Roll Call 192

Gyno ordered a cancer test for me just in case but also a pelvic ultrasound…I have to wait a week more to get it.

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Hope everything is okay SP

Thanks SK.

I have to read more novels. I think I get in my head too much when reading nonfiction. Just an observation.

Hope everything will be okay

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Little bit of sui yesterday but today everything is OK.

I am calm, happy and focused! I went skiing today and a hike yesterday. Last night, I took 4 different depressants and knocked myself out.

I hope you'll be OK @SP.

I’m Probably just overly cautious given what happened to my family but I feel safer having the test.

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Did you ever get to talk to your T about the sui stuff?

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I've gone nuts I tell you

I will listen to music and chill for now..

My mind is smarter than my brain if u know what I mean...

No.. no.

I work 3 days a week and do things another 2 days. So I only have Monday and Thursday to make haircut appointments, doctors appointments, dentist, therapy.. I can't handle everything.

I try SP...... I used to sleep. All I did was dream on antipsychotics and take a bottle of Concerta in a few days then sleep again.

Tomorrow I'll try and organize things (Thursday). I'll make appointments etc..

I'm just always.. Not OK (And people online put me down for complaining!) but not you guys.. You're all good.. much love

There's something about eggs,. a buttermilk biscuit w/ butter or toast w/ butter, and bacon or sausage that is so delicious. It's such a satisfying meal. I didn't eat since 10:30am today and it's 6 now. I just made some eggs and sausage and it was soooo good.

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I talked with my friend again today from high school. He's in Poland at the moment (he's in the army) so we're in vastly different time zones but we talked for about an hour earlier before he went to bed.

I'm going to hang out with my friend on Sunday. We're gonna watch a couple movies and maybe play a game.

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My apartment buildings fire alarm went off at 1am last night. Woke me up out of a dead sleep and scared my cat. I quickly tried to get ready to go outside and evacuate then it stopped after a minute of course. So I went back to sleep.

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Also I haven’t purged in 79 days

I’m still trying to get the hang of balancing how I eat and not go too far in either direction with restricting and bingeing but this is still some good progress I think.

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Just got on the treadmill for 30 min. again. I gotta do this every day. It boosts my mood so much.

22 Ways to Expand Your Mind - wikiHow

My mind was the opposite of expanded - But I wasn't stupid.. It was just completely shut down by the world.

"Psychedelic drugs alter consciousness in a profound and novel way that increases the breadth and fluency of cognition."

But schiz = No! Not yet.. Damn it.. More research is needed.

Who knows if I really have schiz and am just a lucky (Cuz no psychosis from psychomimetics apart from weed) autist

Ugh I feel like garbage. Such mental agony. What is with this?

My mental state is deteriorating again. Seems like that always happens about this time of year. I wonder if I need an IOP again.

Egh, definitely not doing an IOP. Just realized that.

I am thinking about getting a cat. Seriously this time. I really need a companion.

Pets are great…unfortunately I’m allergic but if you’re not I say go for it.

Couldn’t sleep all night now brain is burning

I don't think I'm allergic. My roommate has a cat and I haven't really had any allergies to the cat. So that probably means I'm not allergic. I think.