Roll Call 174

Desoxyn · Aug 26, 2020, 07:23 PM

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Originally Posted by Job 30 26

By the 30th of this month the Remeron should be out of my body completely. The only side effects is insomnia. I have a feeling I will be dealing with insomnia for quite some time. Also, I see that Ambien is not recommended for long term use. This is turning into a mess. There should be long term meds that help me sleep but my "feeling" circuitboard is completely off, so I never feel sleepy unless its 430am, but then I need to wake up at 8am to work, and I can't live like this.

@Desoxyn, I'll try harder to go to sleep, maybe that will help if I take restoril at 930 and hit the hay at 10pm

Yeah if you still have restoril then that's good

Edit: The brain needs 10-20 minutes of pretending to try and sleep regardless of sleeping pill btw

Desoxyn · Aug 26, 2020, 07:30 PM

Oh facckkk

I'm tired and exhausted. I'm waiting for my mom to come home again.

I feel like I can't even do light research or mental activity without my brain breaking in half. It's like doing a really hard puzzle or being cut off in traffic.

Desoxyn · Aug 26, 2020, 07:33 PM

One thing that Newtus told me was to take breaks.. I never try to take breaks. She says she'll take like 10 breaks a day.

I should definitely do that - Plan increments of activities like 20 minutes for each... I can't focus on one thing for over an hour that's ridiculous.

newtus · Aug 26, 2020, 07:41 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

One thing that Newtus told me was to take breaks.. I never try to take breaks. She says she'll take like 10 breaks a day.

I should definitely do that - Plan increments of activities like 20 minutes for each... I can't focus on one thing for over an hour that's ridiculous.

Yea me neither, for more than an hour or so. I need to be hypo in order to focus on something for more than a couple hours.

Blue_Bird · Aug 26, 2020, 07:46 PM

I don't feel comfortable here at my apartment. I feel like the others and management are trying to get me kicked out.

Desoxyn · Aug 26, 2020, 08:08 PM

Starting doing yoga - I planned to do it for 20 minutes but exhaustion and anxiety made my focus shift. I took 0.5mg of alprazolam and made chamomile tea. I might go back to it later if I feel better.

newtus · Aug 26, 2020, 08:25 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I don't feel comfortable here at my apartment. I feel like the others and management are trying to get me kicked out.

Why would they do that bb?

Blue_Bird · Aug 26, 2020, 08:32 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Why would they do that bb?

I don't know, I mean it's honestly likely all in my head. But it's just I get scared that this good living situation I've finally got will be taken from me, my mind creates all kinds of random reasons and scenarios why people here hate me and want to get rid of me. It's something I have to work on using CBT to change my thought patterns.

Blue_Bird · Aug 26, 2020, 08:33 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

Starting doing yoga - I planned to do it for 20 minutes but exhaustion and anxiety made my focus shift. I took 0.5mg of alprazolam and made chamomile tea. I might go back to it later if I feel better.

Yay, now 3 of us do yoga. You, me and 12am

newtus · Aug 26, 2020, 08:35 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I don't know, I mean it's honestly likely all in my head. But it's just I get scared that this good living situation I've finally got will be taken from me, my mind creates all kinds of random reasons and scenarios why people here hate me and want to get rid of me. It's something I have to work on using CBT to change my thought patterns.

I’m sorry you feel that way, bb. That makes me sad to hear. It’s highly likely a delusion, yes.

Desoxyn · Aug 26, 2020, 08:57 PM

Joe Nester - Good Enough

This song explains how I'm rn

Desoxyn · Aug 26, 2020, 09:13 PM

I cry on the kitchen floor lol

Angelique67 · Aug 26, 2020, 10:03 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I don't feel comfortable here at my apartment. I feel like the others and management are trying to get me kicked out.

I think this might be anxiety induced paranoia. Have you changed any of your meds or dosages?

12AM · Aug 27, 2020, 07:58 AM

Happy Birthday Newtus!!

newtus · Aug 27, 2020, 08:00 AM

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Originally Posted by 12AM

Happy Birthday Newtus!!

Thank you!!!

Aug 27, 2020, 09:11 AM

Happy birthday newtus

newtus · Aug 27, 2020, 09:12 AM

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Originally Posted by unsure123

Happy birthday newtus

Thank you!!!

bpcyclist · Aug 27, 2020, 09:22 AM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I don't feel comfortable here at my apartment. I feel like the others and management are trying to get me kicked out.

I think that is your illness, Blue.

Hugs.

bpcyclist · Aug 27, 2020, 09:24 AM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Yay, now 3 of us do yoga. You, me and 12am

Me, too!!

bpcyclist · Aug 27, 2020, 09:26 AM

Happy bday, newtus!!!

bpcyclist · Aug 27, 2020, 09:28 AM

I think someone broke into my apt and stole my bible to destabilize and torture me. Or maybe I lost it.

bpcyclist · Aug 27, 2020, 10:44 AM

Oh, found it. Yay!

Blue_Bird · Aug 27, 2020, 11:08 AM

Happy birthday Newtus!!

cogladaid · Aug 27, 2020, 11:10 AM

My meeting with the data science director went very well! We chatted and she gave me some advice. Says I’m on the right track. Just work on mathematics, computer science, and programming languages. Need to find more time for learning programming languages. If I get some of that under my belt I can get a head office job in data analysis which is closer to data science than where I’m at right now.

I’m excited! I did it all without dissociating or having a panic attack!

SlumberKitty · Aug 27, 2020, 11:20 AM

Happy Birthday Newtus!

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