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#51
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I'm in hell
I suppose I'll just listen to music and chill |
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#52
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slipping between reality and psychosis
dont know if i need hospital
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#53
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#54
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I got to see my friend through the window yesterday, it was a tonic! It cheered me up. Now though I have anxiety through the roof.
They've lost two pairs of jeans in the past two weeks. Plus some small implements like a tweezers, and a small mirror. But I'm worried my friend will be terribly pissed off at me because I asked him to send me 10 one liters of soda. I hope he won't get upset. Life is just easier here with lots of soda. It gives me a reason to get up in the morning. I have one pair of pants left, but they're like black denim, opaque and kind of tight. I don't know what to do about my missing pants. Lean heavier on the laundry staff I guess, in a polite way. |
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#55
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Everyone seems to not be doing well.
*hugs* everyone
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"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
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#56
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I seem to be better off with no alcohol in the house. When I don’t have alcohol everything is fine and I barely want alcohol. When I have alcohol in the house I feel this impulsive need to just drink it.
My sister drank some of the tequila but I went through a box of wine and most of a bottle of tequila in like a week. Ugh. I’m better off without it. |
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#57
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#58
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I am a sugar addict. Sometimes I wonder if it is starting to make me sick but I hope not. |
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#59
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I don’t know whether to do the intensive outpatient program or not to do it. Help me decide?
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"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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#60
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It just takes a while for me to learn. I have low dose mush capsules but I'm gonna wait until my depersonalization/derealization is gone and I've learned more about meditation/spirituality - This may be a year or two. I'm incredibly honest to everyone in my life about these things. Ketamine nasal spray would be good because it worked in January - March of last year. Idk how good I was doing last year but it was better than this year. I was having psychosis when I lowered the Invega Sustenna injection to 4 weeks but it's back to every 3 weeks now again. So far my meds are keeping me stable and I'm very cautious about what I do now (Because of the bad trip making me fear death so much - I hallucinated a skull and crossbones, maggots, scorpions, spiders, etc). So far so good. Eventually I'll move to the west coast of Canada and can have a nice environment and be able to go to school. I told my doctor about ketamine and he said that one guy in town gets infusions but he wants to check with my psychiatrist to make sure that it's a good idea. I can't get a hold of my psychiatrist but will try to again this week. Ketamine doesn't harm me because it's just a dissociative but psychedelics do. |
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#61
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Maybe write down a list of pros and cons as to why you'd think it would be helpful or not. |
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#62
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#63
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I think I'm gonna do it. My meds are fine but I need better strategies for dealing with doubts and indecision and stuff like that.
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"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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#64
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I've done partial hospital a few times and that's helped a lot
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#65
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Sometimes I don't even notice my negative symptoms - But when I do, I say I'm depressed. I don't feel any low mood though - Rarely I do.
So just for clarification, it's the negative symptoms. |
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#66
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ordered fast food...
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#67
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"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
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#68
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I say do it. Prolly will help. Really helped me a ton.
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When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#69
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Good morning. Slept 9 hours 4 minutes, woke up on time and took a shower. Now just enjoying some coffee and relaxing till my ride comes this afternoon for my appointment.
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#70
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Taking the bus to walmart after I get back from my appointment to get a 100 pack of crayola colored pencils
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#71
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I need a job but I just realized if I take a job now, I will be overextending myself with things I have to do. Idk what to do.
I suppose I could do freelance work but idk, idk where to find any really.
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"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
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#72
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If you’re taking four classes I would not get a job.....
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#73
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Yea that’s what I’m saying. Unemployment has been extended and raised another 200 dollars. But idk for how long, which is what I’m worried about.
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"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
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#74
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Don’t you get loans for cost of living while in school?
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#75
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Idk do I? I guess I do. If it’s regular fafsa loans then ya I guess I do.
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"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
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