Roll Call 173

Home from partial hospital, tired.

Good job!!

Getting motivated is really hard for me today. I have a job that is remote but I can't get myself to do any of it. It seems too high-pressure.

I also think I hate work that is not aligned with my goals.

Number 2

Talked to my sister. Was nice. She's stopping by Sunday with my planner, ice cream, hand soap, hand sanitizer and is going to check the tracking info for the yoga set tonight to see where that's at.

Appointment with my therapist tomorrow. Starting to taper off the thorazine beginning tonight.

There's a lot of ideas in my head. I keep searching up ideas after idea wanting to make the most money somehow as fast as possible or just laugh about everything either way works

The housing market fascinates me. Houses are expensive. Time to hijack this phenomenon.

Oh fack im breaking down in front of everyone here meh

What is a yoga set?

Hugs. Get a tiny house!! They are super cute!

Yoga mat, blocks, strap, towels

Bb do u ever get on xbox anymore

I was on the other day, I only have a couple games

Ah ok. Do u have game pass/ultimate yet? I suppose not if u said only a couple of games.

No I don't

Ah ok. I remember u said u were trying to fix your internet speed or something. Did the person/guy ever come?

I've been reading a lot more than I've been playing games lately. But I go through phases where I play a ton then not a lot then back to often and so on

Sorry if it seems like I’m grilling you With questions, I apologize.

Yeah it wasn't an internet speed thing even though I thought it was, it was just that the Wan Physical Status was down, whatever that means, but I was able to fix it with their help myself

No it's okay, you're not

I'll get the gaming pass eventually it will just be when I'm in a gaming phase because I want to get a lot of use out of it

I was just thinking today that I really need to save up and get a 512gb memory card for my switch because I'm sure I hardly have any space left since it doesn't come with hardly any memory

Was talking with psychonauts again. I asked for music. One said "Deftones".



I love this song.

Will play games on my phone later to exercise my mind. Maybe I'll sit outside.

The sky is grey and yellow like a Call of Duty game.

bought a red bull

Going off of Xanax tomorrow. Hopefully all goes according to plan. I'm assuming it'll be fine.

I don't know why but it seems like my pdoc doesn't like me being on benzos. Maybe it's for a good reason. I don't know.

Anyway, just drinking a big coffee right now. I know, it's before bedtime, but whatever.

Planned two classes today that I will teach tomorrow.

I am not loving being on 10 mg Zyprexa, but whatever controls the thoughts I guess.

I am not sure I love being on Zyprexa period. But it seems to control all this doubting I have.

I definitely wish I could be on fewer meds.