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#627
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Ugh hypo and racing thoughts
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One day I’ll leave my 6 flowers
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![]() bpcyclist, Job 30 26, SlumberKitty
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#628
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No one should be complaining about you when you’re having med changes. Don’t blame yourself. If they’re not understanding it’s on them for being inconsiderate.
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One day I’ll leave my 6 flowers
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#629
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One day I’ll leave my 6 flowers
and millions of butterflies 🌹🦋 |
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#630
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The people that don’t seem to understand is my mom, and sometimes my fiancé but he’s getting better at understanding lately. He sees me up all night and the stress I deal with visibly on my face. Otherwise I’m really just projecting onto people what they think of me. Logically. But it just feels like it’s that way because of peoples past things theyve said to me. Like my mom.
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"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
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#631
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One day I’ll leave my 6 flowers
and millions of butterflies 🌹🦋 |
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#632
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I'm definitely feeling more depressed now. I feel darkness behind my eyes and I'm definitely struggling. It feels like trying to breathe underwater. I go from feeling okay to feeling not okay pretty quick at times. I am wondering if I need to go to the hospital. I'm trying to decide. I don't want to go though.
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Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA |
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#633
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Yes I have. While my mom does have her own love Language she can also be very mean to me. Oh well. I have no money to pay my therapist right now anyway. I gotta pay last session and today, even tho I missed today. And she’s wondering if I wanna see her next week but idk.
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"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
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#634
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#635
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My next grocery trip will be Friday. I just need to get a few more things. Including Tilapia filets
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#636
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I saw my T on the 8th and I'm scheduled to see her this Saturday. I think I talked to my Pdoc in July? So I won't talk to him again until October. I will probably be okay but I just don't feel okay in the moment.
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Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA |
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#637
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I'm excited. I already have most of September's grocery trips planned out. lol Food is the best!
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#638
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Hallucinations and delusions suck.
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Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA |
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#639
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UGH. I contacted a friend to have her help me with how I'm feeling, which is bad, depressed etc. And she was like, maybe it's the weather. ???? Not sure how that was helpful. I want to be like, no I'm pretty sure that's not it. But I don't want to be rude.
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#640
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If you feel like you can be honest with this friend, then I would try to explain that it’s not just the weather. It’s good to have supportive people. Lots of people don’t get it. But those who do should be cherished for sure.
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"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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#641
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Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA |
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#642
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All of a sudden I don’t have the energy to do anything. Not physically but mentally. I feel blocked, mentally. I’m just sitting here. Waiting for the next dopamine ping aka phone noti.
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"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
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#643
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Amelia....my baby.
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Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA |
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#644
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Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA |
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#645
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I keep putting off going to the dentist but I'm gonna call next week (I'm busy this week) and set up an appointment to begin getting the rest of my fillings taken care of.
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#646
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So sorry to whine again. I'm just not feeling well. At least I am almost off of work. I can go home and curl up in bed and hopefully shut out these thoughts and stuff. I feel miserable.
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Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA |
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#647
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I do understand though, that sometimes the feelings can be overwhelming.
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"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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#648
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Oh also, I found something I really like doing lately. For every hour you spend working or doing something difficult, you should spend an equal amount of time on self-care. I mean sometimes that's not always possible, but I like the idea of doing things to be good to myself during the hours when I don't have difficult things to do. Just food for thought...
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"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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#649
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Was feeling apathetic but still ok. I thought about taking a 750mg capsule of phenibut but fear of dp/dr stopped me from doing it - Also, I didn't want to do it because I was ok. My mom noticed that I wasn't having fun because she was being bossy and rushing everything.
We were driving to the lake (Mountain beach with sand) and I was staring out the window imagining myself
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But they're just thoughts.. I actually had a really really good time! I suntanned and then took the float tube to the top of the river and floated down past everyone enjoying themselves for like 20 minutes.. Everyone was watching me float down stream.. I was having OCD thoughts but walking down the beach and putting my feet in the water was meditative and calming. It was a hot day with not much clouds - It was like being in Mexico. Now we're gonna have hamburgers and greek salad =] |
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#650
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Mine was way past my waist but it was cut a few weeks ago when they had to untangle some matted hair. I'm ok with it.
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