Roll Call 173

picked up 20mg lexapro

Me too. Incredibly much.

I do that too, it's definitely a good idea

I hope you'll be home soon, and can curl up under your weighted blanket.

Just put in requests for 5 books and 3 DVDs from my library. Might as well stock up on stuff to read/watch. Plus I have ebooks as an option too so that's cool. They'll call me when my stuff is ready to pick up

I'm taking 3 walks tomorrow. One to the train station and back, one to family dollar and back, then just a short one around the neighborhood

Hugs, 12!

Hugs, Kit!! You tell pdoc?

Sleep. New day manana.

I had a few drinks today while no one was looking and it didn’t make me feel better. Oh well. I shouldn’t drink anyway. I get obsessive about things.

I talk to my psychologist on Thursday get to tell her how my life is going.

Alcohol is super bad for my brain.

Why, what's up? I do 3 a day during campus rush then I'll go back down to a 6 pack a week after these 12 hour days stop. It's the only thing that helps me feel emotion.

Addictive and obsessive people have a great strength when they are addicted to/obsessed with something good - Then they become successful. It's a genetic advantage.

The world is just unnatural and heroin etc just hijacks the thing.

Gonna do a guided meditation for my brain being on fire

I want to ask the doctor for a lobotomy

Same here. Alcohol makes me worse mood-wise and everything. Makes my anxiety worse too, which is somewhat paradoxical...

Alcohol gives me psychedelic flashbacks. Can't drink that stuff anymore. I haven't drank socially in 6 months.

I got asked if I want a beer today and I said that I don't drink - So I was given a lemonade.. Good stuff.

The meditation helped a bit!

I want to listen to short stories.. If anyone has any sources let me know..

I can't wait for it to get colder like a freezer - I think by fall, my fear of panic attacks and flashbacks will be gone and we'll all feel a little better.. Summer is madness...

I feel aloooneeee

The world is getting to me. I'm still arguing with the people on the video chat in my head

I need to play games or something

I'm gonna find games on my phone. I don't feel like playing xbox/ps4

Edit: I'll go on Steam

I'm gonna make my mom and sister take me to see the northern lights. Or find someone in town that goes for night hikes or something to see them.

I hope my pdoc doesn’t mess with my meds again next week. Like please don’t mess up my meds again.

Oh and I’m listening to an Alan Watts book again.

Makes depression wsasy worse for me.

Alcohol is a depressant

I am not going to take benzos anymore. They make me feel strange. In a bad way. I mean I am more tired than ever and it's the morning, when I should feel motivated and like doing things. I also probably drink double the amount of coffee that I should because I'm on a benzo.

Ysssssss!!!!!!!! And weed causes sz in 25 percent of first time psychotics.