Roll Call 186

I have a video appointment with my psychiatrist tomorrow. I get to tell her about the vocational rehabilitation I'm trying to get into to get a part-time job. My care manager is also going to talk to me tomorrow, probably about that.

The brownies I made are really good. They're super fudgy which is how I like them. I'm just relaxing and drinking a white chocolate caramel cappuccino, watching some anime, and waiting for my new joycons for my Nintendo Switch to be delivered sometime this afternoon/evening.

Cool! I just got some pumpkin patch scented wax. And stuff from B&BW is awesome, I love their aromatherapy lotions

When's your birthday?

I need to have my Van Gogh painting hung (the Cafe Terrace at Night), I keep saying that and keep forgetting to do it. I have to put in a maintenance request so they can come up and hammer a nail into the wall for it

This is it:

That's pretty Blue_Bird!

Argh. I'm hungry today even though I ate. I think I'm stressed and as such stress eating.

It’s amazing how much better I feel after taking a hot shower

Im sorry you’re stressed. I hope they get back to you soon about the appointment

I’m stress eating too, I’m stressed about the apartment inspection next Friday and also about the vocational rehabilitation/part-time work thing. I’m excited about it (not the inspection, the working) but nervous too.

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The imaging center got back to me and now I have an appointment on Wednesday.

So much mental pain

HUGS Desoxyn

An hour left of work......

I feel like I'm in an episode of black mirror or some dystopia where I'm going to die soon.

I did a 23 minute mindfulness meditation for anxiety last night. It helped with my anxiety. I might do some yoga tonight, not sure. Probably will though. It makes me feel more centered.

Can't get on the treadmill tomorrow because I have 2 appointments, laundry and cleaning to do. So I'm just going to do some weights, squats and exercises w/ resistance bands, and possibly yoga again if I have time. But Wednesday I'm going to get two walks in because I have to walk to CVS to pick up my meds then later to Family Dollar.

Thursday I'm going to my friends house, and I have to walk there and it's a long walk so that's some exercise. We're gonna play Pokemon TCG and the Lord of the Rings LCG. Can't wait actually! It's gonna be a lot of fun. Then Sunday I'm going to the park/lake area with my sister if the weather's nice. Otherwise I'll just have her over for coffee.

I need to start planning out what I'm going to get my family and friends for Christmas. I know it's early but I like to have an idea of what to get them so I can do my shopping in October or November and have it out of the way, so I can wrap stuff in December.

I Christmas shop early too BB. Can't afford to do it all at one time!

Thinking of taking $$ out of savings and paying off my car. I have 9 payments left so it is getting manageable. But it would be so nice to not have a car payment. I think I'm going to do it.

Same here, it's definitely easier to get gifts over several months than buy everything at once

I got a 3 pack of cutting boards. They're really nice and there are 3 sizes, regular, medium, and small. I'm hoping to get better at chopping vegetables/produce and whatnot and cooking. It will be much easier than trying to cut stuff on plates. Idk why it's taken me a year and a half to buy cutting boards but oh well, I have them now

My Christmas shopping is done in that I don’t buy Christmas presents lmao.

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Right? It helps my morning anxiety so much if I take a hot shower in the morning. Good sleep would help but that's not an option for me, this is the only thing that really works.

Hi everyone. = )

Congrats Newtus!!!
You'll make a great one =)

Has anyone here done EDMR for PTSD? It does something with the eyes and makes the person relive their trauma which sounds uncomfortable but if done with a professional it woudl help process trauma. Will this just retraumatize me? I wonder how much it costs. I need serious help so I'm willing to try it if i can find it somwhere for a reasonable price.

I'm so stressed out about my apartment inspection, I'm literally crying. I feel like they're all going to try to get me kicked out or something. My neighbors are probably plotting against me

I bought 4x USB drives to make the Monero Wallet

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I'm getting red bumps all over me. Idk what they are. I'll have to see the doctor. Reality keeps getting weird for me. It is my time to go =P

God I want to read books but I can easily just go to bed.. If some1 has a solution to this let me know

Idk if this will help or not, but something that has helped me in the past is reading with a pencil in hand (even if you don’t underline anything) just so it keeps you alert. That and coffee.