for that.

How are your book sales going?

newtus · Aug 15, 2020, 07:30 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

How are your book sales going?

Not good

newtus · Aug 15, 2020, 07:30 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

Back in the day zines had just like cutouts and stuff that was pasted together not computer software....they were often made by people who just knew someone who worked at a copy shop.....

I suppose I can do that. I need to make it original but idk how. My mind is so burnt out on life.

Desoxyn · Aug 15, 2020, 07:46 PM

I was thinking of doing a coursera course but the Vyvanse wore off. I've been lying in bed and yawning tears are coming from my eyes cuz I'm yawning so much..

My moms friend said she might want to go to dinner in 3 hours but that's the time that I want to be in bed.

Blue_Bird · Aug 15, 2020, 08:06 PM

I had a semi blip in my recovery from bulimia a week or so ago

Possible trigger:

ended up purging

Now I'm struggling with just binging

Sometimes psychotic · Aug 15, 2020, 08:11 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I had a semi blip in my recovery from bulimia a week or so ago

Possible trigger:

ended up purging

Now I'm struggling with just binging

Hugs bluebird.....

falcon09 · Aug 15, 2020, 08:11 PM

wanna stay up all night, been watching twin peaks

bpcyclist · Aug 15, 2020, 09:28 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I had a semi blip in my recovery from bulimia a week or so ago

Possible trigger:

ended up purging

Now I'm struggling with just binging

hugs and love, Blue.

Back on the horse...

bpcyclist · Aug 15, 2020, 09:36 PM

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Originally Posted by falcon09

wanna stay up all night, been watching twin peaks

"They got a cherry pie there that'll kill you."

Agent Dale Cooper

Desoxyn · Aug 15, 2020, 09:53 PM

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Originally Posted by Tamster

hi ,
have any of you heard about the new med for SZ called Caplyta?
i was wondering if anyone had tried it yet?
have a lovely day, Tams

Looks like a good med

Desoxyn · Aug 15, 2020, 09:57 PM

It works on glutamate and doesn't touch the dopamine pathways.. just serotonin..

See SP and I were right! It's not dopamine > : (

Although it indirectly affects dopamine..

bpcyclist · Aug 15, 2020, 10:21 PM

Glutamate in me.

bpcyclist · Aug 15, 2020, 10:32 PM

Caplyta is working mostly on 5HT2a receptors, maybe influencing AMPA-NMDA stuff.

1600 bucks a month in the USA. God Bless Capitalism. Plenty of us live on that much a month!! I cld never afford it.