Roll Call 174

I'm thinking (again) about ending therapy. But then I worry that if I am in crisis then I won't have anyone to turn to except for my pdoc and he's $200 per session. Bleh. But I'm not sure I'm getting that much out of it right now. It's hard to find a therapist though. Maybe I should hang on to her. Idk. I'm back and forth about it. Trying to not make any rash decisions.

Happy birthday, Newt!!!

No I haven't. I think I need to work harder with CBT to help diminish the paranoid/anxious thoughts though

Thanks everyone!!!

So my moms chemo was cancelled for tomorrow , they’re doing a brain scan instead....somehow she was telling everyone she had a ct of her head but it stopped at her jaw....now I’m worried she could have like a brain tumor or anything.....

It’s not uncommon to do once a month maintenance therapy.....

Some flowers I bought for next year! Yay!

Wearing Christmas socks. No idea why. Just thought they’d be fun to put on today. Need to get some Halloween ones 🎃

I used to have these really cool spider socks with webbing....

happy birthday newtus!!

Hopefully the brain scan doesn't find any abnormalities.

Woke up at exactly 12:00pm. Drinking coffee. Will have a shower, hygiene, do chores, etc.

The way I rearranged my room is really helping with dissociative panic attacks. I'm managing to be doing things or at least attempting + Not smoking weed or taking anything.

Happy birthday Newtus

Hugs, SP!!!

Did all of my thingz.. Took 2 hours.

Now will listen to podcasts outside in the sun, might read, then do yoga and then go on Coursera.

Would be nice to have a 5mg Desoxyn.

@Sometimes psychotic

best of wishes for your mother. Hope she can get better. Cancer is scary.

I need to post here more often... because even in PHP I don't understand their issues and feel like they're talking about frivolous ****. They don't understand psychosis.

The new apartment case manager called me to set up an appointment to meet next week. She seems nice. (this is a separate thing from my regular care manager, this one works here at the apartments)

Gonna do keto diet

Gonna withdraw from sugar. Should take 3-6 weeks to feel better.

Just sent a fall Punkpost card to the fam.....love th calligraphy and included two pics from my photos files....thanks again Newtus for telling me about them......

Few seconds into being entrepreneur;

Tired

I cut back on a lot of the sugar I was eating, not sure if I feel differently yet but we'll see, it's only been a couple weeks so far. I love looking up the different health benefits of different foods and learning about how to eat healthier and have a healthy body.

I just looked up the site. That seems cool. I may send one to my best friend since she lives in another state.

It’s super cool...your first card is free from th app....and they’ll draw stuff or include photos and glitter for a bit extra

It's like me: Drug addiction - Hidden molecular psychopharmacologist potential
You: Bulimia - Hidden nutritionist/physical health potential

We must keep a healthy level within the fine line...

I spent an hour or so researching about MCT oil, ketones salts like beta-hydroxy-butryrate in the form of sodium, magnesium and calcium.. mmol/L of ketones.., different diets and types of foods, benefits, etc..

Anyways I took 5mg of olanzepine instead of 0.5mg alprazolam to see if it helps with my focus and impatience so I can go on Coursera without giving up due to stress...