Roll Call 191

Hope you get some help…..

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Starting to have a cough, not sure if I'm getting sick or if it's from acid reflux

How is your omeprazole working out?

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Have possibly a uti…had to visit the doc today….they’re giving me antibiotics in bloodwork and urine culture.

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It’s raining hard here….I know it’s spring but this seems more like summer rain…..

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It's good mostly, I don't have acid reflux every single time I eat anything anymore, so food and acid aren't constantly coming up like they used to thankfully. I just get it if I eat too much or drink too much liquid at once now. I think this is from my meds though because sometimes get acid reflux from them as well, I have to take 7 pills in the mornings so that's kind of hard on my stomach, and I also took two ibuprofen today on top of those so 9 pills, yeah, they give me bad acid reflux especially if I don't eat decently before taking them.

I think the cough today is from acid reflux because of that and I don't feel sick physically

Hope you get better soon!

I'm slowly cutting back on coffee and making it a once in awhile treat. I was just gonna stop, but I think that's why I woke up with a headache today, I only had one cup yesterday morning compared to the 5 or 6 I normally have each day. I only had 3 today, so I'm gonna do that for a couple days then cut down to 2 then 1 then none. I drink it black unsweetened so it's not really sugar that's the problem with this in particular, it's the acidity messing with my both teeth and acid reflux and also anxiety from the caffeine

Hope you feel better soon!

Dear @Blue_Bird, books are so very definitely wonderful, & so very much are our libraries! Mental illness is such a painful villain, & a thief, taking away from us such beautiful fulfillment, food for the soul. So good for you, paying off that fine, & then continue to enjoy so many more wonderful books! God bless you, dear Blue_Bird.

Occasionally you can Ask to negotiate fines because that is really high…if they’re All late fees they may waive part in extenuating circumstances…..replacement fees and collections can’t be negotiated though.

I can’t believe I didn’t do homework yesterday and now I feel like crap…may have to use Saturday to do it…..

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HUGS SP, hugs

My mom can't attend the therapist appointment cuz she has to work late. So Idk what I'm gonna say.

I rushed everything at work and then had a shower etc and cleaned the house when I came back. I see my therapist in less than an hour.

I'm full of energy but compulsive need to organize everything around me so I can then try and organize my mind. I still procrastinate things.

Hopefully, if I psych myself into a better mood and fake it until I make it, I could be better idk.. It's norepinephrine energy from the Wellbutrin (I think).

I think lack of emotion is my type of depression. I would love to actually feel melancholy (And I did this morning, I cried - And last night too). Like the comedown of MDMA in 2017, I cried 250 times in a week - That's what I assume depression to be like (Which I think is actually not that bad - It's better than feeling nothing).

I just need to tell her about my nihilism, disorganized mind... And idk.. Idfk.

Hugs desoxyn….

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Maybe you can tell her you’re depressed and having sui thoughts and she can go from there….

If you can feel bad then you can feel good too and often we need to feel like we are walking through hell before we feel good again.

Ask about goals maybe too?

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So I’m glad I’m not in as much pain as this morning but not I feel like I’m faking the whole thing because I haven’t even taken any meds….just resting……I’m starting to wonder if I’m just having my period without bleeding. I asked the doc if that could happen and she said yes but she’s worried I could have a kidney stone.

My therapist is still sick so it was cancelled (I was left a voice message but didn't know).

But I'm doing very good. I spent 150 dollars on essential things that I need from the pharmacy. The house is clean. Everything is good.

I'm not gonna smoke weed or drink alcohol =]

Sounds good desoxyn….hope you get to see her soon.

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HUGS Dexoxyn

HUGS SP--hope you don't have a kidney stone

I ordered some of that salted caramel tea you were talking about SP, and some Pirouette cookies (french vanilla cream filled wafers) to go with it

MMM sounds good BB

I'm getting my hair cut/styled/colored today after work.

I rearranged my pictures of my sponsored Compassion Kiddos by age and gender in my office at work. Obviously I had some time today to ponder how they should be!

I think I need to take another week off of work for mental health but rearranging my office does seem to be helping some. I need to clean off my desk. That would help too. That's my goal before the end of the month.