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Old Dec 15, 2005, 05:25 PM
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When am I going to get some sleep? ugh! Thoughts of suicide and cutting are on my mind 24/7 and if I finally do get an hours sleep, I dream about cutting and suicide and I wake up in cold sweats. I don't know what to do. I can't seem to do anything to stop these thoughts. I feel like they are pushing me, trying to make me do it. I feel at war with my own self. These thoughts are pushing me in a direction I can't seem to stop. I am keeping busy trying to stop them, but they won't stop. I just want some sleep, and for these horrid thoughts to go away. It won't get out of my head!!!
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Old Dec 15, 2005, 05:40 PM
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I know what you mean. I'm sorry you're going through this.
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Old Dec 15, 2005, 06:32 PM
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Ally,
Does your therapist know about this?
Do you have any movies to watch to help you get your mind on something else?
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Old Dec 15, 2005, 07:13 PM
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Ally,
I am sorry you are feeling so badly. Please don't do anything to hurt yourself. Call a hotline, call a friend, or even call 911 if you feel unsafe. PM me if you need to.

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Old Dec 16, 2005, 02:23 AM
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((((Ally)))) sounds like a horrible place to be in, I can relate. It won't get out of my head!!! I've always thought that things would be so much easier if I wouldn't be 'fighting' myself. It's kind of like you're your own worst enemy, right? but if it helps at all, post here and as others have suggested try to keep yourself busy w/ activities, so that you can get distracted and a break from this. I find that sometimes forcing myself to do things, especially with other people, will help some. can you tell a friends? T? someone? this is a lot to deal with on your own.
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Old Dec 16, 2005, 12:20 PM
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Hi Ally,

If you have a t or pdoc, please call him right away. You need help with this. Hang on and call him.

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Old Dec 16, 2005, 11:30 PM
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(((((((((((((((((((((Hey Alley! It won't get out of my head!!!))))))))))))))))))))))

I've also been fighting these feelings. I wake up in the morning feeling like a loser b/c I didn't cut the night before. (Night time, early a.m. is my cutting time) I felt like nobody cared that about it being my birthday today. It won't get out of my head!!! I have been thinking about cutting all day, but my T isn't home; and I cannot tell my hubbie (I dug around his stuff and found my old cutting knife & hid it good.

Ally, you have alternatives ---- us! It won't get out of my head!!! Ppl around here care about you.....I never get much support, much. BUT, YOU DO!! In the meanwhile, just keep your mind occupied---for me---I always have a "movie fest" Watch all my favorite funny ones, ("What About Bob'is my favorite & "Patch Adams") It won't get out of my head!!!

Hang in there, girl! In times of adversity, you find great courage.................

Prismatic9 It won't get out of my head!!! It won't get out of my head!!! It won't get out of my head!!! It won't get out of my head!!! It won't get out of my head!!! It won't get out of my head!!!
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Old Dec 17, 2005, 01:50 AM
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happy birthday prismatic! Thanks everyone else for your replies, and advices. I have spoken to my doctor yesterday about all this, he said that I might need to be on different medication, he said something about effexor... or something. I don't really know about it, or if it could help me feel better and get some sleep. My doctor and psychiatrist will have a talk about that and get back to me I guess. In the meantime, I have to sit on my hands and wait....
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Old Dec 17, 2005, 02:56 AM
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Ally Angel,

Please keep sitting on your hands, or take up knitting, until you get your meds adjusted. Don't be afraid to follow-up with your therapist and/or doctor. They need to keep your meds at the right levels and combinations--that's their jobs!!!

What are your plans for Christmas?

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Old Dec 17, 2005, 09:23 AM
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Please call your t or pdoc. They can help you as this is very hard to do on your own. Please be safe and get hold of someone. PM me if you ever need someone to talk to.
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Old Dec 18, 2005, 03:01 AM
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prismatic- just as a side note, I saw that it was your birthday (it announces it a the top of the main forum menu) and I remembered having read some of your posts/replies.... and I thought that this was a very cool idea to announce people's b-days....hope you had a good one. I'm positive lots of people on here DO CARE. It won't get out of my head!!!

ally- good to hear you talked to your doc. keep the conv. going w/ him to see what you can do.
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