*sighs* Please reply. I'm in need of some support... *triggering*

You're nasty too. Cursing at me. Naughty boy. lol.

I've been in a psychiatric ward, too.
God.
This is not a contest, and it's quite disgusting you're suggesting as such in MY thread.
And yes, it is about me. Because this is MY thread seeking support for ME.
Are you just tuning in?
I'm done with you.
And I don't do that to everyone, I do it to people who act like you towards me.

This could be just me, obviously, but I'm hearing distinctly mixed messages from you:

I know. When I've been in places like where you seem to be right now, it's felt like very hard work to reach out or not to, to present one side of how I feel or the other; and (again, this is just me) neither one has been what I've really wished I could talk to someone about. I'll take the liberty of telling you what I imagine you saying between the lines:


(Withdraws to safe distance, sits down, watches quietly)

-- FooZe
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Rushing in where angels fear to tread since... whenever.

meet me in the Lobby (chat?)

*nods* okay... thanks Manda.

ok - lets try to be supportive

I have a couple of points I would like to make.

First - PC is for support of everyone here and as I have said before if someone tells you of their pain it is usually to let you know you are not alone..... sometimes giving back support to these people helps us to feel better too - - lets hope there is room in the lifeboat for all of us or this is a sorry place to be. jmo.

Second - Pupp I know you are in a dark place and sometimes pushing people away is harder - much harder than letting them in - that can feel dangerous and scary - I know it does for me - the tendancy to isolate ourselves is always there ..... things can get better - its hard work - you ahve to keep getting up when it feels so much better to just lay down and let the world roll over you - you can do this - you can get past this - second by second if necessary - but it can be done.

I really hope things work out for you Pupp and for everyone else who is experiencing problems at the moment and I send and to Pupp and everyone else too

Hi Pupp
I'm not sure who you were talking to but I really don't think anyone has anything but support for you. Like she said..."everybody hurts" I support you even if I don't get it all...no body knows your life but you.
I know a real good book called "I Hate You...Don't Leave Me" and I read all of it. If, and I won't assume anything, you are anything like me, it will sound wicked true for you too.Take care of yourself, K?
Raven

((Raven)) i have heard that book has been helpful for many people. thank you for bringing it up - i couldn't remember the title of it myself.

((pup)) i hope you aren't struggling as much as you were at the beginning of this thread with self harm urges anymore .

hullo pupp..............anything beads kin do help rite now?
sendign hugs & warm fuzzies......
feel free pm iffen you needs too
tc,
all of us beadys

want to cut.:/

I was on the verge of crying my eyes out so tired and depressed earlier today. I hugged a big stuffed animal and had a nap hanging onto him. I feel a little better now. Don't cut. Hug something cute and fuzzy. Sorry if it sounds trite, but sometimes that's all that helps me make it through.

it wont work.
ive got a teddy.
i cuddle him when i sleep.
i cant sleep.
i just want to cut.

I'm sorry. I'd try to distract myself some other way. Like a project or TV. I like to bake when I have the energy. Anything. If nothing seems to help, try to contact your T or P-doc. Or call a friend. And keep writing us on the site. A lot of us feel like cutting in the depths of sadness. Whatever it takes to do something else healthy instead. I'm going to go clean my chinchilla cage. I'm super tired still, but it's not their fault. Feel better soon. I'll check back later. Take care of yourself.

I've already said in this thread I have no T or Doctor.

Nevermind.

Pupp, try and do somthing else instead of cutting - think about how you will feel later - if you're anything like me you will be even sadder....

can you try to sleep - or do somthing that keeps your hands busy?

look at the top of the page at the stickies and see if there is anything there that helps.... sometimes just reading that can help.

take gentle care of you ok

be safe - P7

i doubt i can feel worse.
i cant sleep.
i cant take this stupid nytol to help me sleep because ive been on tramadol for months for my health and they could interact and cause respiratory depression.
need to be up for 8am.
its now almost 3am.

im so tired.
so stressed.
SO LOW.
WANT TO HURT SELF.
hides.
:l
NONONO.
whatever.
Im such a failure.

Sorry I didn't read the entire thread. Hope you'll find some way to deal with the urges. Virtual hugs. Let me know if there's anything I can do.

Dear Pupp, I am sorry you are feeling so low - please try and be kind to you ok - its so hard when you cant sleep - can you see your dr and ask if there is somthing you can get to help you sleep - tomorrow or when you can - take care P7

(((((Pupp)))))))) Perhaps this would be a good time to find a doctor or therapist? There are usually lots of places with therapists/doctors for those with less finances (low income). I can help you look if you want, but you really need to find someone to talk to offline to help deal with stuff. Dealing with SI by yourself is really hard (been there, done that... I really have and I regretted it).

no.
im fine.

You are hurting , whether this intense suffering is a result of your own behaviour or of uncontrollable environmental elements is irrelevant; suffering is suffering. You frequently voice that your life is is indeed a living hell and that may be valid, the only solution is that YOU change your life.

Get involved, get a T and get a pdoc and start a recovery process, you cant threaten that you are indeed going to hurt yourself, that is not fair on you and it is not fair on those, and there are many here that care about you. It would be most disappointing to them.

I dont for a second diminsh the pain you are experiencing but there are more effective and safe methods of confronting that pain than cutting a gash in your arm which will lead you no where.

Getting help isnt easy and it takes commitment and trust, you can do that, and you will do that.

You will get better.

Freaked out
Insecure
Neurotic
Emotional

That's what I mean when I say "I'm fine".

Pupp, you need the offline support. It's not easy asking for help, but it's so worth it.

I also agree with paddym22.

We're not trying to be mean, but we're hurt that you're hurting.

I dont "threaten".
I did hurt myself.
Woopdedo.
And my life is a living hell and it can get better but Ill always struggle with numerous things, your point?
Ive got a stupid appointment with a pathetic psych on the 29th, big woop. I posted here for support, not people telling me i need to get offline support, ive already done that, since i was seven years old, more than half my life ive been seeing multiple professionals, yet here i am.
You dont have to be a T/pysch to support someone.
But if not, I have other people who support me off this website here, im fine with that. I just wanted support from here and people to talk to and to be listened to, like on any support site.

Im not in the mood to post here right now.
I am extremely exhausted and I am feeling very low and im in a bad way right now so Im not posting because if I do ill end up fighting.
So bye.

I think you both do and don't want support from us. Fighting that out with us out here can help you only so much to resolve something that's going on for you over there.

May the best Pupp win!

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I don't expect you'll feel like clicking the "Thanks" button on this post but (regrettably or otherwise) they don't seem to provide the other kind...

please dont joke about my name or put a new definition behind it.
its my nickname by someone very important and special in my life.

and ive been "fighting" out here from things going on over there for years.
it actually helps me to talk to people on here, and be listened to, and supported better than any T/Psych has done for me for the past 9 years.

Actually, I didn't intend anything of the sort. May the best you win.

Good! That's really all I want.

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Sounds like the best you is winning!